boredomness

my tummy is hurting so bad.

i don't know whether it's the jamu i just bought which is taking effect or the mee rebus which i ate this morning, which, at the stall, i saw a rat.

urggh. it's keeeeeeeling me.

ok now, it feels better.

i've been feeling lousy these few days. i don't know why lah. i don't know whether it's PMS. i don't know.

i feel unwanted.
i don't feel important.

hurhur. talk about low self-esteem. or self-confidence. or self-love.
i guess, it's just the time of the month lah. nothing to worry about. the feeling will go away, like soon.

Jazzy's not in school yet and no one to go smoke with me. i need to fag. i know i need to stop fagging a lot. it's like, 4 packs in 2 weeks is not reasonable for me. but yeah, 1 pack now lasts me 3 days. Gosh. I'm left with 2 sticks now.

i can't buy another pack because i'm left with $20 till monday. and, i can't fag as much because now i have dikir trainings and also, this saturday i've soccer. i need my stamina and my throat. haiiz.

i am damn bored.

abang man just msged me. he said khairul was sacked. the guy was already warned. haiiz. 1 marshal less. aizad and farid are gonna go NS in june. faiz is gonna go this year. oh goshh. one by one my blood bros are gonna go NS.

i found this.



yeah, i guess, i'm feeling this way. haiiz.

breaking down.

i wanna cry.

i'm just so pissed with every single thing. with everyone.

i was jealous. yes, that's because i wasn't used to being left out whenever at work. i'm not used to not being given attention and i'm definitely not used to not being pampered.

i'm not trying to be some attention seeker. yes, i know that she's a new girl and everyone wants to kacau her. but don't expect me to join in to kacau her.

it's already bad enough that i'm trying to get used to having another girl around at work. coz i'm so used to being the only girl at work and everyone gives me attention and pamper me. and now, even my favourite people are not layaning me and kacau her.

i mean, i just don't wanna be left out!

and of course, i'd be moody. what do you expect?

abang zaid says i showed it too much. i couldn't help it.i know he meant well when he asked me to call him to actually tegur me about my moodiness in the bus back to Harbourfront.

but..

in the other case, he was jealous. yes, he msged me at night and asked me why i didn't sit beside him in the bus and chose to sit alone, only to have abang zaid to sit beside me.

and he was different today. he kept saying i'm different. not as manje as last time, and somebody said something about me and him. i don't know lahh. i know nuts.

i don't need this right now.

i'm just so pissed lah. i just wanna breakdown now.

i don't know.

boring days.

i think this week was bad.

i've skipped school on monday because of the hospital appointment.
on tuesday, yeah well, i wanted to skip 3rd meeting but, i didnt coz nobody was free.
on wednesday, i skipped school and woke up at 5pm.
on thursday, i went out of school at 10 am.
on friday, today, i woke up at 2 pm.

hurhur. and well, i was at Sentosa yesterday while waiting for Irfan. And Michael, the beach tram driver, said this,

"You should consider yourself lucky. U're already in Poly and you're skipping school. Do you know how many people want to go to poly badly but they can't? There's a lot of them! Some of them have to complete ITE for 2 years then come to poly. You must think lah. You only have a year more to go.."

It was like, *SMACK!*

yesyes, i know i should take school seriously. but yeah well, i will soon.

and Cikgu is hounding me for the instructors for Dikir. Shit. Need to call them up already. Ishh. Paiseh though.. but gotta do it. And yeah speaking of which, i will be helping a group out in Dikir. Well, just to get the experience i guess.

So yesterday, i was kinda pissed off in class and just walked out of class. Was gonna meet Irfan at 1230.

But i was like, damn early lah can.. So went in to Sentosa and went to meet my boys. Saw Farid, Faiz and Tian Chan. I miss em all so much. Then talked for awhile. Went back to VAC to smoke. and Abang Nazree asked for songs from my laptop. Then yeah, typically, i guessed right. Irfan was gonna be late.

So hung out with the pakciks, smoked, and went out.

Met Irfan and went to have lunch at LJS. Saw Shaeee! haha. she said Irfan was cute. haha.. okok.. who doesnt think that he's cute kan? -_-" hahaha. yaya.. he's cute.

so walked around vivo for hours.. he bought shades and the memory card + micro sd. then went to jurong point. yeah and WE shopped. haha.. he bought 3 shirts and a necklace and i bought meself shades and a Body Shop perfume!

went to smoke and headed home. and yes, now i know, boys can be worse shoppers than girls. haha.. but it was fun lah. like, really fun. hehehh.

today, i just didnt have the mood to go to school. woke up at 2 plus.

ohhhh and, i guess i bored all of you with what i did the past few days. haahaha. ahh well. i'm bored waddd.

WORK TMR!!!

wheeeee.

ChiCka<3

cranky

i'm getting more and more agitated when he chats with me. hurhur. the ex.

no, i do not want to go out with you.
no, i actually do not want to be friends with you anymore.

and,

can u just leave me alone?

urgh, irritating.

and so, i can't go online at home anymore. which sucks when it comes to weekends. so, i'll probably be online whenever i'm in school. so, yeah.. more reasons for me to go to school often huh.. i'm just getting lazier and lazier to go to school. bahh. especially with 2 more weeks left of school. arrgh.

i've stuffed myself with banana and chocolate waffles. and now, because i was so tamakk, i bought another chocolate waffle which i don't think i can finish. sheesh. so much for diet. but of course, i don't think i'd be eating dinner. yeah, go home, take medicine and sleep till tmr morning, hopefully. hahaha..

i miss work like, oh so much! i didnt work last weekend coz it was mama's birthday last sunday. i should've worked sia on saturday. urgghhh.

ok. i've got nothing much to update on actually.

it just hurts to know. i shouldn't have asked.

work.

end of 4 days of work. and now back to school.

the last few days were totally slacky i'd say. it's as if sentosa is suffering from bad business (choy!). but yeah, there was really a major difference in the crowd numbers compared december and january.

but these few days were great because i saw the marshals bonding together, finally. it's something which i've been wanting to do for quite some time. i have to thank cinemania for that, though it's already closed. and because of the closure, it brought my marshals closer to each other, not just in work but outside work.

on sunday, 9 marshals went to watch cinemania together during the last show for the day. it's very rare to get 9 marshals together at the same time. it's really cool lah. =) and i took this opportunity to take pictures with my marshals. and~ it's our first ever group pic! hehh.


The Guys.


6 guys and 1 girl


Me and MK.


Me and MK again. LOL.


Me,Limei, Melissa


Me and Faiz.


Me and Aizad Skip.


Me and Farid


Me and Nisham


Me and Tian Chan


Me and Farid


Aizad Fucking Faiz

Ok then for Monday,


Goodbye Cinemania.


Me and Nisham again.


Big Dee and Small Aizad. LOL


and i was working on monday too. it was totally slacky. i was at harbourfront. and it was the first day of sentosa express opening. geexz. harbourfront was totally normal. like, zilch. hurhur. i saw ali romeo tho. hehhh. he told me to call him if i wanna take the train from vivo.

after harbourfront, went to dolphin lagoon. and guess who i saw???

THE RANGER GUY!!!

omggggg. i was so happy laaaaah. hehhe. he asked me if i was stationed there and i said yeah. then he went off.

and at night, i took the express train back. met my family at vivo. then took aken to take the express train. and at beach station, a whole group of rangers board the train!!!!

GOSSSHHHH.

and, Shahid was there lah. and gawwwdd. he saw me and aken. and i was just thinking that maybe, he thought Aken is my son. Arghhhh. depression ahh.

Then Tuesday i was working too. I didnt see Shahid though coz he's working night shift. BAAAAH. but i took pics again. nyahhha.


me and abang zaid.


me and my name tag


jakonism

sighness. not gonna see him for a long time. bleaarghh.

nice suprise.

net is being such a bitch. can't log in to msn. hurrr. that sucked.

even myspace is taking such a long time to load.

so, me and Linda, we're at Shaw House Mac now. yes, we skipped school. and shit, i missed my 3rd Maths UT consecutively. damn cb. we waited for a cab for like, half an hour under the rain and still no cab so we gave up uhh. and came here, like any other days when i skipped school with Sandy, we'd come to Shaw House Mac.

oh yesyesyes! i've got a superterrificfabulistic news!!

i was sleeping last night at 8 plus, and someone called. i didnt recognise the number nor the voice. but i didnt know why i wasn't irritated at the fact that someone called me when i was sleeping. and i wasnt rude either. i was quite polite, in fact.

and i asked who the person was. and he said, "kawan lama tapi baru tapi lama" which meant.. "old friend but new but old" i was like"..."

and lastly he said.. "Ni Amy lahh"

i was so shocked that, i sat upright immediately from lying down. i was like, "Amy as in Amy amyyy?"

hahahaha. oh yesyesyes. Amy as in Thabri Amy. The Mr Ex-Ranger Amy. =))

i was so shocked. i didn't expect him to call me again. but he did. and talking to him again was great.. just like how we used to talk. our loyarness, arguments and debates. aha.. it was great. i thought that there no chance of us talking again. but yeah, we are.

just so happy lah. =)

ohh and you know, i just changed my myspace main pic to the pic which i went to tan with sandy and josephine. and, in 2 days, i've got 7 friend requests. geez. and i've got a few requests from African Americans. weirdness.

and finally, my myspace is active. haha.. if not, i couldn't be bothered with myspace.

i just don't get it with myspace actually. i mean, in friendster, i have like 740++ people in my first account but i know them even i'm not close to them. like, i know where i got to know them from. but myspace, people just add for the sake of adding, and then some, never msg or whatsoever and like, i don't even know who they are lah.

ohh whatever.

after this, i'm going to far east. then, no idea where to. maybe today going to meet Fan to get his passport size pic for the Islander thing. baaah.

bored.

woohoo!

i did the facial last night and it was greaaat lah.

it was supposed to be 2 hrs but then it dragged to 3 hours. and the lady who did my face was great. she talked to me in mandarin all the way. =) what a way to improve my mandarin huh?

so, she did my eyebrows and she also gave me a face massage, head massage and a shoulder massage. how cool is that! and it's only $39. coolness. might be going there again next month. all thanks to abang man for all these pampered stuff.







heex. that's MY helmet. abang said so. he bought 2 helmets. one for him and one for me and that's mine! =) one day i'll take a pic of the bike. it's super nice okeh. it's red! my favourite color. and it's a cbr 150.

okeh. cik jamilah just called me just now and.. i'll be working at 9 am on Saturday. That means.. i'll be stationed at Harbourfront. and THAT means.. i can see Shahid. Coz i figured he'll be working night shift on Friday and the next day he'll be be out at 9 plus. So, yeah. AND. on Monday AND Tuesday, i'll be at Harbourfront too. So, yeah.

gosh. i'm obsessed.

these few days i've been really good. single. no stress. no pressure. except for one by fan. so, i've been good.

i'll just run away at any sign of guys trying to get close to me. haha. it got me really scared, really. i'm just not interested in getting to know anyone new. just let me be.

the other day, i was chatting with Kieysha. and i guess there were some thoughts and views that we shared in common. it's been quite a while since i had a view/perception exchange chat, so, i thought it was kinda cool uh. =)

and i guessed for her, she's got really good, no wait, excellent i'd say, patience and tolerance. i'm not like that anymore. i used to be. but now, i can't. somehow my realistic side keeps telling me stuff which, will overcome my feelings. in a way, it's good yet, perceiving at times. ah anyways, it was a good chat.

speaking of good chats, i had my nightly chats with Fan. Hah.. which reminded me of the time when we met last Friday. It was gerek uh. Like, there was this once that me, him and kak diana went to Forever 21 and there was this bra which actually caught my eye. and it was so interesting that i made such a big fuss of it. and the salesgirl came in and said,

"yes, it's interesting yeah? but it's only for C cups."

and i'm like, okay. this is the part where i shut up about my boob size.

and then the salesgirl, filipino i guess, actually said..

"oh.. i think u can fit in them"

and Fan was like, sniggering laaah. Geex. She was looking at my boobs! LOL. yes, i know i can fit in them but, like, you don't have to say it out loud you know. Gee. But that night was great i guess. Me and Kak Diana gave Tiara a surprise birthday thing. it was one of the first i've done and it was like, such a last minute idea.






Lil-Ti, ChiCka and Elia


Me and Kak Diana.
yeah, give some recognition to my 3 favourite girls.

you know what, i'm blabbering too much. everything's OH-SO-RANDOM. hahaha. bleargh.

ciao all.

do not lie to me. because i will find out sooner or later. try all u might to hide it, but i can always find out. so, don't try.

detailed specifications.

7th January 2007

I think today was supeeeerr gerek.

I was stationed at Siloso Point at 10 plus and Nazmi was supposed to be with me but he didn't come today. So i was alone there.

When i reached there, there was this ranger.

He looked exactly like Amy. He's tall like Amy. Maybe only a little slimmer than Amy. And maybe a little cuter than Amy. But then again, he looked sooo much like Amy. And i smiled at him lah, the only reasonable thing to do in Sentosa when you see another Sentosa-worker.

And he smiled back.

And he came over to my place and talked to me! LOL!

He asked me whether i've eaten, what time i'm going back and stuff. That was the first time i talked to him! Usually i'll see him around at Harboufront when i'm stationed there. But that was like, WOW! heh.. He's so cute lah can...

And i saw him like, throughout the morning. He came over to my place quite a few times. there was once or twice that he stayed there coz he had to chase the taxis away. i managed to talk to him again. =)

and then, i told uncle mohan that i found him cute but i didnt know his name. so, when the guys, mk, faiz and uncle mohan saw who he was, they TRIED to be nice and got his name for me, like as if i asked; which in fact, i did not. but anyway, his name is Shahid.

i guess the reason i kinda looked forward to see him again, is because he reminds me so much like Amy. and i kinda miss Amy.

yes, Amy the Mr Ranger. well, Mr Ex-Ranger, i shall say.

Amy's having 2 jobs now and i guess, both of us have been quite distant from each other ever since the incident. but i still miss the times when both of us were really close and that we'd talk to each other every single day.. and we'd have our late night loyarness. and he's call when he's at work.

i miss all that.

but times have changed. both of us have moved on in our lives. and i don't think we're as important to each other as we were back then.

yeah well.. i still miss him very much.

Dear God,

please make me have the courage in life and pls guide me to the right path in life. please stop me from hurting people who have done nothing wrong to me.

why do You make me so complicated to understand? people can't understand me. i can't understand me too.

i want someone.

someone who can change me.
someone who can change my perspectives.
someone who can guide me in my life.
someone who can make me respect them.
someone who can always prove me wrong.
someone who can shut my ego up.
someone who can understand how busy i am.
someone who can make me have the time for them no matter how busy i am.
someone who is strong-willed enough to tolerate me.
and for once,
someone who respects me and my decisions.

i know it's hard to get that someone.

but i do know, there will be someone out there for me. but i guess, maybe not now. in the future. yes, hopefully.

Amin.

i'm single now.
my attention now, work, school and cca.

i think the only guys that are close to me, are my sentosa fam.
abang man, abang zaid, faiz, tian chan, nazmi, farid.

and some net friends.
jas, jayjay, zulkhairi, adek lili and a few more which i think i forgot.

and of course,
irfan.

would i let guys be close to me again?

i don't know. i'm just so tired of being in a relationship, only to find out a little later that we can't commit anymore. i'm just so sick of being in a short term relationship. i know i'm the one asks for the break up. but you can't blame me, when we have nothing to talk about on the phone.

i enjoy intellectual conversations.

not some sappy mushy conversations, asking whether i love you or you love me. no, i'm not that kinda person. i like realism. i like philosophy. get me to talk about that and i won't shut up. don't just ask me how my day was and shut up. if you shut up, i'll shut up.

i enjoy sarcasm and arguments.

yes, i like people trying to prove to me that i'm wrong. i don't like compliments much. i'm a flawed and imperfect human being. tell me my flaws and imperfections, so that i can work on them and improve myself. don't keep telling me that i'm right and i'm oh-so-perfect. no, don't lie to me.

i love humour.

if you can make me laugh sincerely, i seriously salute you. it's not easy to get me laughing sincerely. sometimes i'll just fake a laugh. just like how i'll fake a smile. i'm an actress remember? you can't tell when i'm faking it and when i'm not. but i'm not, you can see it in my eyes.

yes, that's who i really am and what i'm expecting.

and till then,

my darling will always be, abang. and i will always be his pampered little adik sayang. till i find a boyfriend who can really take care of me, abang will always be the person i look up to and also be pampered with.

i've been disappointed time and time again. and that doesn't mean i have given up or stopped searching. my heart will always be searching for the right one. but my eyes are too blind to see who that person is.

i have moved on in my life. but it doesn't mean that i have forgotten about Mr Ex-ranger. i've always thought that God doesn't allow me to be with him now because he will be with me in the future forever. i know it sounds kiddish, but that's what i think. it may not be true. but i have no idea why i still insists on thinking that way.

unless, someone can really get me over him. which i don't think anybody can.

for now,

i'm just happier being alone. no, wait. i'm not alone. i have the people mentioned above. and yes, you people reading this might think that i'm a flirt, i have lots of guy friends and blah3..

well, it's not easy being brought up in a family where you're the only daughter and the rest are guys. not that your mum is girlish too. she's not. so, you go figure. i'm raised in a surrounding of boys. it's not that i'm so gatal to be with a lot of guy friends. it's just that i get along with guys better that girls. that's that.

aaah. but anyways, it's up to you to judge.

and who knows,

you can prove me wrong. =)

muchlove.

2007

haiz.

the more i try not to think, the more i will think. i know i shouldn't. i know i should be strong and not think about it. but i just can't stop.

it's been a long time since i've been like this. i want it. all for myself. not seeing it, not having it, just makes me a weaker person.

haiiz.

this is wad i got off from some friendster bulletin. quite true i guess. hahaha. and they keep emphasizing that december ppl are horny. shut up laaaah. hahaha. i'm horny so wad? lolz.

DECEMBER= BEAUTY
Loves to chat.
Loves those who love them.
Loves to takes things at the centre.
Great in bed.
Inner and physical beauty.
Doesn't pretend.
Gets angry often.
A meaningful love life partner.
Treats friends importantly.
Brave and fearless.
Always making friends.
It is all about love and fairness.
Easily hurt but recovers easily.
Daydreamer.
Horny but does fullfill.
Opinionated.
Does not care to control emotions.
Knows what to do, to have fun.
Unpredictable.
Someone to have close to you.
Extremely smart, but definitely the hottest AND sexiest of them all.

and with the new year here, i guess it's resolutions time, yeah? but let's kick it off with some reflections.

A review. Of 2006

2006. A year of ups and downs of the extremes. It was a year of unexpected things happening. It was a year, of happiness, joy, sadness, and strength.

i've got 2 exes in the year of 2006.

one being, my now-good-friend-and-then-boyfriend J. It was a good relationship i think. Only that both of us were always busy and never had the time for each other that, i think the love failed. and also, because of my dad. i ran away from home for the very first time of my life. met his siblings. met his mom. his mom doesn't like me. neither did my dad liked him. it was hard on us. and it was especially hard on me when i got that tag from someone. and it ended everything.

it was such a terrible period of time for me. i was really looking forward to the 6th months anniversary. but before we got there, we went our separate ways. it was horrible. the memories, was so vague, so clear. the promises. the sacrifice i did. i went totally berserk. and the only people who stood by me, were my parents, my brother, and also my sentosa family.

it wasn't easy, to let go of a good guy. but then again i thought, if he's happier without me, then i will let him go. and i wanna see him happy. if it means being with me makes him unhappy, i'd let go. and i did.

all sorts of advices came to me.

and i will always remember what abang azri told me.
"a relationship without parent's blessings, will never work out"

and from then onwards, i respected my parents. i changed. abang man was with me every single day because i used to skip school for 2 wks after my break-up. he'd advice me. talk to me.

and uncle goh would tell me.

"kamu masih muda... masih byk lagi lelaki di luar sana.. tidak apa kalau satu tidak mahu kamu, pokoknya, ramai lagi org yang masih sayang kamu.."

i guess that's true. i may have lost one person. but there are lots of others out there who loves me as their friend, their sister and also their daughter.

that period was one of the craziest period in my life but, i sure did learn a lot from it.

then, the highlight for 2006 was my first ever theatre performance. I PERFORMED AT ESPLANADE!!!

it was cool. totally.

and then, i performed for create.fiesta.

and, then i turned 18. ahhh. the legal age.

and i got myself into another relationship. and it was a 5 day relationship. it was a total mistake. i should've known better. tattoos? sec 3 education? went to prison b4? tagging? what was i even thinking?

i know i had a lot of impact in his life. but i'm sorry that the only impact that i've got was just pure hate.

2006 saw me made a lot of great friends. and i lost a few of them.

amy. scandalous. his friend liked me. i liked him. he liked filzah. how much of a conflict can that be. i've been thinking of typing a script about it. because it was so controversial and so much drama in it that no one would ever believe me if i told them. and i lost this dear friend of mine. we were so close. but now, everything just feels so distant between us.

irfan. the one i have intellectual conversations once in a while. the one who made me think and woke me up from lies.

abang man, nazmi, faiz, tianchan and those in sentosa who are close to me. these people are like family to me. they're not just colleagues. they're my brothers, and also my godfathers. <3 these people to bits.

and then, now, i've got it and it makes me happy. lol.

i just hope 2007 will be a good year for me.

2006 was a good year. really.

my resolutions for 2007 will be..

- quit smoking. like every other year's resolution.
- make more money
- come to school more
- get good grades
- lose weight.
- have faith in myself.
- don't sin too much. lolz!
- get a bike.

and lastly,

bring myself closer to God.

yeah, i guess that's my new year's resolutions. might have summore though. but i can't think of anymore for now.

okay. that was a long post. toodles all~

school's in.

and school is in.

baahhhh. first day of school reopen and i've got a China faci for my maths class. lolz.. he's okay lah just that the accent is a little distracting. nyahha..

guess what. last night talked to Fan. i was sleeping then he called lah. somehow i woke up but i checked, i got another 2 missed calls from Izhar. Lol.. So then we talked. And we cried. It was quite emotional lah. I guess everyone has their own weak points and it's kinda unavoidable.

ok well, i'll reply to my tags first before i begin rambling about other stuff.

TAG REPLIES.

Ilah: awak semua takde..tinggal saja jer sorang.wahaha..dee!! aku miss ko!!
==> ChiCka: aku pun miss kauuuuuu!! hahaha.. alaaa. kan dah cakap.. aku nie busy woman.. ishk kau ni pun!

syasya: i was here..heh bz giler yea kamu? hehe
==> ChiCka: hey babe! yeahh busy giler these few weeks. i miss you girls!

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==> ChiCka: EH HELLO! thanks for dropping by.

Nouru: HEYA! Hmm...I think U find a song w/o and high vocals.That is your limit.Try Tsukiko Amano =P
==> ChiCka: HEELLOO! Tsukiko Amano song? GILA! She's got a high pitch voice.Mine is low pitch. LOL. Jordan Hill would be good. or Christina Aguilera. And how to get Minus 1 song?!! Argh!!


ok, back.

ok now, i don't feel like updating much, lol. laters~

i miss you.

back again.

ahhhhh yes. i'm back again.

been busy working after i came back from Indonesia. From the 23rd December to the 2nd January, i only had 1 day off. That means, 10 days of work.

And yeaaa, it was 10 days of hell.

Let me see..

Sat: 0900-1900 = 10 hrs work
Sun: 0900-1900 = 10 hrs work
Mon: 0900-1900 = 10 hrs work
Tues: OFF
Wed: 0900-1930 = 10.5 hrs work
Thurs: 0900-1930 = 10.5 hrs work
Fri: 0900-2100 = 12 hrs work
Sat: 0900-1900= 10 hrs work
Sunday to Monday: 1300 - 0800 = 19 hrs work
Mon: 1200 - 2200 = 10 hrs work
Tuesday: 1200 - 1900 = 7 hrs work

TOTAL HOURS OF WORK: 109 hours.

WHOAAAAAA!!

Siallah. I must be superwoman. Like, really. Who is human enuff to do 29 hours of work wifout any sleep?

yeah, only me, Faiz, Tian Chan and Khairul.

gila..

But it was cool lahh. We thought the countdown was gonna have a lot of people since, they said the expected was like, 15,000. but guess what, the ticketing ppl said, it was about 3,000++ only.

but it was kecohrable at the Beach Station. People fighting, drunk. Crapstuff. So, i was the only girl again. As usual laahh kan. and so, we finished work at 8. 6 of us slept. 5 of us continued work at 12. And 4 of us finished at 10 pm.

Mcm siak lor.

But the best part was at Ferry.

I feel that Sentosa is not just a workplace for me. It's like a 2nd home and that's where my 2nd family is. =)

yeah well. school starts tomorrow for me. yeahh so, now back to Republic Poly.



and tell me, my new uniform is ugly, isnt it?
urgh.

OFFICE CLEANER!

merepekness. what was the designer even thinking! the color. urgh.
merepek.