clueless

and so, i'm here to blog again.

with effing loads of things in my mind, problems after problems not solved. we pretended like they were, but in our hearts, we know that it was never solved. and what to do, the scar, sort of remains there. in complete denial.

oh well, enough about that.

we've talked it out. and hopefully, yeah, well. hopefully things will get back to normal.

my life is in utter haywire. i need a full time job. but, yes, i need time too. i want more time, so i can do everything which i enjoy. oh brother!

lovewise, i've come to forget about him, well.. 80% i guess.. it's just come up to a conclusion that, if it happens, that it happens but i won't hope for it much coz it hurts a lot a lot.

but then again, someone made my heart race. haha. he was there all the while, for 3 years but i never notice him though he was right there in front of me. oh well, we'll see how it goes. my mummy approves of him. haha. =) we went out ytd, watched Sweeney Todd. He wanted to send me home. haha. that was one funny incident. aha..

oh well.. here i end. going back to my mundane world.

pi mampos ah

amacam korang? happy per huh dapat sakitkan hati kite sume dengan kate2 kesat korg tu?

BEST PER TUNJUK SUME ORANG YANG ENDANG GADOH SESAME SENDIRI HUH?!!!

kalau korang tak suke, CAKAP ok! bile tanye jangan nak ckp, "aku tkde bende nak ckp"
WHAT THE BLOODY FUCK OK.

aku dengan ain dah tak leh tahan dengan korang peh attitude lah ok. kalau gini macam peh perangai, pintu dibuka dan korang boleh silakan kluar dan fuck off. tk payah nak stress2 per.

BOLEH BUAT BENDE YANG RELAXING AND BUAT KAU HAPPY PER!

Orang yang dah bertahun2 main dikir barat pun takde cakap dah malas nak berdikir atau dah jelak berdikir. korang ni baru je berbulan2 main dikir dah ckp tu mcm.

and stop it siak.

DO YOU FUCKING KNOW HOW MUCH EFFORT THE INSTRUCTORS PUT IN FOR THIS GROUP?

Aparrently you DON'T FUCKING KNOW~!

Tak fikir per DIORANG YANG AJAR KORANG BILER KORANG TAKDER KNOWLEDGE ABOUT DIKIR BARAT AT ALL?!

DIORANG YANG SUSAH PAYAH DATANG GI RP UNTUK AJAR KORANG?

Kenape sanggup gelar, "TU INSTRUCTOR" eh??

orang yang tak mengenang budi and FUCKING SELFISH!

ARGH!! MAMPOS AH DENGAN KORANG. ORANG MCM NI TAK SELAMAT DLM HIDOP AH.