updates.

I FOUND THE SONG WHICH I'VE BEEN WANTING!!

Jampi cerampah by dikir temasek II. suke lah sey. and i like it more when cdm bring that song. style lah their steps that time during that show at kampung melayu last week. but i watched the video during their yishun show.. that's better sia.

sekuntum cengkih sedikit cekur sejengkal halia
tujuh helai sireh urat bertemu salaikan ia
darah si ayam putih tujuh titis air mata buaya
Rumus di dalam cengkih diiringi jampi cerampah

oh anyway, i'm blogging at mac again. there's a mad woman at the table beside mine. and she stinks. big time. i'm just hoping she goes away quick lah. i just have this deep dislikeness for stinky people lah. oh and she's talking to herself but nobody's noticing her. ok whatever.

when i came in to mac, saw this mac delivery guy. didnt really look at him lah. but then he went behind the counter and i saw his face clearly. and i'd notice that face anywhere.

md nurhaizal, one of my primary school best friend. i dunno whether he recognise me with my new look or not lah. i saw aziz too, my colleague from sentosa.

ok, the mad lady is scaring me.

last wednesday, rp's iftar. it went well lah. some pics..

me and wirni
step formal lah nie?



me and my future leader. =)

zoul stop it sia muka. haha

i love this one.

my favourite. bdk2 dikir yang pergi iftar and the 2 heads. Dian and Danial.

ok. thats all the update. besok training. wheeee! sunday keje!! YESSAH!

but then, kerje but abang nazree won't be around anymore. boring lahhh. didnt even get a chance to take a pic of him. but i've got one snapshot of him. haha. but entah mane aku letak.

ok. i'm done.

shutup

so he found out. and so, i got to stop.

really soon, baby. i promise.

yesterday watched i now pronounce you chuck and larry with hairil, nafis and zoul. kekek lah okeh. hahaha. its a must watch but only for 18 and above. HAHA.

we finally talked on the fon last night. talked till sahur. haha.

i feel loved. haha. =)

hair issues

no pun inteded with the reddish orange thing. now my hair is reddish orange too. lol. my dad freaked out when i came out with this color hair.

oh anyway, went to geylang with my cousin and her friends, then.. we went off on our own and bought like lotsa food. and went to break fast at our usual place.

when we met at jurong east, she looked at my hair and was like, "what happend to your hair?!"

ouh gee.. just a different colour.

okok.. i realise that its very striking and it stands out and i looked like a minah. but hey, there's a minah in every malay girl. hurhur.

oh and anyways, met like a lot of people i know and it started out with seeing my ex Ayul at Paya Lebar. Then walked off and saw another ex, Apai. Then went to 2nd Chance at TKC and saw EME and Hulk. Then saw a whole other bunch of people. Dila Adiratna, Kyn Adiratna, Naqiah Adiratna, Erma, Roy, Faris, and even saw Ifah. ahahha. i kept forgetting that yesterday was a Saturday night, hence, the many terserempaks.

hrmmm..

sometimes, i feel being in class is so much better than staying at home. and going to dikir training is so much better than being in class.

but, i can't do dikir for the time being. my wrist is being a bitch. i can't clap properly. one of the stitch came out when i wanted to apply the cream. bitch lah ok.. main rebana also, my wrist keep touching the panci.. lagik sial.

uhhh.. gonna wear the dress kak diana bought for me tmr! like wheeee. hehh.

reddish orange.

chicka and diabz are wearing this colour. =)

went to geylang ytd. round and round and round and after hours of searching, finally manage to get the colour. it was either purplish pink or reddish orange. and this was perfect match to it. den while waiting for the bus to Tamp...


then went to TM to watch Underdog. Funny lah okeh. I'm not really a fan of dogs but Underdog is cool lah. Funnny giler.

"THERE'S NO NEED TO FEAR! UNDERDOG IS HERE!!"

hahaha.

then we went to buke at s-11. anddd.. my fav lah ok.. the mee kuah there's like so nice. well, then took the bus to his place, and i went home.

i just can't wait to end school today. gonna buka with the loves from sec school. gonna meet jalilah, ridzuwan and md noor. my sec sch besties. its been ages since all of us saw each other and hung out together la.

i'm borrrrrreeeeddddd.

loves.

OH OH OH!!!!!

I TOOK PICS OF MY WRIST WHEN MY DAD PUT THE CREAM ON IT!

not for the weak hearts. =)




disgusting kan????

my wrist look so deformed. fed up sia.. can't even clap properly. can't henjot my wrist anymore. ARGGGH. It looks terribly disgusting. and my dad said coz i moved my wrist alot thats why the stitch looks like they're going away from each other.

disgusting kan kan kan?

oh you know, i was youtubing and was watching the vid during our Taman Warisan show. It was like the best show i've done these 2 years. Like gerek lah.. It's something different. It's not totally gelanggang but it was great lah. mane ade show asek main tepuk 10 ajer. hahaha. but its fun and i really wanna thank Abang Sarip and Abang Zul from Chingx3 who invited us to be part of this show and also Abang Zul Harapan lah who tegured us about our performance during trainings. Also... The friendships made with the Chingx3 and Harapan guys and also our adik2 from TKDD.

I read the Endang tagboard this morning. An "Endang killer" was trying to bring the group down.

17 Sep 07, 15:19

endang killer: endang korg boleh pelan pelan kayuh ok

17 Sep 07, 15:18

endang killer: endang korg rasa korg boleh pergi jauh ke? aku tak rasa korg boleh hahaha kalau korg boleh tunjuk kan ar kebolehan korg kat khatulistiwa or comp open tgk cara korg perform pun there's no power in it

Firstly, endang killer, kau rase je kite tak boleh gi jauh. tu kau yang rase. kite rase kite boleh pegi jauh pulak tuu. khekhekhe. memang kite nak tunjuk kan kebolehan dan identity kite time Khatulistiwa, jadi tunggu eh, comp belum sampai lagik. sabar menanti ye. Allah... Kalau nak judge kite time comp Raja Panggung tu, tak fair lah kan.. coz it's our first comp.

and aniway, memang kite tengah kayuh pelan2 nieh.. bukannye kite naek speed boat lah seh. wadduhh2.. bingung dibuatnya.

to my endangs, please lock this deep in your hearts and minds.

i opened up this group not to let it fail. i work my ass off to get this group to start and all the tears and pain that i've gone through, seeing you girls fail will not be something which i want to see.

remember the first time we met? sorry lah eh i was very shy. i didnt even wanna meet you all coz i dunno what to say and i was just effing nervous.

and then, remember when they said, there were other instructors coming? that was the hardest part which i had to deal with. i'd cry thinking if they would really be our instructors, not that i dun like them, but its just, i've plans of my own. but, i really came out and did what i should do.

THIS IS MY GROUP AND NO ONE ELSE CAN AND WILL MAKE DECISIONS FOR ME. I BUILD UP THIS GROUP AND WHO ARE THEY TO THINK THAT THEY CAN MAKE DECISIONS FOR ME?

and so, this is us now. =)

i love you girls. dun forget that. =)

unwanted

tummy cramps, i hate very badly.
it hurts damn bad lah ok from yesterday.

fuckfuckfuck.

pms. that explains it.
the cramps, the bad mood swings, the unwanted feeling and the perut boncet.

i am feeling unwanted.
not needed.
and alone.

i feel like crying.
but i shouldn't coz crying makes me look weak.

but i just can't stand the feeling.

i need you badly.

sueyest day

yesterday was a total disaster.

yesterday was the Run For Hope event at Sentosa and me and Ahmad were stationed at the office. So bof of us were chit-chatting with Ikhwan when i smelt something wrong. We ran out of the office and saw a Black Hyundai Matrix with a smoky bonnet.

Ahmadon told me to open the bonnet. I was like, 'KAU GILER PE?! Panas lah!'

and i ran back to the office to take the duty phone. And me and Ahmadon saw the ranger's van. Ingatkan dah sampai wifout even having to call them up lah kan.. They didnt see the smoke (which was effing thick) and just drove past.

So i tried to call the ranger. But the reception was being a bitch. Went back to the office. tried to call but keep having this unavailable number tone. It was then that i realise, its 62791155 instead of 62751166 which ive been dialling.

at the same time, Ahmadon was fighting the fire wif a few others. I ran out of the carpark office and hoping to help them, i ran to the next fire extinguisher case.

and i smashed it wif my hand, then i kicked. But then, it was too late. My hand was bleeding and my wrist was slashed badly till can see the isi.

i was bleeding effing badly lah.

then abang azlan, the ranger, tried to help. but they said, Ahmadon's hands were bleeding too so he did Ahmadon first.

They said that i needed medical attention badly and wanted to send me to the First Aid point at Palawan. But Raj ( my manager) wanted me to be sent to SGH and can clain under Sentosa. So then, Mani sent me to the hospital.

And, they said i needed to be stitched.

8 stitched all in all. And i cried like mad while the doctor was stitching me up. When i got out from the operation room, i guess i kinda like scared Ahmadon a bit coz he needed to be stitched as well. but then tak jadi and they glued him up.

went back to sentosa to get my stuff.. Raj spoked to me and went back.

slept.

check out Ahmadon's blog about it. kelakar pulak bace2 balek.

at night, went to watch CDM'S show kat Kampong Melayu. Started damn late lah. and i saw 2 of my ex-boyfriend there. And i saw the bitch there. dunno whether she recognised me or not. GEEEEZ.

and when i reached, i asked zoul.. "mane dia (as in the boyfriend)?"

and zoul was like...

"REEEEEEEEEEEEEL! BINI KAU DATANG NI HAAAA! REEEEEEL! BINI KAU OIII!"

ye lah. like thanks eh Zoul. betol nye awok eh?

kuat giler lah kan. coz not many of the cucus noe that i'm wif him wad. last nite was the first cucu show that i watched. then paiseh giler ah.. kimex. then like, some of the girlfriends of the cucus were there la.. I only know Emylia. geeee.

ok well. thats done.

i've got some pichas to update, ripped mostly from Almi's blog. hahah..

MCG COMMITEE AY 06/07


Endang at Taman Warisan Show



Endang's Chalet



cute kaaaan? hahha..


Physical training


the adik ipar. =p

okeh thats all.

when everything falls together

i've always thought to myself. who is this girl that they kept talking about?

Ana sini Ana sana.

i know that she's the boyfriend's ex-girlfriend whom he really hates. and she was with his friend when she accepted him. and they of course, gave her her bit of medicine and dumped her. And they found out that she was going out with one of their friends. Sampaikan nak tunang but tak jadi. and now, she's going out with another friend of the 3.

kirekan aper? pompan rolling among the group aper?

so i was online at Anak Melayu just now and went to the boyfriend's profile and i saw this girl named Ana, who i know from last time, which, i will tell later.

and i did some researching.. googled for her blog. and read her blog. and she said she and this girl (the bf's friend's gf) are cousins. and she said she went for their dk shows and lepak with them.

and i'm like.... WTF!!!!! ITS HER.

how can i not notice it before when he told me?

Ana.

The bitch who took away Jumali from me. The bitch who STOLE Jumali away from me.

in case those of you don't know.

Jumali is my ex-boyfriend. I was with him for 5 months plus until i was superbusy and had no time for him and one day, i came back home to my blog, and there was a tag.


minahite:
hw could u let jumali suffer all alone seh?? u expect him to be by urside but where were u when he need u?? dia sad im e one who cheer him up seh. u dun msg or kol cause u too BZ! u dun even think abt his feelings seh. u deserve it girl. u give him more pain den happiness

that was the start of it. she took my life away.

did u fucking know how crazy it made me?! did u know how many sleepless nights i had?! i cried everynight coz she took away the guy i loved (then). How i nearly killed myself?!

and, i thought, since Jumali loved her, then, i shall give him to her with an open heart and i told her to take good care of him.

AND WHAT THE FUCK DID SHE DO?

She dumped him 2 weeks later!

fucking bitch.

screw her!!!

fine. i just hope i dont see her around. if i do, there'll be a side of me which ppl would have never seen before will show.

hah.. the wonders of internet..

boyfie2.. i love u wif all my heart and i'll never doubt you again sweetie and will never vent my anger on you again. i love you.

buses and trains

HAPPY 1 MONTH TO US.
and of all days, it's the 1st day of puase also. hahaha. what derr.

and yes, atie.. i've been blogging at mac. hahaha... at least there's somewhere which i can get access to the net to. and it kinda feels weird that i'm at mac when its a fasting day. huhu..

oh you know, just random i guess.. i think singaporeans are just getting richer and richer. roads are practically jammed up everywhere. i was just reading the newspaper the other day, and they're like increasing the bus fares. no wonder people are getting cars nowadays, it's practically cheaper than taking public transport.

i used to think why the boyfriend likes taking buses coz i prefered taking trains and that's because i have train concession. but when i didnt have train concession coz the parents refuse to put in the money, then i understood why the boyfriend prefered bus to train.

coz trains practically eat up all ur money.

to work:
1 bus ride to Lakeside $0.65
1 train ride to Harbourfront can coz me like, $1.54.

compared to:

1 bus ride to Jurong East Interchange $0.65
1 bus ride to Harbourfront $1.38

to school:
1 bus ride to Lakeside $0.65
1 train ride to Woodlands $1.40??

1 bus ride to Woodlands Interchange $1.38

see the difference.

i'm gonna stick with bus from now on. and trains, once in a while, thankyou.

i love the boyfriend.

I feel bad coz i blew up at him again yesterday. My emotional bouts are coming back again but it should be no excuse for me to vent it on him.

It's already good enuff that he's going out with me and spending time with me but what else do i expect of him? He gives me so much attention and pampers me more than any of the ex. But why the heck am i being selfish? Thinking of only myself, as always, and not think about what he feels. He's always the one who's always giving in when i sulk or when i blow up. And still, that didnt seem as enough for me.

i just don't know why i reacted that way.

siggh.

i'm going back to school. not quiting. that should be good i guess, and i hope, this time, i'll focus on school instead of anything else which i shouldnt actually be focusing on. i've left my Endangs in good hands, so now i know i shouldnt worry or stress myself so much. just that i have to take care of Endang at ATP.

Ouhhh geee Mac is gonna close in 20 mins.

okok.. i love my boyfriend many2.

cinta itu boleh diumpamakan macam makan sambal belacan.
walau pedas hingga mengalir air mata tapi dimakan juaa..

laalalalaaa~

loves

ABANG KHAI TEGURED ME LAAAAAHH CAN!!!

happy giler lah seh.. ahha. the whole day i was like going gaga over him, coz i havent seen him for a long time.. and 2ndly, he's DAMN cute okeh! saw him first at Beach Station then at Dolphin.. Then at Beach Station again.

I was going to the toilet lah.. then he was also heading there. Then we kinda like stand beside each other then he said something to me which i didnt really hear lah actually. Then the funny thing is, while i was heading twds the ladies and he twds the gents, this funny jap old lady said she lost her ticket to SOS. Then Abang Khai tak jadi masuk toilet and stood behind me, coz i was talkin to the old lady. We were like trying to guess what she was trying to say, until, i figured out.

"my ticket arrr go inside-eh.. how to get it out?"

SHE MEANT:

I FLUSHED DOWN MY TICKET AND HOW AM I SUPPOSED TO GET IT OUT?!

like wtf! haha.. me and Abang Khai were like: ..........

giler lah... and then, also, when we were walking off, he imitated the old lady's walk and it was like so funny lah.. ahaha.. mcm orang utan okeh.. ahaha..

and den, back to beach carpark.

nari dpt cuci mata.. khekhekhe.. but, haiiz..

i miss my sayang badly okayyy. work everyday till late, i don't get to call him. i rarely msg him. sad lah eh.. the last time we met was during the FD. which was like, 3 days ago. then i can only meet him again on Monday.

Tmr's his bday. ohh yessss!

HAPPY ADVANCED 23RD BIRTHDAY SAYANG! I LOVE YOU KOOCHIE MUNCHIES OKAY.

it hasnt been easy for us. from the very start. 5 months ago.. the beginning of everything. u closed it and u opened it again for me. there hasnt been anyone else except for you. i love you dearest. will always love you.

muchlove,
ChiCka