stressed up.

i am supposed to do some codings now.
but i am so lost.
and i feel like crying.
but heck it. nbcb.

i've lotsa things to do tonight.
fyp.
pp.
module selection.
ok crap it.
php is gonna take me the whole night.
damnn! why can't i remember any of it?!

so dear year2s, especially those in SIT.
please study hard and get your WEB APPLICATIONS module passed.
never skip one coz you'll be lost.
and it is important for FYP.
trust me.

ok done with module selection.

hopefully, i can make it through. Insya Allah.
All the modules are new so that means, i have to score all the modules uh.
to get myself out of RP.
haiz.

ok damn. i am sleepy.
but i can't sleep.
my part of the codes is due tmr. DAMN IT.

stresss lah seh.

bored.

=)

i was at the transport office yesterday, having my break while waiting for the next Dolphin Show to start at 5.30.

and i saw his name and it made me smile.


so, when no one else was around, i took the marker and.. TADAAAA!


haha. giler uh.

i miss him to the max lah.

you're missed hotstuff.

"You are single, make the best of it.
It doesnt mean you're not good enough,
It Means NO ONE is good enough for you"

"I love you, not because of who you are,
But for who I am when i'm with you"

yeahuhh.
he always make me smile like mad.
with the things he text and the things that he says.

"so does that mean that you havent been thinking of me?"

"nah.. hmmm.. ok ok alot... grr"

and that is enough to make me smile like crayzee.

"missed you btw.."

"u don't say... mutual feeling.."

hotstuff,
you really know how to make me miss you.
absence makes the heart fonder.

bring me to that place, where the happiness and closeness first started.
i miss it bad.

boredom

BORED!

these days

why didn't my heart race when he msged me?
usually, i'll be jumping for joy when he does.
but, the heart was being lazy and it didnt.

he asked me out for a movie.
but of course i couldn't coz i'll be out tutoring.

i know i miss him.
i was just thinking about him yesterday.

maybe, the attention has shifted to another.
i guess so.
or maybe, my head's filled with too many problems.
might be.
that i can't be bothered to react to anything.

haiz. i don't know anymore.

yesterday, was out with a new friend after training.
he's okay. slightly clingy.
my definition of someone clingy would be when he msges me everyday.
urgh. that part sucked.
but otherwise, he's okay.
good spoken english. 26. stable job. yeah go figure.

and then, we went to the interchange to go home.
he was taking 168 and me 187.
and the moment we reach to the stop, i was like,
OH MY GOD.
the ex was there.
it was blardy awkward.
so then i stayed right in front of my friend,
not wanting to right up the queue coz if i do,
i'll be right in front of the ex.

but eventually, i moved up.
and the ex, weirdly talked to me.
oh no, not talked. mumbled would be the word.
i couldnt hear what he was trying to say.
and it the end we ended up with a nvm.

so off they went to take the bus.

damn, it was awkward.

ouuhkay well, more pictures from Citra i suppose. Got it from Huda's blog.

i like having you by my side boy.
with you, i am myself.
with you, i feel secure.
u make me feel special.
a friend, that's who i am to you.
and i'm happy by just being that for nw.

whatevers

hmm.
can the bof of us just meet and leave him alone?
ahakz.
good idea kan..

wantin, wantin.
ape jer lah budak nie.
budden, gonna meet Hazwan later!
huhu! cool or wad.

so training later.
i'm still tired.
slept like a log till this morn.
training for this thursday and sunday's show.
tkmo ehk jadi karut lagik.
penat arh. haha
but suspect have to.

mugcow.

malas uhhh

the journey there.

just some pics of the journey to the comp.




the blinded training.


the day before comp.




the day of the comp.

and yes, that was it.

The End.

Layar Citra Dikir 2008

Chin up Endang.
Even though we didnt win the Top 3,
we still manage to be a Top 3 in Kesenian and Awok2.
Wow.
And,the best part was that we enjoyed our performance,
and the AUDIENCE enjoyed our performance.
We proved to people that we're better now.

Congrats to Wahana Deksu, Seri Suri Ram and Balqis.

We can't expect to win instantly right?
We've to improve as time goes along.

=)

We did our best.



MyHotComments

imissabgarman.
Where've you been hotstuff?

laying off.

overload, i tell you.
so many things to think about.
haiz, i am so tired.

finally, the parent's nagging has come to sense.
i need a break. seriously.
and, i am gonna take it after all this ends.

i need to prioritise now.
1) pp
2) fyp
3) classes
4) UTs
5) WORK.

i guess, what Jasman did was right.
to lay off.
my time is over.
i need to focus on other things in my life.

decision made.

yes dear i miss you too.
i miss you loads.
can we go back there again please?
ohhh i miss you truckloads.

stress

tummy cramps are bad.

it affects the mood and it affects my brain as well.
and i'm damn sleepy.
good thing i didnt follow the brother to lepak at Teh Tarik.
or else i wouldn't even wake up.

now that my PP dateline is extended till tmr, i really need to start doing it.
i've thought of doing it next sem.
but since extended, might as well do it, right?

yes, cabut again.
i haven't presented any slides this week.
haha.
mr lee's in a bad mood today.

so, 2nd break, i'm gonna be off to meet the aunt for lunch.
dunno if i wana go for a movie later.
hmm.
you don't mess with the zohan opens today.
hmmm. might consider.
or maybe, sex in the city?
don't know.

see how lah.

naj.
nafsu makan aku semakin membuncah jugak. =p

argh.
STRESSS.

i don't need your love.
give them to the ones whom you should give.
not me.
and i don't want to be ur gf.
it's not ethical.

haiz

rule #1:
when someone is talking, everyone else, SHUT UP!

i think i'm running out of patience.
really.

it's true when Hairil said.
"discipline korang mane?"

coz truth to be told, there's no more discipline during trainings.
everyone wants to voice up at the same time.
everyone wants to be a makcik kepo.

mugcow, set kalau dah perfect and dah complete takpe.
ni masih terkial-kial lagik.
comp lagi brape hari jer sak!

i pity naj.
yes, audience find it easy to spot a performer's mistakes.
but when you're a performer, it's hard to spot your own mistakes.
and performers need directions, not orders.
yes, i've understood her stand after being a karut myself.
it's not easy being being a karut. trust me.
sape tak caye, pegi try.

oh best nyer.
6 Endangs and 2 ex-Endangs cabot skola today and kat Civic Library.
COOL OR WAAAD.
mampos.
hahaha

lotsa stuff

i am so not functioning.

apparently, i'm not sure if i should blame the sleepiness or the boredom of the topic for today.
ahh, maybe the latter.
the former, i tried to engulf redbull on it. but, it didn't work.
oh damn it.

or maybe it's just monday.

too bad me and Jasman (silat) went on our separate ways (palahhottaak).
nah, the faci changed our teams so then, yea, we're on different teams already.
boredom.
cant crap with him coz he's too far.
haha.

should i bother doing PP?
i am seriously tired lah.
oh well, i'm just gonna take my time in doing it.
FYP for this sem.
PP for next sem.
done. that's it.

i am so worried about my fyp.
damnnnit.

oh, and not to mention, Citra is this SUNDAY.
damn damn damn!
we'll do outside training.
and kalau Nafis doens't come on time,
me and Ain thought of jamming selembut sutera first.
BAEK AH! KASI PANCIT!
but leceh lah. Year 1s haven't learn that song yet.
grrr!

i've been irritated yet again.
and i have no idea how to stop it.
ARGH. DAMN IT!

stress lah.

today's the last day of ISC.

ahlurmak. stress seh semalam. actually, the job's quite easy for weigh-in.

step 1: check the pass.
step 2: make sure both opponents are there.
step 3: call the wasit.
step 4: write in the weight
step 5: ask the respective team managers to sign
step 6: give them their vest and sash.

that's ALL.

but then semalam, suey2.. bile si Dia tu datang je nak tolong with the weigh-in, sume mixed up coz everyone came at the same time. and coz some schools, they like to come in at the very last minute and let everyone else wait, yea.. cock up lah.

2nd time he came, yang about the guy who lost his identifications. took his and his opponent's weight earlier in the morning. den i told them to take their weight again. den dey said no need. and i was like reconfirm la. den i asked Rafili. and he said, no need coz pagi dorang dah weigh. and i was like okay lah.

haha. rabak..

today last day. i don't have any duty. whooohoo.

oh damn. i need to finish pp by today. crap.
FYP tak bergerak for a months siaaa. wtff.
citra is next week. STEPS SUSAH NAK MAMPOS. mampos.

mati akuuu.

long post!

i don't really think that i'm ferry lagged (jetlagged in boating terms coz i didnt ride a jet).

ohkae well, i just came back from Telok Bakau yesterday and i'm damn tired, d0wn with fever and stomach flu. eat, puke. eat and puke. urgh. irritating.

so anyways, about the trip. mom woke me up at 4.30 or 5 AM. huuuhu. den get ready and left home around 6. took 334 to jrg east interchange. oh and my dad was kiasu and jakon coz he hasnt been taking the bus for years. so, yes, that explains the jakonism. then took 97 to Harbourfront.

then, met the relatives at Harbourfront Center. and saw this baby.


AZAKHIR AKA KEMBANG!

but kembang skrg dah sombong. huhu. dah taknak dgn orang lagik.

den i saw this while teaching Aken how to tie his shoelace.


my pri 3 cousin helping Aken to tie his shoelace. how cute is that? haha.

and on the ferry..








Batam Arrival Center.




then we took a sort of taxi boat to Belakang Padang, the "city" kampong.



At Belakang Padang itself, bought a lot of stuff sehk. the place was.. URHM. eww.



then, went to buy stuff,


Kedai Jamu


the pasar siang


the market


the food!


the steps. giler seh.

den reached there, then saw this guy (from that kampong). he kept looking at me and tried to get some eye contact, and then i kept thinking.. and he was AMRI, a childhood sweetheart. haha. later i'll show his pic.

so the next day, went to the local school, coz they had this pri 6 leaving ceremony.




the funny thing was, the locals were dressed up so nicely. and me and my cousins were soooo selekeh! ahah. we haven't bath yet, and were wearing shorts and tshirts. waddderrhell.

this is the walkway to my grandma's hse..



at home,


mcm jay ckp, MANUAL. haha


FOOD!

2nd day,


my dad forgot his glasses so he grabbed the binoculars, and then, looked at his hp coz someone msged him. and he had to flip his hp downwards den he can read it. weird kan?


the shallowness.


the toilet area. ahhaha.


the kids.


the view from the veranda.


the kebun.

by the 3rd day, my phone battery flat. so didnt take any pictures.

so the last day, woke up like superearly to take the taxi back to Belakang Padang. and this was the guy that i mentioned about. don't mind the center girl.




4 years ago, i went there. and there was 2 guys. Amri and Saderi who happened to be close to me. and then, Cinta Lokasi 3 Segi happened. ahhaa. But I prefer Amri coz he's hardworking and more fun, Saderi more like, good looking hopeless guy. And at that point of time, a lot of them thought i was with Amri coz i spent lotsa time with him. He'd sleep at my gramma's place and when i wake up in the morning, he'll be right there. =)

But then, 2 years ago, i went there, Amri wasnt there coz he was working in Malaysia or somewhere. And i was stuck wif blardy Saderi who stuck wif me the whole time. It was so irritating.

But now, Saderi wasnt there and there was only Amri. But, he wasnt the same person anymore. He was quiter but still hardworking. He didnt talk much. Oh gee. We didnt get to talk much lah actually. sedih tau. haha. den i saw him took pics of the fam when we were on the taxi while he was at the jetty.

and i took his pic too. well, he and his younger bro and i reckon, his brother will be hott when he gets older.



the view from the jetty.


baju orang kat depan ku.


then, while on the ferry back to sg.

mee goreng mak Amri masak. pedas sedap giler.

and this pic, i managed to capture on the ferry.

cool giler.

today, PAK RUSLI punye bday. haha.

HAPPY 46TH AYAH!



first time siol family makan kat Haagen Dazs. alurh. free mah. voucher. went to loadsa places. malas nak update. but yea, happy bday dad!