updates

my dear friend kartel said to me today at work:

"kau mcm tk update jer blog kau.."

hehehh.. been effing busy lah to update ah. like totally lah.

last Monday had chalet with my Endangs and the guys as well.. kekek lah eh.. ahaha.. it went on fine lah can.. then at night, when all of us wanted to sleep.. this particular person just wont shut up. oh, he wasnt really invited lah actually. peh irritating. me, hairil and zoul and nafis were so fucking pissed off lah.. cheebay.. kite dah sedap2 tdo dulu den dier bising.. geez.

but overall, if we minus that part off, the chalet was great lah.. hairil kena butter on his face. ahaha.. his parents came over. gee... i so do not want to rmb that part. paiseh gilerbabz okeh..

uhmm.. then the next day, 'woke' up at 730 am.. luckily i showered first, if not, have to quarrel with 14 over ppl for shower. haha.. then, siap2 and checked out.. had breakfast at Afghanistan at Tamp, den head home.

ahaha.. then in the train, the same irritating guy followed us and sat beside Nafis.. Nafis bo layan ah when he's listening to his mp3.. then Nafis wore his hood and sat leant in front. The irritating guy wore his hood and leant in front too. Then Nafis took off his hood and leant back. the irritating guy, too, took off his hood and leant back.

i was laughing like heck la.. den i msg Nafis.. "Blood brother baru or wad.." then he was like.."FUCKKK. COPYRIGHT SEHHHK"

hahaha.. blardy hell.

then went reached jrg east, waitd for mum, and went to JB. slept at 9pm that day.

and... the next day.. ade MCG Family Day. Was supposed to meet Esah, Ain, Jay and Atie at Jrg East at 830am. But i woke up at 9.30 am lah.. ahhaha. .. den siap2.. then i was like, fuck lah.. i have no idea how to go to East Coast Park. hahaha. then called him up to accompany me. haha.. we left there around 5 plus lah.. coz i was still shagged from the chalet.. then went to Bedok and waited for the parents to fetch.

and now, i'm at work. new duties. beach carpark eh.. office job or whaaaad. hurhur... tkpelah.. ok lah tu eh. geez..

i'm done updating.. =)

reply to tags

ifah: aku pun ko tk link...:
==> okeh.. ku dah link! =))

Fadhil: hihi.. how are ye?
==> uhmm okay lah.. fadhil maner eh ni?

Ain: Dee! Harap cepat sembuh yer! Takmu overwork.. Nanti semua org risau.. Ehem pon risau.. hehe!
==> lol~ dun worry. i'll be fine.. ahaha.. ehemm eh? LOL.

huda: yessaa.. aku pon miss dk sey.. biler nie dee next training.tk sabar nk main rebana nie? hehe.. miss ya..
==> wahh mummy dengan semangat nye lah seh nak main rebana.. wakkaka..

lee: i really really really seriously sincerely miss DIKIR LA.
==> i miss dikir too. this wed okeh??

jaJa: tK link sEy... haha;p
==> okeh dah link.. =))

kartel: wad's happenin there dian?
==> i'll tell u when u come back from indon~

lee: lol. missing u & endang like MAD LA. no dikir after skool makes us feel so incomplete & tergapai-gapai. sadsadsad. WEN NIE DIKIR ?
==> ahhaa.. yeah lor.. i miss all u so much lah can.. haiiz. takpe.. dis wed got mini trg. hehh~



last friday, went to watch rush hour 3 with dearest. heh.. was super funny lah can.. thumbs up for the show. then went to school to meet the girls for our mini meeting session.

and it ended up in tears. i'm glad that we opend up lah. really.. and after that, i guess, we bonded a lot. =)

went to work on saturday. i fainted at work and was hospitalised overnight at sgh. haiiz.. they said that i've fits. oh great... just what i needed. urghhh. another illness.

ok well, till next time.

screwd

my life is basically screwed, mind you.

its a decision i have to make. and i've made that decision and i dun wanna regret anything. nth has been officialised yet. i hope it will be soon. my future, my past. i have no idea what i'm gonna do but staying is not an option for me.

i feel so trapped. its not a decision which i'm proud of. but its something which i wanna do badly. been scolded and lectured by lotsa people for my decision. but nth they said changed my mind.

i'm sorry my Endangs for having to leave u girls on your own for Khatulistiwa. But dun worry, i will still be around at ATP.

So, enuff about that.

while some downside stuff happend, my life did go uphill.

after months of waiting, the wait is finally over. Love has come back to me. He's been there emotionally and physically for me. and that, i'm really happy for. i love you sweetness and thanks for everything.

so thats it.

reply to tags.

Shacute: takyah la dikir sorg2.. meh lah join kitorg kat ATP. =)))

lee: thanks baybeh.. but u know what my decision is lah hor. hmm. i love u lah ehhhh. wakaka.

mak esah dongga: alahhai.. bleh menangis lah aku. =(

kholique: okay. linked.

haiiiz.

so many things i wanna say but too tired and lazy to type down. pichas will do i guess..





okay well, that's that.

yesterday's combined training was effing tough. was pissed with a lot of people. the point is, sometimes, i feel overpowered. the thing is, too, i don't mind if the girls wanna voice up, i welcome them to. but, not till someone don't know their limits and don't respect me as a leader.

secondly, was pissed off with him. asal tukar steps jer nak muke mencengis pasal steps. and i was like fine uhhhh. malas ah nk carik steps. and plus, the girls keep wanting to change steps. korg kene ingat, ini show 2 jam. korg buat steps susah2 buat per. memenatkan diri jer.

haiz.. the whole taman warisan show is just pissing and stressing me off. urggggh.

my fyp evaluation is in 1 1/2 hrs. i am fucking stressed up lah. lama2 aku bleh jadi giler lah seh. ini stress itu stress.

haiiz.

saya sayang awak sgt2.

exhaustion

tired. exhausted. words cant explain it all. one after the other. shows after shows.. all in the name of exposure and fun.

am so lucky to have dearest around. if not, i dun think anybody can understand the busyness that me and the Endang girls have. parents are now nagging to each and everyone of us for going back late every single day. i'm just pekak-ing my ears.

had the combined training wif Chingx3, Harapan and TKDD last nite. it was cool lah. great atmosphere. and finally, for the first time, the public knows who our instructors are and no more hiding.

haiiz. i dun understand some ppl u noe. instead of giving support to new groups, some ppl are just not happy with us. well, i understand lah maybe the color same lah kan, but it was purely accidental. geez. and also, ive got ppl wearing tudung seh in my grp, what am i supposed to do wif that??

ok lah, maybe the cara pakaian same i dun mind lahh... But! DUN ever say that cara permainan kite same. coz its NOT THE SAME.

selame nie aku main dgn korg, tkde pun henjot menghenjot atau meroyak, korg main contemp siaa. kite main ASLI! ragam kite berbeza! kitorg takde main steps belit2 nye. sume simple2. korg boleh pe main royak henjot?

hurhh. the nerves.

AGM next. ciao.