hospital again~

ytd went to sch in the morning for tarian, ended at 12.. went to bedok to meet him.. okay2.. i was 30 mins late.. haha.. den went to the library to drop some books, and he went to cut his hair and we went to tampines to watch Ice Age 2. It was okay lah.

But, when we went out of the cinema, i started feeling different. I began shivering non-stop. So i figured, must've been the aircon. On the way back to the mrt stn, kene hujan plak.

Sheesh.

Okay well, in the train, i was shivering like mad.. I didnt tell him anything. So, he went down at Bedok and i just pluck all my courage to hold on till Jurong.

And apparently, by the time it reached City Hall, some passengers brought me out of the train. I was shivering too much. They called my mum and the control station and was wheelchaired out to the first aid room. and i was still shivering so bad, and i beristighfar also non stop.. dat the control station ppl had to call the ambulance.

they informed my mum and him. but when the ambulance attendant came, i told them to tell my dad, who is also working as a SCDF officer. so they brought me to SGH.

it was like a nightmare. seriously. and the rude nurse didnt help at all.

sheesh. a lot of delaying and stuff.

i told them to call my parents and dey said ok. but i dun see my parents nowhere. 2nd time den my parents came. and i saw my bf behind them. it helped to stop my crying a lil when i saw them. and sadly, mum had to send dad back to work. but she said she'll come back after tt. so she left my bf to take care of me.

and he stayed wif me at the observation room for 2 hrs. helped me to cool myself down wif wet tissues and just tried to make me feel better. and before he came, i was crying so bad. and when he was ard, i tried my best not to cry so much and acted as if everything was ok. even if i had high fever.

den the doctors came and told me i could go home. yayness. so my mum came and sent him home and brought me home.

and today, i felt so bad.

that he was there for me till the end and today he had to work and had a test. he's proven so much to me and wad have i done for him?

i feel as if i'm being too demanding.

and.. having too many guy friends dun help either coz it'll only make him more hurt. although he doesnt say it.

but one thing is for sure.

that i never loved anyone better. and thanks for everything that he's done for me.
it's just too much for me to repay.

but i'm just planning some things for 31st may.
=)

love yaa..

jealousy and anger

wahh piang!

for the first time, i got jealous. haha..
like, wadd siaa..
that girl laa..
keep asking about him..
then he also..
disturb meeee coz she's chinese looking, tell her that he's not my guy laa..
waaaahhhh piangggg...
den i got jealous..
haha..

but still sabar arhh..
not like last time..
when i cannot sabar and i blew up..
haha..

den chat2 wif him..
joke2 some stuff..
den i felt better..
haha..
blueks..

cemburu maknernye sayang~

gonna meet dis wednesdayyy!!
haha..

wakakaka..

but sumhow, it made me think lah..
if i can get jealous, he also can get jealous right..
and summore..
i got a lot of male friends.

i mean, maybe he said he's okay wif me and guy friends and all..
but of coz, he wont say that he's jealous or wad..
okay, maybe not too jealous or hurt.. but a pinch of it arhh..
haisshh~
dun want that to happen lah..

just talked to Thabri on the fon..
Deng!
Just because Thabri noes that i was hospitalised, and asked my uncle Ismaidey, a ranger at Sentosa too, if he noes i was hospitalised,
my nek busu, Uncle Ismaidey's mum-in-law, made stories..
She told my gramma that there's a Sentosa Ranger who sent me to hospital that nite..
I WAS LIKE WTF.
That Sentosa Ranger meaning Thabri laa..

Ehh siakkk uhh~
Nak buat cerite ehk.. jgn jadi bodoh boleh tak?!
Dah tentu nenek blg ibu seh..
NAMPAK SAH IBU HANTAR AKU PI HOSPITAL MALAM TU.

siakk uh.. tak agak2..
Eh, aniway eh.. Aku ngan Thabri are good friends seh.
Pada aku eh, dier dah mcm abang seh.
Tak payah nak buat cerite per..

Sheeesh!

okies.. well..
I love ma man.
I Love My Mr Takuhiro.
Jumali. =)

Love You Dearest.

Sayang u selama-lamanye arrr..
hahaha..

Truckloads of Love,
ChiCka

P/s: Thabri, best ehk tadi kene bully.. ahaha.. Sampai tak terkata dan tak tahan lagi ngan aku nie.. huahuahua.. kesian dier..
Takpe2.. kite tunggu Judgement Day nanti..
Time tu kene tgk sape yg menang nanti..
It's Marshal Vs Ranger..

elehhh~

nampak sah Marshal menang..
=)


madlyinlurvewifmrtakuhiro.

problems

aiyoooo~

my network has gone security-enabled.
sigghhh~

so this means i wont be online much anymore.
only once in a while when i go out to Mac ar..
fed up siaa..

aiyooo~

so now i haf to buy my own router.
sheesh

aniway,
today was fun~!!

Met Him today.
Went to Bedok.
Walk around, went to the library, played pool, watched movie- Shaggy Dog.
Funnn~
haha..

I think i passed my germs to him.
wahahaha..

okay took pics today lar.
3 only.

i edited it.
heh..

hahakz.. okay well, that's all la..

so, i guess i wont be online much.
just give me a beep aights.

=)

omg. i'm like so tired.

i'm exhausted.
like damn2 exhausted.

ytd's bbq was okay la.
didnt really enjoy it.
not because i had to cook and stuff.
but because someone else had to do it and it made her look like a maid.

Fuck okay.

Sheesh.

Reached home at about 1.30 am.
Woke up at 720am today.
Was freaking tired.
My chest felt like bursting.
Been having cough and flu.
So i called Chua up.
I said i didnt feel like going to work because i was really2 sick.


And she said, "Noooo.. Cannot... I dun haf enuff ppl today.."
aiyo.
den i felt bad la.
coz i told her on the last minute.
and summore, she's like, my God-mother.
So, i said, "Okay la, i'll come. But i'll leave early la.."
And she said okay.

So, went to work, i tot i'll be at VAC as usual.
But, since Janna was starting at 10 also, i had to be pushed somewhere else.
Coz, as we all noe, Janna is QUEEN VAC.
hahaha..poor thing la she.
everytime she work, she'll have to do VAC.
So, today, i had to be at Underwater World. *stress*

okay then, before Chua sent me and Deva to Underwater World, we went to Dolphin Lagoon to put the chains up first.
While putting the chains up, i saw THABRI the Ranger.
Haha. Like, Dee the Marshal.
Haha okaaay.

Like, we work at the same place but we saw each other once.
Before we got to noe each other ar that is.
Then now then saw him again.
He's an internet friend btw.
Treat him like an elder bro.
=)

Okay then, went to Underwater World,
It was normal all the way till 4 plus.
Denggg.
It was damn crowded then.
And i already had sore throat.a
iyo.
but i still ended gg back at 5.

But problem striked.
Coz i was dibuat org.
and i had blood that day.
when my period was just last week.
which lasted 9 days.
and today, it came out again.
its not my period.
ahh. too complicated.

so, took the bus. sekali, pants stained.
tt bus wasnt gg to VAC.
and i wasnt close to that Uncle Driver.
so went down at Ferry Terminal.
Waited for another Blue Line.

Luckily.....
It was Abang Man.
And i told him wad happend lar.
And he stopped me right in front of the toilet.
Phew.
And i waited for my mum there.
After i changed and stuff, we went to Imbiah Lookout.
Played Luge again.
After that, we went to the Sky Tower.

And went to eat at Harbourfront.
Had my long-awaited Mee Bakso since i dunno when.
Den, i went back home.

AND YAY.
THAT'S BASICALLY WAD I DID IN 2DAYS.
when, i'm actually, STILL SICK.

tmr, dunno if i wanna meet Mr Takuhiro or not.
Like, i'm damn tired lar.
Sick also.
See how lar.

and now, i dun feel like smoking anymore.
Dun see a need to aniway.
Let's just keep it that way.
=)

sickkk~

dengggg~

was discharged from the hospital this evening.
admitted yesterday morning coz of the stomach cramps.
the doctors were crap.
they didnt give me pills to stop the pain.
they focused more on my blood.
GEEE. I FREAKING NOE THAT I HAVE LOW BLOOD PLATELETS AND I'M HAVING MEDICATION FOR THAT. U DUN HAF TO DO TESTS ON THAT AGAIN!!

SHEESH.

crap lar!

geeez.

there was once when the doctor talked to me in Malay.
and he was using cheem words that i dun understand.
and i ended up telling him to speak in English.
omg.
sungguh memalukan.
paiseh u noe.
aiyoh.. i must try to improve on my Bahasa.
haha.

hmm~
think that's all uhh.
going to ma uncle's place to berubat.
hope i'll get better.
=)

i dun feel right

was at work yesterday.
and while working, i saw that idiot.

which bigger idiot could it be. herh. Saw Ayul and his gf.
We had a tiff that day. Me and Ayul.
And i was like, kinda scared that he or his gf will beat me up and stuff.

And i was scared out of ma wits when i saw them at Sentosa. Summore i was at VAC.
I walked away when i saw them buying the tickets.
Went to the toilet.
Then hid behind Delifrance until they took Uncle Goh Teck Huat's bus to Palawan Beach.

Then Abang Man came, told him ar. Then he said dun give a damn abt him.
Coz we dun have anything on anymore and he dun haf the right to whack me and stuff.
Then went for my break, smoked at the container, Cik Yahya came.
I told him i was scared. And i told him wad happend and stuff.
And he said they cant do anything to me as long as i'm in uniform.
And he's sure that the drivers wont let them do anything to me.

Yeah. That comforted me a lot.

I was scared to go to VDC too. Avoided it till 6 plus.
Coz VAC had no crowd so i had to go help Yvonne at VDC.
And i was still scared that they might come.
But i just cant let it affect my work uhh.

And Thank God.
I didnt see them when i finished work at 7.
Then went to the container to puff. (i lup u arr Uncle Goh! Haha.. Thanks for the 2 Gudang Garam sticks!)
Then went to the VAC Transport Office.
Most of the drivers were there, finished wif work too.
And Cik Yahya walked past me and said:
"Baik2 jalan ye nak.."
it means,
"Take care child."

I was touched lar.
I mean,
for a guy who always disturb me wif his gatal2, miang2, lecherous-jokingly way,
he treats me like his own daughter as well.

I did sms Thabri, a Sentosa Ranger when i saw Ayul.
But he was on leave that day.

Howells,
Things are okay now.
I hope.

there are other things which are bothering me.

but my mind's in a mess.
i think too much.

Haiz.

It's 6.30am.
Song on Media Player: How Do I Live? by LeeAnn Rimes.

How Do I Live Without You?
If You Ever Go.

How Do I Go On?

How Do I Ever Survive?

Morning Sickness. bahhhh~!

cameron highlands!

Ahakz..

I'm backk!

Yes2.. I noe.. Loada pics.. There're more lar frm the digicam but these are frm ma hp.. Ahakz..

So yea, went cameron on Monday, then went back on Wednesday.. It was like, a 7 hr drive.. I swore my butt hurt.. ahaha.. Slept a lot in the car.. Then the weather was so freaking hot lar..

And on the way, my dad was caught for speeding. Gee.. It was only 2km/h against the mark.. Then the police guy was kinda nice to let us off.. but my dad just gave him $50 as a "tip" lar.. i mean, its not that we're bribing lar.. in a way, he let us off.. so, pay him laa like that..

The scenery at Camerons was BEEEEYOOOTIFULL. =) Like, DAMN BEEYYOOTIFUL. okok.. beautiful yes. the temperature was frikkking cold.. aha.. i think it was ard 18 degrees at night..

then the next day, we went to the strawberry farms and tea platations and also Gunung Brinchang (Mount Brinchang).

Beautiful. God's creations. =)

So, nothing much happend during the trip. only that i've been having some stomach ulcers.

Yeahh.. Tts pretty much all.

Hahaha..

I LOVE TODAY. =)

pix and us

pixies for Wan's Bday celebration that day!
i took a few lar.. Joanne has a lot..

wakakaka.. siao lar that day.. they bashed him up and stuff. till the lucky plaza lift was spoilt.. hahaha..

aniways, since not a lot of ppl are gonna read my blog.. i'm just gonna post some mushy stuff.. okay so not me.. but just wad i'm feeling lar dis bloody morning.. wakaka..

Dearest,

This is especially for u.. Just some things which i wanna say before i go off.. 1 week wifout meeting u is normal.. But wifout contacting u, that's the hard part.

Knowing u is like an eye opener to me. A guy like u, is like 1 in thousands. Rare species. =p I noe i've told u like a thousand times that u're totally different.. If u noe wad hell i've been thru before i found you, then u'd noe how happy i am and how much i treasure u..

I know there were times which i was demanding and i hurt u, i'm really sorry for those times. For now, I'm just gonna try to understand you better and just try to understand the situation. And i hope, as times go by, we wont haf anymore major misunderstandings. I trust u wif my heart and i noe u can take good care of it. =)

*TIRED OF BEING MUSHY*

I've lost my mushiness when i'm wif him. wakakaaka..

Wad amazes me is that this relationship, is not just about u being my guy and me being ur girl. This relationship is more than just love, care and concern. It's also about us being lovers and friends. Okay2.. So we're not the mushy kind larr. Mushy is outdated.. I love u, u love me.. Once in a while, that's okay lar.. Everyday?? Wakaka... I noe U love Me. U noe I love U. That's enough wad.. No need to say it out.. right dear? Let's play thumb wrestling again when i get back.. ahakz..

Well, okay.. That's all that i wanna say larr.. *Dodol jugak lar aku nie.. Kul 10 pagi blog.*

Ouh shoots.

work.

wakakaka. cya'll when i come back aigghhtt..

MWWWWUUUUAAACCCHHHHS!

exhausted.

gawddd.

i'm like so freakking tiredd.

after 5 wks of being at VAC, i was finally sent to Cable Car wif my Uncle Zul.
Wahahaha.
Stress menggiler. Frust menonggeng.
Wakakaka..

Den finished work at 730. I told my mum to pick me up at 830.
I'm not used to going back so early uhh.
So hung out wif the old peeps.
Wahaha..

Den went to the Transport VAC office to use their pc.
*omg the ram speed is like so daymnn slow*

den, talked to my fav abang, abg rahman.. he's got a very weird appetite.. seriously..

wahaha..

ytd met him for the last time b4 i go off to m'sia nx wk..
just talk for like 45 mins then i went home..

gonna miss u all larrhh.. ahaha..

cyaa when i cya..

PHOTOSHOP!!

yessahh..
i finally got photoshop!

hehh..
looky at the pics i've edited..

and last but not least, my personal favourite:

Wheeee.. Had no idea photoshop was sooo much fun..
hehh..
=)

new hobby.

=)

wheeee

yayness..

after so long, i finally have a script prompt. haha. now ppl cant read my blog anyhow.

=)

i haf no idea on wad to blog.
wakakaka.
nothing's been up lately.

holidays are here.
nothing to do already.
bleargh.

tmr's the successful computing course.
dunno if i can wake up or not.
ahaha..
it's at 9.
hafto wake up at 630
and now,
it's 1.35 am.

how great can that be uh.

gonna go indonesia nx wk.
bleargh.
sucks.
nth to do there sia.
it's like so boring.
mendakz ehhk.

hmm..
i dun haf a reason to smoke these few days.
tts good right?
but i have like 7 sticks left wif me.

its crappy.
when i wanna quit, some problems will rise and i'll start smoking again.
bleeaaaahhh.

went out wif my family.
to changi and tamp
and otw home,
we passed my His brother's place.

the memories of it.
sighh.

MR, I miss you a lot okay.
we better meet b4 i go off to Indonesia.
if not, like u said, 1 mth ehh dun meet.
wakakakaka...

miss ya.

waddehell

setanz...

someone just offered me a modelling deal..

i mean, it's a she lar.. gawddd.. irritating siaakk.. keep asking me to do poses and stuff.. at first i was okay wif it lar.. den she asked me to pose wif my bikini top.. den i gave her the excuse that my bikini top is wet la.. den she said nvm. try wif ur bra top..

den i was like, wadderrr...

and i said, sorry uh.. i dun want to.. and she said.. nvm.. try wif sleeveless top.. den okay ar.. i wore a sleeveless dress... den.. she said.. try wif spaghetti strap.. den i said i dun wan also larh..

she's like, insisting sehh.. crap.. den i told her lar.. delete all my pics.. i dun think i wanna do the modelling thingy.. geee.. wadehell..

luckily the pics that i sent her werent too revealing or anything..

den she asked me abt parties and chalets and ask me if i wanna come.. den i said uhh, not sure abt that.. den she was like, there'll be cute guys and they'll grind u and stuff.. hurhur.. then i told her.. i'm not the wild type.. den she was like, tu wild ke?

den i said uh.. according to my bf, it is.. and she was like, u got bf? ahh screw him.. just come and enjoy.. geee.. WADDEHELL..

fed up.. den she ask me whether i'm still a virgin and wads the furthest thing i've done wif a guy..

WADDEHELL.

Something tells me that she is a he. Fuck.
crap larhh.. dunno how i landed wif her also. whatever.

3 days not in contact wif Mr Takuhiro okay. i'm not making any noises about that.
abit scared.
but waddehell.

he onced said that it doesnt mean i nv contact u, i dun love u.

so, yeah.
everything's gonna be fine.
*consoling myself here*
wakakaka

guess wad?
it's 545 am. sheesh.
can't sleep.

ergghh.
fucked up.
like, very fucked up.

OUHH WADDEHELL!

mood swings

ok crap.

i'm having my mood swings again. i dunno y.
not about him though.
i noe he's bz wif work and he's tired and all.
i've been lethargic lately too.

skipped school after UT today. freaking no mood to school for the rest of the week. holiday mood uhh~ haha..

Went to play pool and bowling wif Jae and Andrea today at Marina Square. And all the crap that we did. Omg.. seriously.. Den went to Esplanade.. Did some crazy stuff over there.. hurhur..

so.. pixies~

yeah.. tt was at the bowling alley.

these were at esplanade:

haha.. okay tts all..

going to Sentosa wif Dee V'lock tmr to beach bum.. whooopee.. finally after sooo long..

and ouhh ya..

i miss you.
badly.

wif loadsa love,
ChiCka