had fun recently

whoa. been kinda beezee lately till i have no time to update.

so now updates~

On Saturday, I met the Mister. Haha.. 3rd time for the month of May. Ahakz. But it was really great fun. We went to Sentosa and we cam-whored a lot. Nyahaha. If u wanna look at the pics, click on my flikr okay.

So we went to Tanjong Beach, den went to put our stuff at the VAC office after that. Then took the Blue Line to Imbiah Lookout. Den we went on the LUGE!! Hehe.. That was like ubberr fun. The Go-kart thingy lah. and the sky lift was funn. heh. Then went to Images of Singapore. Took funny poses wif the displays.

And then went to the Dragon Trail and walked down to UWW and went to Siloso Beach. Took the Mini Bus to Beach Station and went 7-11 and sat near there. And then, went to take Blue Line and went to smoke at the back of the VAC. Then we went to eat at Harbourfront.

So we went to Harbourfront MRT Stn, den saw Iskandar in the train. So i just went up to him and talked lah. But it was like, uncomfy larh. haha.. So aniways, at Outram Park, Me, Jumali and Iskandar were waiting for the train, and my Mister suddenly got paranoid abt the marks on his neck. =x haha.

So i took out my compact and just tried to hide it larh. And his train came, did our handshake, kissed him gdbye and he went off. =) and after that i took the train to Jurong East wif Iskandar and we crapped again in the train.

And my parents picked me up frm Jrg East and we went to Tampines for jemputan. Sheesh.

So aniway today, was EXTREMELY BORING. I was at VAC. *yawns* and there was practically normal situations like from 2 pm. Sheeesh.

And i finished work at 7pm, so at 720, me and Maz went to Harbourfront and i tumpanged her dad's car back. And, at Jrg East, i realized that i forgot to bring my tent back home. So, went down at Jrg East Library there, took 97 and then went back to Sentosa.

At first, i tot wanna tumpang Thabri to go home. Then he said Cove was raining. And he summore ride a bike. So i said see how la. And since i saw AbangMan doing Harbourfront Service, i said i just tumpang Abang Man la since he wanna go Jrg also.

So tumpanged his van, he brought me to Labrador to go have a drink. He said to the mamak that i was his poidatin. I dunno ahh something like that ah. It means girlfriend. HAHA. YAH RITE.

And he sent me all the way home ahh.

Yawns.

It's 2.12 am. Gonna sleep already.
Niteyy.

just another boring day.

Okay so, had a surprise call frm the Mister. Hehe.. Then talked for like 50 mins. =) aha.. made my day lahh.. heh.. so we counted how long we didnt meet. (ans: 2 wks.) and how many times we met this mth (ans: twice.). hee. yeah. i dunno lah when we're gonna meet again. just leave it to fate lah.

so aniways, i was blog hopping. And i read of the death of this person's friend. and it made me realize how fragile life is. and we can lose the person we love anytime, anywhere. somehow it affected me a lil bit n i'm kinda feeling down a lil. hee.

iloveyouiloveyouiloveyou.

yawns. sch's gonna end in like 3 more hrs. heeyak dush! Webmultimedia UT later. Eh please eh. it's gd enuff that i come today lah. dun drag already can. Basically, my motto is get it over and done wif. or issit done and over wif? haha. dunno lah. either one uh. Start presentation quick lah~!

So the mister's bday is ard the corner. and yes, i've been procrastinating to buy his bday present so much so that his request has been impossible for me to get. Where in Singapore can i find all stuff orange. And my pay's not due yet so i'm on a tight budget here. haha. Why sia of all colours orange. *smacks!* difficult to find okay. but nevertherless, sayang nye psl, will try to find arh.
*not that my busy schedule is gonna help*

nyaahhhhh~!! i can die of boredom man.

eh babat. i miss you lah. like, really really miss you.

i wanna meet like soon lahhh. *being demanding now*
pretty please...
*flutters eyelash*

=)

down the memory lane.

i overslept for the 2nd day in a row and didnt go sch again. shoots! and i realise that i'm always absent on mondays. shit lah. coz i'm always tired from work the day before and the next day i'm tired to go to school.

okay whatever.

anyway, today, i was browsing thru some old pics. and i was like, -_-" twds my kid self. haha. i was like short, stubby and fat. eh no. not so short lah. i was like a giant. heh..

Uhhuh.

zoomed.

Told ya i was a giant.

-_-"

Me and My Mum

Much Much Younger.

Look at how I've evolved (??). haha. from that to this.

and most importantly,
heh.. =)

Ahakz. So, yeah. So last time, i was like, this fat, tomboyish girl. But i evolved to who i am now. And at least nw guys bother to look at me. Last time, aiyo. I was like, one of the boys. Hee.

Well.. That's all lah..

=)

and ouhh ya.. i found something on a friend's blog. thought it was sweet. =)

work~

work was blardy tiring these 2 days. stress ehk.. ytd was at Underwater World all the way. Till i just wanna scream at the guests. sheesh. madness. ytd, me, Iskandar, Muthu and Adik were at Underwater World. Then after that Vicky and Khairul joined us. Heh..

Today was kinda okay lah. Reached Sentosa at 1215. Damn early. Den went to change, and waited wif Louis and Chua for Rose to take us to Transport Office. Okay den, i started at exactly 1, went to Harbourfront to relieve Vicky for lunch. And so, stayed there while Vicky went for lunch and also went in. Okays then, Chua took me in, and went straight to Dolphin Lagoon.

And i report the figures for Dolphin 3.30 Show. First report, i said it was 500. Coz the person in-charge at Dolphin told me it was 450. Then i saw a lot of ppl went in. And i asked the gal to check the counter for me. Hahaha. She said it was 900+. Ahakz. Tt was crap. In such a short time, 400 ppl can come in. Haha...

Okay so, went to UWW for awhile, Iskandar, Vicky, Nora, Chandra, Khairul and Louis were there. But Vicky Nora Maz and Chandra went back at 5pm. So i had to go to VDC. And then, Chua called me at 530 and told me to go to Dolphin Lagoon. Okay lah. That giler was there. Si Iskandar tu. Then after Dolphin, we went to VDC and set up the chains and went for break.

Haha.. Si gilerrr tu.. Drive me nuts. Aniway, I was stationed at Ferry Terminal. And i felt like i was Tango Control. Hahaha. Nuts ah. Had to see and plan which bus go where and also control the crowd. Haiyo. It was stressful i tell you!!

Okay so, i finished at 9. But that mambang Iskandar told me to accompany him coz ytd he already accompanied me while waiting for my parents. So, waited for him and took the train wif him back ah since he stays at Yew Tee.

THAT BUGGER!!

He pinched my arm and now it's blue black! Basket. *Is! Ingat ehhhh. Kau adek tau. Takleh bully kakak. wakakaka...*

Okay so that's wad happened today.

Tmr, rehearsals for OVER THE WALL WILL START!! wheeeee. =)

I'm sorry too. For whatever that's happend. I miss you so much. But it's just that my ego denies it. To avoid crying, or being sad, i just dun wanna think of you. But fact is, i miss you too much. I wanna be in ur arms and feel ur kisses again. But again, the problem is always when. I wish u knew how badly i wanna meet you and be like we always be.

*selame-lame nyer* tts wad u promised when we first went on. i wanna be wif you. and i'm willing to go thru every single shit wif u. and i just hope that u understand the things that's been gg on. and it's just u and me. if we bof could work it out together and trust each other, i'm sure it's gonna be fine.

imissyou.

i love u baby.

random

talking to the new fella from work made me feel a bit better. he's like 4 yrs older than me. i tot he's like kerek or wad lar or like, cranky kind coz he got angkong and stuff. but he turned out to be very brotherly and helpful.

he was like, "kira nasi per?" *counting rice uh* coz i was playing wif my food during break. and he knew straightaway that something was bothering me. damn he's good. he just started work today and he talked to me as if he knew me for a long time.

and he adviced me and told me abt his experience and stuff. and i actually listened to him. coz what he said was kinda true ah.

so aniways, work was kinda crap. was at underwater world. and i could have gone crazy man today. ran ard like nobody's business, screaming here and there, scolded Vicky and Muthu and Adik (coz i was kinda the I/C for the place b4 Chua came.) Kinda felt bad abt it. But i'm sure they understand lah kan.

So, finished work at 7pm. Then went to the back and hung out wif another new marshal named Iskandar. He's very kecohrable. He's also considered my Adik. wakakaka.

okay, so damn tired. wanna sleep already.

tmr work. 1pm.
haiz~

damn my pay.
so i guess i'm broke after paying my bill. and the pay's just enuff to pay my hp bill. aiyo.

FUCK!!

first major quarrel in 4 months.

fuck men and their ego. it suddenly made them someone else. a person u never knew.
a person once so gentle yet loving, turned to someone so hostile and defensive.

i'm just disappointed at the words that were being hurled to each other.

and it hurts to see that fuck over there okay. y do u think i keep asking u abt the fuck?

and this quarrel is pointless. no matter how many times we argue, THINGS WILL NEVER FUCKING CHANGE!

and dun insult them pls. as much as they cause a lot of problems to this relationship, dey are still MY PARENTS. u dun see me insulting ur parents. even if u dun like them, at least respect them as elders. dun hide ur true self to me. coz it seems that u're not the same person i knew 4 mths ago.

fuck this blardy life.

i'm not pretty.
i'm not as stylish as u think.
i'm not that smart.
i'm not vogue.
i dun haf understanding parents.
i dun haf beautiful figures or face.
sometimes, i may never haf time for my loved ones coz of my schedule.

but i am me.
i'm not perfect.
i'm just another human being.
i'm just a girl.

why cant u all just fucking understand that?
DROP ALL UR BLARDY EXPECTATIONS OFF ME!!

STOP TALKING TO ME TO FOCUS IN SCHOOL DAD!!
STOP TELLING ME THAT NOW IS NOT THE TIME FOR RELATIONSHIP!!

WHY CAN'T U FUCKING UNDERSTAND?!!!!!

WHAT WILL CHANGE UR MIND?!

just...

GIVE ME MY FUCKING SPACE!!
AND LET ME BE MYSELF. LET ME BE HAPPY FOR ONCE!!!
it's time that u realize that ur little girl has grown up.. and she needs to be on her own feet now. and she can be on her own.

WHY CANT U FUCKING UNDERSTANDD??!!!!

i feel so trapped.

FUCK! FUCK! FUCK!

december baby!!

crap.

i hate venting my anger on my brothers. it sucks.

sigh. well. got this thru e-mail about the monthly babies stuff. kinda true.

1. This straight-up means ur the most good-looking person
possible... better than all of these other months! (eh.. no lar.. i dun think so.)
2.Loyal and generous. (yeah. loyal and generous.)
3.Patriotic. (erm.. i dun think so la..)
4.Competitive in everything. (yes2.. i am competitive)
5.Active in games and interactions. (gawd. games no. interactions yes.)
6.Impatient and hasty. (not impatient. yes to hasty.)
7.Ambitious. (i guess so)
8.Influential in organizations. (no i'm not. i'm not in any organizations)
9.Fun to be with. (i think so. tts y ash and sandy and the rest stickwifme. heh)
10. Easy to talk to, though hard to understand. (OUHH YES! YES! YES!)
11. Thinks far with vision, yet complicated to know. (UHHUH!)
12. Easily influenced by kindness. (ditto.)
13. Polite and soft-spoken. (polite, can say lah. soft spoken, depends.)
14. Having lots of ideas. (yeah.)
15. Sensitive. (DEFINITELY.)
16. Active mind. (can say uh)
17. Hesitating, tends to delay. (kinda..)
18. Choosy and always wants the best. (yahhh siaa..)
19. Temperamental. (SEE!! TOLD YA I WAS TEMPERAMENTAL!)
20. Funny and humorous. (yeah.)
21. Loves to joke. (uhuhh)
22. Good debating skills. (hell yeahh. ask Thabri. he'll noe. aha..)
23. Has that someone always on his/her mind. (yeah..)
24. Talkative. (hehekz.. uuhhuh)
25. Daydreamer. (okok lah)
26. Friendly. Knows how to make friends. (yesh)
27. Abiding. (yeah.)
28. Able to show character. (urm.. okok ah)
29. one guy/girl kind of person. (yeah.)
30. Loveable. (=)i dunno.. )
31. Easily hurt. ( YES! YES! YES!)
32. Prone to getting colds. (not so ah)
33. loves music. (yaaaa)
34. pretty/handsome. (okok lah)
35. Loves to dress up. (YES!!)
36. Easily bored. (YES!!!)
37. Fussy. (UHHUH!)
38. Seldom shows emotions. (U GOT ME!!)
39. Takes time to recover when hurt. (YES!)
40. Sensitive. (they have to repeat this twice.)

and i found something on another person's blog. haizhh..

when you said forever, you meant a few months,
when i said forever, i meant everyday until i died.
when u said always, you meant until you couldnt handle it anymore,
when i said always, i meant until time ended.
when you said you love me, you meant i was no different from any other girl,
when i said i love you, i meant i had neverr felt what i felt for you.

just something to share.

cheerios.

attention seekers part 2

woootz!!

icriticizecauseican has got back up!
oooh i'm scared --- NOT!!

and i've got a tagboard war in my blog.
whooo.

hurhur.

gallenbabydropsyourpussy (another blardy long nick. sheesh.) here comes into my tagboard and starts accusing me that i flamed (??) icriticizecauseican (u guys really noe how to come up wif blardy long nicks).

So yeahh, gallenbabydropsyourpussy (ctrl + v'd. hah.), so i flamed ur lil dear. But looky here, who's the one who goes ard, ditching ppl's blog and finding fault wif them? Wad, in the first place, did we do to you? You go ard ditching ppl's blog and now, u're saying I flamed that fella? Sheesh. Get your facts right okay. Whose the one looking for enemy here?

hey gallenbabydropsyourpussy, i dun haf a prob wif you. so wad's the deal wif you man? are u gonna be like one of those backups when someone gets bullied? hurhur. u sweet lil thang. but, i'll see ya on msn aight and we'll settle a thing or two over there.

and so, i'm ugly? when in the first place did i say i'm gorgeous. u got a prob wif how i look? EH HELLO. are u wearing my face? hah. i dun care lar eh whether i'm ugly or fat or wadsoever. i'm happy wif who i am. AND THAT MATTERS TO ME. so dun come here and fuck tell me that i'm ugly to bring me down. Cause you can never bring me down.

and icriticizecauseican, i rest my case. u said it urself. "we ARE asses & we like being irritating."

'nuff said.

To Jam: Ahakz. Chill girl. these ppl are bored ppl. they have no childhood. that's y they're being childish n0w.

p/s: i'll be waiting for you gallenbabydropsyourpussy @ msn.

Such As.. The Family Feeling

SuperDuper Dead Tired.
That's how i'm feeling right now. 3 straight days of marshal work makes me superbly exhausted.

Haish.

But then today was okay. Started work at 10am. Was stationed at Harbourfront Interchange. Uncle Ng was so nice to me (as always!) heh.. He belanja-ed me sugarcane juice and ice cream. aha.. Then i stayed at Harbourfront till 2.30pm and after that went straight to Imbiah Lookout.

And when i was there, it was utter chaos. Me, Iskandar (new staff) and Cik Jamilah were there. Had fun. Iskandar was good for a newbie. He wasnt like SOME IDIOT who's new and LAZE around. Sheesh.

Aniways, then went to Underwater World where that bugger was there. And FINALLY, i found the first person who agreed wif me that the bugger was a lazy arse. Me and Singh were criticising him like heck. And the 2nd person was Rose. She wasnt in his favour but she just decided to give him a chance since this is his first job and all. I mean, he's seriously one.. URGH.

Okay so finished work at 7pm. Then went out to Harbourfront wif Muthu, Only to find out that he doesnt like the bugger too and nearly everyone doesnt like him. hah. and i was already at the Busstop at Harbourfront when i called Thabri. Coz i didnt feel like gg back home so early.

So, met him at Harbourfront then we went in to Sentosa. He started work 1t 9pm and that time was 7.50. I left him at VAC. Heh. Then i went to Merlion, den walked to VAC. Then talked to Abg Rosley and Abg Yusri.

And Abang Man came wif the Yellow line. I thought wanna take Abang Man's bus, temankan him. Then skali AbangMan went for his break so i had to temankan Abg Yusri. Then temankan him for 1 trip, den after that temankan Abg Man.

And i temankan him for i dunno how many trips. But i noe it was about 1hr plus. Hahaha.. He's the best arrrr~ Hahaha..

Okay den, balek, saw Uncle Mohan at the Harbourfront stop. Coz he stays near my place, so thought of going back wif him. Then he said okay we take bus. Okay larr.. Then skali, he said, Cik Rahim's gonna send us back.

And Cik Rahim sent me all the way to my block. Wahh seh.. Haha.. So i reached home like, 1110. Phew. If not, i'll prolly reach home like 12 plus. Hehh..

And at Harbourfront, Uncle Mohan belanja-ed me a drink. Wahh. aha.. Rezeki aku nari baek. =) Alhamdullillah.

That was wad happend today. Haish. Tired sia.

But the best was still when I temankan Abang Man. Hah.. I needed him today to lighten up my day. Was a bit gloomy lar. He's like the bro i never had. *even though he's like, older than my own mom.. haha.. *

Okayz. So.

TAGGERS REPLY.

Lin: haha.. aku okay lar selenge.. i'm alrite now.. dunch ya worry aight..

baby: aku tak ingat plak kasi kau cium bau pepek aku sia. maner kau tau bacin?

kat: hrmm.. same IP add as baby?? hurhur..

ash: ashhyyy. hahaha.. aiyah.. u noe lar i dun give a fuck about all this shit. i'll be fine. heh..


p/s:
Happy 4 Months Dearest.

dalam usik ku merajuk seketika.

i feel so sucky.

crying doesnt make it feel any better.
it makes it feel worse.

ignorance is not bliss.
ignorance is torture.

it's like i'm screaming and screaming, begging for help and sympathy,
but no one is there to listen, or no one can hear me.

it hurts me to hurt you.

some things are just so hard to understand.
some things are not meant to be understood at all.

and now, it's u that i'm talking about.

sigh.

attention seekers.

haiz.. okay2 mr/ms icriticisecauseican.

this is dedicated to you. because you are so seeking my attention by criticising me at my tagboard. okay2.. i'll give u dis chance to let ppl noe abt you okay.

dearest mr/ms icriticisecauseican,

this was wad u said:

icritisizecauseican
1:33 PM May 3, 2006 IP 12:95
omfg! a ****ing retarded minah! & what's with the pictures? they're not that nice alright. just telling the truth ;D

icriticizecauseican
2:09 PM May 10, 2006 IP 12:95
who wanna go shopping with her anyway? look at her fashion sense =/ i think one old ah ma at some kopitiam dresses up better than her. X)

okay.

Coz the tagboard has limited spaces and i haf loads to say, well, i'll just might as well blog about it. And let me have my say.

So, Mr/Miss icriticizecauseican,

first thing's first.

i'm not an angry person. u can criticize me all you want and i'll still accept it cause i believe that ppl have their own points of view. i cant blame ppl and say that they're wrong. cause it's their pov, not mine. tts one of my principles.

i'm not gonna be mad here and scream my top of by saying that this is my blog, if u're unhappy, leave. No. I'm not gonna do that. U had ur say. I wanna have mine. Haha.. U picked the wrong person to find fault wif. I didnt join the school debate team in secondary school for nothing man.

icriticizecauseican (man, tts a blardy long nick~), u're not trying to live up to ur nick. u think u can criticize? aha.. my momma can criticize better than you, and she'll really make u feel damn bad. as for you, u made me snigger at ur comments cause it's seriously EMPTY criticisms. Ever learnt in school? Constructive and Destructive criticisms? Well, urs is EMPTY.

coz, another principle that i made, is that, never judge someone when u dunno them. Wad's wif minahs man? Are they not human too? So what they have attitude lar, blahh3.. they're still humans living in this world. and humans have FLAWS. geddit? It's not as if these minahs disturb you wad. Just mind your own business and they'll mine theirs. As easy as that.

And, ever heard, DUN JUDGE A BOOK BY ITS COVER? Just because someone dresses like a minah, doesnt mean that she's a minah. And, definitions of a minah varies from person to person. Ur interpretation of a minah, is not exactly another person's interpretation.

Retarded? sheesh. go figure. if i'm retarded, i wont be TYPING. And i wont be in POLY.

U asked who wanna go shopping wif me?? HEYYYY~ Didnt u just see the tag b4 urs?? SANDY wanted to go shopping wif me. That's one. ASHZ wanted to go shopping wif me. That's 2. I'll always have mummy dearest. That's 3. And I have my boyfie. That's 4 ppl. =) Need i say more?

AND!! I CAN'T BELIEVE WAD U SAID!!

U fucking said, " i think one old ah ma at some kopitiam dresses up better than her"

wtf.

I can't believe ur fashion sense is THAT BAD. GOD! U need some pointers man. Seriously. I think u must be BLIND. Hahaha. You think ah ma who wears those flowery2 top and pants dresses up better than me?? HAHAHA. Now who's got bad fashion sense now??

WHO THINKS THAT JEANS AND T-SHIRT ARE NOT THE MOST COMFORTABLE OUTFIT, PLS TELL ME AIGHT. I might need to sort your brain out like this icriticize cause i can. He said ah mas dress better than me when i'm all into jeans and top. Howells, u just can't believe wad ppl nowadays think like.

Okay, well, there you have it. I hope that icriticizecauseican fella reads this. aniway, thanks aye for dropping by my blog. haha. at least u still bothered to come to this site and read it. =)

come back soon!! and yeah.

BETTER LUCK NEXT TIME.

adios.

Next Project: Over The Wall.

ouhh shucks.. blogger was a bitch again. it didnt save my post - AGAIN. thanks arh eh.
well, like as if today was any better.

Coz yesterday, i worked like 11 hrs, and had trouble sleeping, i ended up not going to school. That was one thing. The other thing was that, I WOKE UP AT BLARDY 445 pm. And i had Drama Casting at 5. Damn. Took a quick shower, and left home at 5, wifout any makeup on. grrr. Took a cab to sch, cost me $13. fuck. sheeesh.

but one good thing that happend today was that i got into ensemb. cool uhh~ wheee.. gonna perform @ Esplanade on the 15th July. Cool ehhhh. hehe.. happy siaa.. and no, CE points are not my motivation. The bz-ness is. haha.. I like lah. I dunno y. heh..

So, now, i'm gonna be bz every Mondays, Wednesdays and Fridays. And not to mention weekends as well. And when i'm busy, i dun eat a lot, and when i dun eat a lot, i lose weight. wakakaka.. Lame motivation. Nyahaha.

But thing is, i remember the last year, during Redhill Blues production, a lot of relationships actually suffered. I mean, relationships wif their girlfriends and boyfriends. I'm no exception. Coz RHB really took a lot of our times. Rehearsals stretched till 930 pm everyday. And then, i was just the make up artist and i have to stay till that time. Now, i'm a cast, die lah. We've like, sworn to commitment already. Heee.

But i dun think this time, it would pose so much of a problem. Since i've got one understanding (blueks!) and busy (uhhuh) and layzee (yessah!) boyfie. Hahaha.. Okok kidding.

But it's true lah. Since, he's busy wif work, den lazy (okok, not lazy, but tired.) after work, we never meet on weekdays except the times when he's off. So, for weekends, i can always say i dun wanna work mah. So we can go out weekends.
Contact also, sms can wadd. I'm sure he'll understand. =) Aniway, we're not meeting so much also wad. Like, once a wk or once in 2 wks. But neither of us is complaining. Alah.. Love is not about meeting up everyday or wad. =) Okay set. It's all gonna be okay. (SEE!! From someone who's demanding and always wanting to meet, i turned out to be like this understanding. Hahaha. Blame him for throwing away that mushiness and demanding-ness from me. )

Anihoos, it's gonna be a period of challenges and tests for me. But, yeah.. it's like that lah. I just have to go through it.

Bleargh. It's 3 am. Shucks. gotta go sleep already larh. sheesh.

fuck.

KILL THAT BLOODY FEELING.

random~

blardy hell. wrote a freaking long post ytd and blogger was a bitch when it suddenly lost its connection. urgh.

hoho.. so it's 2.17 am and i've just reach home after watching my dad had his final sepaktakraw game @ Bedok. He's coaching for Home Utd uhh. And just now, Home Utd was against Pioneer RC 9 or smt. And i saw this guy, okay not guy, as in kid, who looked exactly like Celop. Has the same eyes, same lips. And Pioneer RC being in Jurong NTI, maybe that kid could just be his bro. Go figure.

Ouhh yea, yesterday i wrote something which goes like:

it's scary when u see someone who's mild tempered and dun get angry easily, just burst out and was really fucked up when u contact that person. it's not your fault tho but you just dunno wad to do coz u never face that kind of situation before. you wanna make that person feel better, but at the same time u just wanna leave him alone to cool down.

so yeah, that's that. i was kinda speechless and dunno wad to do. but luckily i rmb that he likes to be alone when he's pissed off. so, yeah, left him alone for awhile.

den called him to ask for his opinion on MP3s. SO I BOUGHT AN MP3 FOR MYSELF WHICH COST ME $58. haha.. okay it's damn cheap. it's 128MB. but i dun travel much aniway, so, i think 128MB shld be enuff for me. haha.. I bought it at some shop at Bedok. And i saw CREATIVE ZEN for fuckingg $118. IS THAT CHEAP OR WADDD??!! shit. too bad i didnt have enuff on me. even if i do, i dun think i'll buy it for myself.

okay enuff of MP3 stuff.

I bought this nice halter top. WHITE. HEEEE. It's oh so beaautiful. Can't wait to wear it when the next time we go out together. Bought new belt too. Ouhh shit. I just got my pay today. $210. And i'm left wif, $52. Thanks ah ehh. So, bought me an MP3, a belt, a halter top. Ordered one Avon Butterfly perfume, one Avon compact powder and lip balm which cost me $25. okay2.. now i'm feeling guilty about spending too much. sheesh.

ahh.. ouhh well.. better be going now.. 3 am already.. sheeesh..

nitey.

*andistillmissyou*

Cypher Camp 2006

Yes! Cypher Camp 2006 aka SIT FOP Camp 2006 HAS OFFICIALLY ENDED.

"If there's nothing else, i'd like to close the camp now and you guys are officially dismissed from this camp." The words from our Bapak Beruang aka Papa Bear aka Daniel.

Those words really relieved me a lot.

The 4 days 3 nights here were, urm.. shall i say.. un-enjoyed. Well, maybe from a camper's point of view, it was fun uhhh. But as sub-commitees and commitees and EXCOs, i guess it was pretty much of a hell for us.

So, being welfare, all we had to do was to prepare their breakfast, lunch, dinner and supper. It was, pretty much okay. And all of us bonded so much. I love you guys!

These peeps were like family during the 4 days. Lin, Zizi, KK, Frank, Ming Hong. I LOVE YA GUYS!!! TEAM WELFARE RULES AIGHT.

heh.. okay enuff of that.

Well, i shall say that the camp was... urmmm. Okay2.. straight to the point. Okay well, if there's any year 1s that's gonna read my blog, well, just read aight so that u guys noe how WE feel.

Year 1s for Cypher Camp 2006 ARE A BUNCH OF PAMPERED LOTS. And i'm not the only one who thinks so. The whole commitee thinks so. From the welfare's point of view, we woke up the earliest in the morning, spread bread for them each day for 3 days, and all they said was, "Haaa.. Bread again..." Imagine spreading 200 slices of bread wif margarine and kaya and all they said was HAA.. BREAD AGAIN. And they DUN EVEN BOTHER TO CLEAN UP AFTER EATING. Waddehell. How old r u guys man?? Cant even clean urselves up after eating! And for some, CANT EVEN SPREAD THEIR OWN BREAD!! NEED THEIR LEADERS TO DO SO!! WTF.

And for some helpers, damn u guys okay. okay girls i mean. There was this 3 China girls, they spilt drinks on the table. And guess wad they did? THEY FUCKING STARED AT THE SPILT DRINK! WTF!! Like HELLO!!! SPILT DRINK. U SPILT IT. TISSUE. ANY LINKS??!! URGH.

And so, Sunday, we went out to Raffles and Chinatown for The Amazing Race. I have no idea wad they did. We reached the Padang at abt 1030, then the teams went away wif their tasks, and us Welfare waited and we called for a cab to UOB Plaza near the S'pore River. One team reached there abt 1145. I think it was Arif's team. Not sure of their name though. So we set up, had lunch, and me and Lin, went to one corner and we SLEPT!! haha.. for 2 full hours. HAHA.

Clinston called us up and said something abt better not be left behind. Then, the next thing i knew, Nelson was bloody screaming at us wif the Loudhaler. Idiot. He was like, "Deeeee, Lin!! Wake up!! Why do I always have to use the loudhaler to wake the 2 of u up??" haha..

So, then, when everyone left, Team Welfare took the cab again to Chinatown. Ming Hong wasnt there to follow us coz he was involved wif the Amazing Race Part 2. So, we reached school at abt 5. And we set out Dinner by 545!! hurhur. That was idiotic. And they postponed dinner coz they wanted to play waterbomb games first. Okay lah.. So, Team Welfare played the waterbomb game. But i dun FUCKING UNDERSTAND Y WE HAVE TO CLEAN IT UP. GEEZ!! THE EVENTS PPL WERE THERE!! THEY SHOULD CLEAN IT UP COZ THEY WERE THE ONES WHO SET IT UP! AND WE HAVE BETTER THINGS TO DO COZ DINNER WAS NEXT. Luckily Nelson understood how we felt and just told us to go prepare dinner.

and when we went to the canteen. We found out that the Year 1s were free to do anything they want till 11. So they can take their dinner first or bath. I was like, geeee.. den u expect us to be waiting for them till 11?? wad the heck.

Okay then, after that, shitty stuff started to happen. FUCKING SHITTY STUFF WHICH SOME CYPHER CAMPERS NOE THE FULL VERSION. I dun wanna tell it here. But if u wanna noe, can ask me personally. Fucking shit.

And it made the whole CYPHER CAMPERS SLEEP AT THE AGORA. (so it must've been that shitty okay.)

But Me, Lin, Zizi, Sai, Ayu, Hida and the Helpers went out at abt 2+, and we went to Shell and we hung out at some playground nearby, talking abt that bloody incident which got everyone shaken. And we went back at abt 330 am. And we slept till 730 am the nx day.

So, Monday, we had breakfast, everybody pretended as if everything was normal. Packed our stuff, went to LT1W2. And we had debrief and feedback session.

AND THE CAMP WAS DONE.

And there are a couple of ppl which i wanna thank during this camp.
-Team Welfare
`Mat KK. okok.. Kay Kiat.
`Lin
`Zizi
`Frank
`MingHong
`Kenny
`Arif
And Mostly,
`NELSON. Thanks very much for that night which it happend. Thanks for all ur help and concern. And for looking after us like a big bro, which made u not sleep for 3 days. Thanks man. U're cool.

So it ended. Cypher Camp ended. But it still marked a spot in our hearts and skin. And it always will. Coz Cypher Camp wasnt just a camp. It was a lesson. A lesson which taught us never to be foolish and to believe in urself and will, and to Think OF GOD always.

Coz u never noe wad u say or do, might just offend someone.