sicccck

gosh. every single thing requires a lot of energy.
and i'm lacking of it.
even sitting down using the PC is tiring.

i have to keep lying down.
and that is tiring too.

now its Day 3 of my MC.
fever's gone. thats good.
cough and flu's still around.
and not to mention the heavy phlegm in the chest.
its tiring man.

its been a long time since i fell sick.
hurhur.
i'll be gone nw.

PRP 09

and PRP Saringan is over and done with.
so in the morning..





and then started make up and hair, and i became this!






and did one whole set through.
and off to KCC.






on the way, the bf called saying he performed already.
graaaah. i wanted to hear/watch lah.
geez. but anyway, reached KCC,
nampaak AAAAAAIN. ahahaha.
den of course nmpk bf.

i was like so scarded the whole time.
but on stage, just did my best.
and it paid off!

ENDANG IS THROUGH TO THE FINALS!!
WHEEEE. =)

and the rest of the pics...








tapi...
training lagi... :(

scareded.

fancy changing my blogskin the day before the competition,
on the day that i'm supposed to sleep early.
hahaha.

nervous, as one would say.

i need sleep man.
i seriously doooo.

stuff

just trying hard to be strong.

i can face all these.

i can face all the busy-ness in my life.
i can face my hectic schedule.
i can do without proper meals.
i can do running around to attend to different trainings.
i can do with coming home late and waking up early for work.

but there are just some things which i cannot do.
it just hurts at the end of the day
but i can do nothing else but to keep it to myself,
and be strong about it.

it's for the best i guess,
even though it hurts.

i'm gone.
for now.

who are you?

RIP MJ.

Watching Michael Jackson's Memorial.
It's just so sad.



Another day has gone
I'm still all alone
How could this be
You're not here with me
You never said goodbye
Someone tell me why
Did you have to go
And leave my world so cold

Everyday I sit and ask myself
How did love slip away
Something whispers in my ear and says
That you are not alone
For I am here with you
Though you're far away
I am here to stay

But you are not alone
For I am here with you
Though we're far apart
You're always in my heart
But you are not alone

'Lone, 'lone
Why, 'lone

Just the other night
I thought I heard you cry
Asking me to come
And hold you in my arms
I can hear your prayers
Your burdens I will bear
But first I need your hand
Then forever can begin

Everyday I sit and ask myself
How did love slip away
Something whispers in my ear and says
That you are not alone
For I am here with you
Though you're far away
I am here to stay

For you are not alone
For I am here with you
Though we're far apart
You're always in my heart
For you are not alone

Whisper three words and I'll come runnin'
And girl you know that I'll be there
I'll be there

You are not alone
For I am here with you
Though you're far away
I am here to stay
For you are not alone
For I am here with you
Though we're far apart
You're always in my heart

For you are not alone
For I am here with you
Though you're far away
I am here to stay

For you are not alone
For I am here with you
Though we're far apart
You're always in my heart

For you are not alone...

i was shocked with his passing,
a bit unbelievable, really.

but then, after watching the memorial,
i guess i'm feeling what a lot others are feeling.

and especially when his daughter spoke,
gosh, it really made me teared laaaa.
and i loved what the Reverend said..

"There is nothing strange about your daddy. What was strange was what your daddy had to deal with"

gosssh. so sad.

i remembered when i was much younger.
kindergarten? primary 1 or 2?
i put on the CD on the CD Player..

and my most favourite song on that CD was,



it touched me a lot.
and then, it was Black and White.

and then, i didnt really keep track of his songs.
but i heard of what wonderful things he did.
and when the allegations of child molestation came in,
i didnt believe any of it.

coz i believed,
he loves children so much.
i doubt he would ever do that.

and when he passed away,
when they revealed all those videos about him,

it made me think what an extraordinary figure he was.
he started at a young age.
and he grew up, touching a lot of peopele's hearts.

Rest In Peace Michael Jackson.
King of Pop.

:(

ily.

here comes the 6th of July.

lesser meet ups.
lesser adventures.
lesser everything.

bb♥ will be starting school today.
2 years of school.
and he's school is blardy strict.
8-6 every single day.
8-1 on saturdays.

like office hours lah can.

but it's okay.
it's for his future too.
and prolly, maybe our future.

and padan muka aku.
lol.
lemak kan ade boyfriend yang selalu free untuk aku.
now, he'll be busy with school and wont have much time for me.
so, i have to understand that.

it's okay.
i'll work my ass off.
plus, i'm gonna go trainings.
and then, i'm gonna go back to school myself.

it'll do just fine.
:)

hopefully.
i'll try my best.

we'll get through this baby.
ily