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Howells.. What have i been up to lately??

FRIDAY.

Went to TP's Gemilang wif Nadia and Aiman. Okay, well, i met them at TP arh coz Nadia tumpang Aiman.. So yeah, me solo lah kanz.. Okie, so, we waited for Nadia's cousin to pick us up from the bus stop.. And guess wad?? Her cousin is Yan.. The juara of Panjy.. Lolz.. Den we went to the "auditorium" or smt.. The decoration was nice lah.. I mean, reallyy nice... But then the whole show was a bit boring coz it was all mly dance.. And the game, haha.. hafto blindfold and stuff... gee.. But i enjoyed PST's performance arh.. Totally great.. I thought Nira was going to perform.. but they didnt.. howells, was still glad to meet Lela, Ain and Munira.. =)

Den saw Ayul Dux, Abg Naim and Mamat... And the Oh So Famous IRFAN KASBAN. Lolz. He's the president of TP's Malay Arts Grp. Liked his outfit. And yeahh, I talked to Amin Diva, the Vice President of MAG.

the moment i stepped into that room, my eyes searched for u.. i asked around for u.. but it seems that u weren't there that day.. disappointed as it may seem.. but i actually came to see u that day.. and that night when we chat, i felt nothing.. coz u're so dear to me that i cant love u.. if i love u i'd lose u.. so it's best that i be frens wif u than to lose u..

SATURDAY.

Show at Arif's condo!! Lolz! Imagine uhh.. The show was at 615 but we reported at 1130.. Okay so me and Nadia came the latest.. We reached Simei at 1215.. Hurhur.. But the waiting time for the performance was great lah.. We jammed wif the instruments.. Hehe.. And the term KANAK-KANAK ISTIMEWA terkeluar.. coz of Fadilah.. Nyahahas.. K.I num 1 is Fad, K.I 2 is Tetsu. K.I 3 is Nadia.. Heh..

So, the show was great lah.. It went well.. *Alhamdullillah* And we got a cert of appreciation and also $100 gift.. WHEEEEE... Lurveee Dylz!

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Okayy.. So, these few days... Been feeling lonely... Well, there's this guy who's been msging me and stuff.. But i just feel so empty inside.. I dun haf any feelings for him as well..

Wad's suckier is that i've been thinking abt Ayul these few days.. It's just so irritating.. Okay, Ayul as in my ex Ayul.. Not Ayul Dux.. Haha.. Kinda missed the times wif him.. But i noe that he's not worth it.. Raaaaa... The torment!!

I'm just afraid to be in a relationship again. I'm afraid the same things will happen again.. It sucks.. But at the same time, i'm kinda lonely coz no one's been calling me up to talk to me at night.. I'm bored maaaan...

I'm in a state of confusion.

Somebody please save me.

Lonely

Ahh yes.. Loneliness seems to set in...

Did i mention that HE, as in AYUL, called me a few days back? Yeap.. he did.. He said he just called to tell me that i called him the other day.. Gee.. Thanks.. Like as if i didnt noe about that stupid incident which -i-forgot-to-lock-my-keypad-and-his-name-was-the-last-name-on-my-phonebook-so-it-just-dialled.

Lol.

Been feeling rather lonely recently. haha. well... its just that, Ayul kept popping in my mind.. its weird. Haizz...

I'm having weird feelings as well.. dunno how to explain it.. i'm confused. tts all i can say.. its one or the other..

Nyahhh~

Drama rehearsals start tml.. Wheee!!!

Okay..

Nites ppl..

*Sigh*

A day in History.

lalalala~

FOR THE VERY FIRST TIME THIS SEMESTER, I ENJOYED CLASS!!

Ouhh yess!! It was fun!!

Okay, so my team was supposed to do a research on this building in Queenstown. The abandoned one beside the cinema.

So yeah, we took loadsa pics!!!

Hahaha.. yeappss.. it was reaaaaallyy fun...

And i bet u guys didnt noe that the abandoned building was once a market, a food center and a storey of provision shops... Nyahaaha... And it was opened my Queen Elizabeth II in 1957..

Cool Stuff..

Yeahhh.. Hurhur.. So that was in the morning..

Ouhh geeee.. Sleepy maaan..

Nitess.

whoo wheee

OoOoh WHeee...

Yesterday was Sandy's and my brother Aken's bdayy... *muacks* But because my dad was working yesterday so we celebrated Aken's bday on Wednesday night... So, yesterday i went out wif the PJ peeps to celebrate Sandy's bday!

WHEEEEE~!

Okie so, after sch, went to Sandy's class.. I gave her a makeover... So pweeety alreadyy.. Haha.. Den we go town to watch Just Like Heaven at 7... Den, we went to Shaw House arh... After that they decide to eat at Pizza Hut.. Sandy belanja'ed us.. OMG! it was nice lahhh... hehehe.. ppl belanja of coz nice rite?? hehe... den we took loadsa pics.. =)))

Sandy and Kian Wai

Sandy and Josephine

Jo, Sandy, Ash, Me. Black tops and skirt.. =)

Bully lar Sandy..

Yong Quan and Sandy

Yong Quan, Kian Wai, Sandy

Yong Quan, Kian Wai, Sandy

Jo, Ash, Me

Us again..

Us...

That INNOCENT look

Yes, i've put on a bit of weight.. STOP LOOKING AT ME ASH! haha.. blueh..

PJ Angels.. heh

Us...

Ash and Me again.. =)

It was WHACK!! Hahaha... Den after Pizza Hut, we went to Cineleisure to watch the movie.. But we were late, so decided to go shopping.. So, went to Heeren and SANDY GOT THIS NICE LEVIS SHIRT!!! OMGG! AND IT COST $45.50. *faints*

Den, we walked to Plaza Singapura... And SANDY BELANJA'ED us Secret Recipe.. OMG!!! I bought a CHEEZE CHOC and Hot Mocha.. Omggg!! It was.... *faints*

After that, i went home...

And when i was at Jrg East Mrt Stn, there was dis guy who "accidentally" stepped on my flip flops.. Okay fine.. so i just got dis pissed off face on me.. And he said sorry.. He's a mly guy abt 24 yrs old lah..

And he was like, wad's ur name? how old r u? y the pissed off face lah.. AND GUESS WHAT?? HE TRIED TO HOLD MY HAND!!!

WTF

And i pulled back my hand and walked as fast as i could.. den i called Ash and she didnt pick up.. BLEAH. So, i called HIM. Hehe.. first time talking to him.. heh.. And he was like, "tak penah2 umur deni nak call, ape hal sehh... haha..." okayy lah.. den he talked to me till i reach home...

=)

Happy Nyahh~

Hehehe

Ok dahhh~

Debating stuff

Ouhh shucks.. Do i have to???

Gee.. Thanks arh Ashz...

Hurhur..

So... Yeah...

here's the game. introduce 10 quirks or idiosyncrasies of yours on your blog, following which you are free to pick 5 more people to do the same thing..

1. i get over break ups like freaking fast.. (2 days enuff? haha..)
2. i have a fetish for black stuff. try gg shopping wif me.. i'll buy all stuff black..
3. i contradict myself most of the time.
4. different personality wif different people
5. horrible mood swings
6. short attention span
7. i'm slow. (takes me a few secs later to get a joke.)
8. i have short term memory.
9. i'm quiet most of the time
10. I'M NOT LAME. PERIOD. ;)

5 people to do this:

1. Sandy
2. Shahidah
3. Jalilah
4. Yan
5. Patrick

Haha..

Gee i'm bored. Enterprise is killing me.

Haiz... Apai msned me just nw.. But, i just dun wanna chat wif him. He reminds me of Ayul. It sucks.

REFLECTION TIME!!!

Howells... Kinda feeling down today.. Wondering whyy.. Did something go wrong? I just cant take my mind off it.. I'm feeling a glinch of sadness in me but i cant put a finger to wad it is.. Missing him?? Kinda.. But not that bad i guess.. Its not about love.. Well, okayy.. maybe relationships and stuff arh..

Being single is weird.. I mean, u dun get ppl calling u anymore and saying gd nites and i love u to u.. U're just being free. Is that bad? Well, thing is, i dun really mind about being single and stuff.. but sometimes, yeah.. i do get lonely.. i do want someone to talk to and be manja ard wif.. but then, its hard when there's no one who can replace Him.

Yeah, he IS an idiot. He IS an arse.. But, somehow.. after being alone for awhile.. i thought that, no other guy understood me better than him.. Ouhh no.. my eyes are swelling up... gee.. It's just, his style, his way of making me feel loved before all those shit happend.. It's something which i've never felt before.. I'm not saying that i wanna patch things up wif him.. Its just that.. i want someone like him, but better. Someone who'd call me everyday just to talk to me, to manjakan me.. someone to guide me in life and someone who is firm in his beliefs.. And of coz, he shld get along wif my friends and my mum (coz she's also my friend.)

Howells, i'm not expecting any miracles to happen.. i dun want to go around searching for a guy.. hakz.. u noe, it'll be nice if someone just pops up to me and say "hey can i have ur num.." haha.. tt'll be cool.. but gee.. if only life is that easy..

a friend once told me..

" i have gone thru too much that now.. i am no more mister nice guy oredy.." "Jus pissed off at the fact that we gif so much but we get shit in return.." "So i wanna go out n get my retribution.."

all i can say is that, been there done that...

For my age, i think i've gone thru a lot in life.. stuff which ppl would never think of doing and stuff.. i'm not saying that i'm a lover.. nor am i saying that i'm a fighter.. but dun u think that it's a bit passe? U hurt others just to satisfy urself JUST so because u hurt by another person... that's so immature..

I've done all that bastarding and cheating guys.. It wasnt worth it.. Always remember one thing.. Karma. What goes ard comes ard.. I've had my retribution. I learn from there..

Howells, i can go on and on abt dis and it'll never end..

Gtg nw.. Celebrating my bro's bdayy.. Ciaoo..

Him

In class now. Yesh. I'm bored. I'm left out. and I hate my new class. Do i need to emphasize more? Geee...

My previous posts have been damn long indeed.. So unlike me uhh.. And they're like, about what i did on that day and the previous days.. I rarely write about all that..

HoOoo Life is so mundane now.. Apai didnt call me for 3 days... Ouhh heckk... He's not the one that i think about nwadays.. Its another whom i never talk about at all.. Ahakz.. Been liking him for a while lah actually but i kinda shrugged it off coz he's sucha good friend of mine.. Bleah.. I'm just liking him larh.. Not really sure of my feelings though.. Bleargh! Suckkyy...

Known him from chat a few months ago.. So, he's gonna be 17 by the end of the yr (like me) haha.. den he's in TP (i lurve TP guys! haha..) Howells, we kinda lost contact for a while coz we didnt chat wif each other online and stuff.. den a few days after my performance at TP for their cultural awareness thingy, he msned me.. He asked me if i was the one performing wif Nira (TP's dikir girls) and i was like, yeahh.. And he said, he saw me arh.. haha.. but he was afraid it'll be the wrong person tts y he didnt called me up.. geee..

den from there, we chat almost every day.. ALMOST la.. haha.. And we have loadsa things in common... Like, breakdancing, dikir barat and punk music.. =)

And i can chat wif him about anything lar.. He's like, there for me when i need him online la.. =)

But then, i just dun want to encourage myself wif the feelings coz i really love and adore him as a friend..

There was once that he wasnt online for sucha long time.. and when he msned me, i gave him a kiss wink.. and he was like, uhh.... what was that for?? haha... geee..

i havent met him yet.. only pics arh.. and also the dikir pics.. and gee, we're like so closely affiliated sehh... haha..

is he just a fren or more? i wonder.. shld lose the feelings mann.. i dun want lose him as a fren.. bleah...

AYUL DUX! u're the only one who noes who i'm talkin about.. ---eeeeeeeeeeps!--- Haha.. U noe i noe lah kanz... haha.. tk perlu blg ehh.. haha..

And anyway, its just a phase in my life.. mane tauu sooner or later it'll pass...

I'm happier being single.. I'm happier being alone.. Tts me.. I dun want to be tied down now.. i need my space..


BLEARGH.

FUCKED UP DAY

Seriously, i'm seriously, seriously fucked up.

Okay so lets start from the morning..

Went to school.. okay arh.. dah semangat to go to school.. den, i opened my laptop.. i saw dark patches.. den.. my worst fear came true.. My laptop's lcd screen cracked.. BAIK ARH! I was so pissed off that i went out of the class.. cabut larh..

Den me, Sandy and Josephine went to town.. and there was dis salesman hu sold perfumes.. was nice arh.. we bought it for $19.90 each.. it smells nice arh.. Mirage by Giorgio... haha.. den me and Sandy went out of Lucky Plaza arh while Josephine went back to sch to get money.. SEKALI, i saw a familiar pair of specs worn by a guy.. i didnt really see the face arh.. den i asked Sandy to turn back to Lucky Plaza.. Den the guy was walking the opp direction from us.. And u noe wad?? That guy was Mr Boncet!! Omgg!! He's auburn! okay, den talked to him for awhile lah since he already saw me.. kwengs.. and we exchanged num since he changed number..

Den, meet Josephine.. Okie, den.. I was on the way to the mrt stn coz Sandy and Jo had to go back sch.. And i saw Nigel.. A fren online arh.. Haha.. was surprised to see him for the very first time.. aha.. funny sia..

Okay den, i went to Bishan to meet an old friend.. Faizal.. So, yeah.. met him for a while coz he hadta meet his frens after that... Sigh.. By then it was only 445.. Sheesh.. So i walked around Junction 8 till aroun 515.. Den took the train to Bugis..

Damn! Reached there at 545.. So, i went to Seoul Garden and asked the person lah how much each person would hafto pay.. I've got like 6 wif me later on.. And he said, $23.65. Okay fine.. Den after that, one by one msged me and cancel.. Okay so, 2 cancelled on me.. Fine.. Left wif 4.. So i called Ayul Dux and Edry to get a hold of where they were.. And i sat at Starbucks from 615 all the way to 730! Edry came at 7, Ayul Dux came at 730.. They took cab seh.. Kesiannyer..

So yeah.. We went to Seoul Garden and i said table for 4 coz i thought the other guy would be coming.. Den i msged him arh.. I said, "come lah.. we paid for u already.." Like, we paid 30 each sehh.. Den he called me up and started scolding me for paying for him first and stuff and that he said he wasnt about to go to the dinner and that we can meet afterwards wadd.. Like crappy.. I said can pay us later wadd.. And he said whatever lah..

AND HE DID NOT TURN UP!!!

FUCK.

Wasted our time and money sia.. Fuck larh.. Pape larh...

So then after that, me, Ayul Dux and Edry walked to Suntec.. And we talk2 lah.. Werent in good mood either.. So, yeahh.. Me and Edry went back.. Den si Ayul dunno where he went.. Hahaha...

BLEAAHH..

FUCKED UP SIAK. DUIT HILANG G2 AJER.

Update liao!

ouhh crap!

i cant skip sch already maan.. i'll die!! sheesh.. i only come to school like, twice a wk only each week.. and i've skipped basic science like, thrice.. ouhh goshh! i dun wanna retake or repeat sia.. but its like, so difficult when there's no motivation to study in this class... haiz... whatever lah ehh..

sigghh

craps..

i'm like so freakingg tired. haiz..

okay lahh.. I'll update you guys on wad happend recently.. aha.. been bz (and lazy) so, haha.. nw its basic science, so i'll update k... hee...

MONDAY

Okay so wad did i do on Monday..? Okie, Monday kan.. I went to NUH for hospital appointment.. Kwengs.. It's like, i hafta take blood tests every 2 weeks.. its like, so crappy.. coz of the low blood platelet thingy... aaccks..

And THEN, i went to meet Lutfi. aka the Skimmer.. Well, it's a bit weird thoughh... I just dunno how to put it.. We're different.. totally.. i cant just dun think that it can ever be continued.. He's definitely not the type of person that i'd want.. i mean, he doesnt care, doesnt even bother to call or msg.. so wad the heck rite? so, yeap.. silence is the only way.. and i was like sooo shocked to noe that he's Ain's cousin! omgg! small singapore...

howells...

TUESDAY

PERFORMANCE!!! YAY!! haha... i haf a heeeeeeuuuggggeeee announcement to make...

I DID NOT MAKE A SINGLE MISTAKE DURING TARIAN AND I DID NOT FORGET ANY STEPS EITHER...

WHOOO WHEEE!!

Haha... Cant help announcing that out... Coz i totally suck at tarian and when i did that i was like, so HAPPY!!! Still cant believe it sehh... And DYLZ!!!! u guys rockkk!!! Seriouslyyy!! I'm sooo happy to be part of u guys girls.. hehe...

okay after that....

JALAN-JALAN RAYA!!!

Wheee... But b4 that, MY DARLINGG CAME!!

Apaii came to RP to follow us for jalan raye.. aha.. we wore white.. like so cute kan?? hee... but he was shy lah wif the MCG ppl... hehe.. but his smoking habit is... OMFG... heavy giler sehh.. satu rumah 2 sticks.. rabakz.. but then he had to leave at 6... shuckss....

i talk about him later can? haha.. k.. so raye.. omggg!!! i was like so freakingg tired sehh.. we went like 12 houses i think... and each house 15 minutes.. kaoz... den i reached home around 1230am like that... But then kan, Ariff's house is realllyyy reaaaallyyyy niceee!! Condo kat simei.. really larh.. i wan that kind of house lehh.. haha... but bo lui lahh...

kwengs...

now about ma darlingg!! hehe...

Him... Cute tu, okay lah.. cute jugakk.. but then, he made me feel so loved.. aha.. and so cuddlyy... haiz.. can cair u noe.. haha.. and den we talk on the fon almost everyday and stuff.. he reminds me of Ayul a little.. Is that good or bad??? i dunno lah ehh.. haiz...

SPEAKING OF THAT IDIOT AYUL!

WAD THE FUCKING FUCK. U STILL DARE TO ASK ME FOR MONEY! EH, GET A LIFE ARH EH.. KO SIAPE AKU NAK KASI DUIT?? DASAR JANTAN KEPARAT! PEGI LAH KAT POMPAN2 KAU TU SUMER.. ASL CARIK AKU SIAL?

herrhh... so basically, wad i said was.. Who are u for me to give money? Bastard.. Why're u still finding me? Go to the other girls arhh.. Why find me sial?

ahh..

idiot asked me for $480.. Den 50 and den 20... Wad the heck... He thinks i'm his Walking ATM arh?? herh.. whatever arh eh...

i hate you Ayul. GET THAT IN UR THICK DUMB SKULL!

I just hope that me and Apai can somehow work things out... we're not a couple yet if u guys are wonderingg.. aha... but we kissed alreadyy.. haaha... bleahh... love kisses!! hehe...

okie.. done updating! freaking longg.. ahha..

presentation. three letters.

.DIE.

.Open House.

END OF OPEN HOUSE.

END OF MY BRO'S BDAY.

THE END.

I'M EXHAUSTED.

Lol. But then lotsa food lah.. And i kinda enjoyed myself today uhh.. hakz..

So, for starters, the first fren to come was Nadia!! She came wif this cute guy from TP. Yeah, he's cute and cool as well.. Den we chit chat and stuff, and went to the block behind my block to smoke.

While smoking, Shuhail called me.. They were already at my block void deck. Whoo.. And they joined me, Nadia and the Fauzi guy.. And went back, whee.. Shuhail, Aiman and Zuraidah came.. Had a fun time relieving all those monorail times.. hahaha.. whee.. Then Mazlinda came.. And she went.. And Edry came.. Along wif the other guy.. i forgot his name.. Wahaha.. Edry, u're kinda cute u noee.. haha.. and i still wonder y u're not photogenic... aha..

Okie, den, Eijal.. AKA Mr Boncet called. He wanted to come. But i said, it was already to late.. he was at Bugis.. And it was like 9 plus already.. Heck lah.. So i told him no need to come la.. And i think he patched wif his ex.. Huhu..

I think i'm in love. Wif a guy name Apai. Lol. I'd rather call him Afai. haha.. Me and Afai msg like, i dunno how many times a day.. Morning, afternoon, nite and early dawn.. kwangs.. and i talk to Afai like at least 4 hrs each day.. okay like, it's always 12 plus to 4 plus everynight... sigh...

and i'm definitely feeling something for Afai... Siggh.. He's a bit like my ex Ayul... Only that i think, he has more self control and he's more straightforward lah.. sighh... i'm too gullible in love... shucks...


i hate it when my feelings are vulnerable...
i hate it when i'm unsure of ma feelings..


STRESSED UP!

Selamat Hari Raya

Okayy.

I havent been updating for sucha long time.

Damn!

haha... No mood lah.. Becoming lazy to blog.. Ouhh geez..

And yesh, HARI RAYA IS HERE. OMG! Enjoy ya peeps.. I wanna go collection alreadyy.. Haha.. I'm broke.. And i mean, freakingg broke.. Haha.. Ouhh wells.. At least wif Hari Raya, i'll get some income.. Wheee...

"Kepada Semua yang mengenali diri ini, ku susun 10 jari meminta ampun dan maaf jika ada salah dan silap atau terkasar bahasa pada masa yg lalu.. "

(ok, interrupted by a call frm someone. spent 2 mins guessing who he is.. and it turned out to be SID. PANTAT. and it's like 1.50 am?? haha.. miss ya pantats maaan.. dunno abt the sheesha lah... confirm wif u guys soon k...)