pms

there are just times, where you can't control your emotions.
and anger is the more dominant feeling taking over you.
but deep inside, you just don't want to react that way.
there's this little kid, trapped inside a more dominant persona.

but anyways,
maybe i just lack of hanging out with friends.
to just let loose.

i havent met Endangdoks for a long time.
and Jurong Warriors, for 2 weeks - 'cept Saturday we met for a short while.

and yesterday, i met some of the Doks.
i felt better. just laughing it out.

and meeting cuzzie was even better.
we somehow always need each other at the same time.
and we sat and talked at Sembawang Park.

and things were good.
when i went home, i felt like i was recharged
and a "better" person.

so yes, i wasn't angry that night.
or wadever negative emotions.

i'm good.

i really owe you big time for being patient with me baby.
i love you sooo much.

i just can't wait to go back to Jurong next week.
Harbourfront customers are really stressing me out.
i really have to crack my head to answer them.
and not to mention the fact that i keep forgetting little details.

2 more days, then KL.
WOOTS!!

things.

i'm hating the new imeem.
they limit the songs to 30 seconds when you post it in other wesbites.
urghh.

so anyways,
it was Piala KGMS yesterday.





and as usual, Cucus were great..
this time round, it was really hard fight i guess,
a lot of the groups were good.

me and bb left right after the last group,
supposedly meet Yati at Bedok.
but then changed plan and went to a friend's place for her daughter's bday party.

went to Cucu's blog,
then went to KGMS blog,
got so surprised that Durbar Dua kene disqualified.
they were really good that day.
howells, judges decision.

yang penting,
CUCU FIRST!!!



and like i said multiple times,
if there's a category for best supporter, supporter2 CDM leh angkat.
lol



kecoh kay diorang.

ok dah tu je.
plussss,

work = stress!!!

baby

i've got to accept the fact that baby doesnt want me anymore.
he's decided to be close to another woman, and not me.
i mean, so far, we've gotten along very well.
it has always been me, never anyone else.

since the last time we met,
baby really showed a face to me.
he didnt even want to be near to me.
upset sia.

it's been such a long time since we last met,
and i missed him so much.
of course, he didnt understand that.

it really broke my heart to see him with another woman.
how could you do this to me baby?
don't you know that i love you soooo much?

i wish, i could hug you like this again..



or hold you in my arms, and make sure that, you're safe.



and share our smiles together..



i'm gonna miss you baby.
hope you're happy with the new maid.
i will still be around for you. :(



on another note,

today, the sentosa peeps were supposed to have a karaoke session.
but in the end there was only Hafiz and me.
mereps lah siak.




then at 4 plus, went out to fetch bb in.
and thought that the rest of the peeps were gonna be there,
but went in the karaoke room, Hafiz was still inside alone.
kesian per.



so okay la, the 3 of us stayed there till 6 plus and then we were off.
me and bb went to Siloso to watch sunset.







so sat there and talked,
till 8 to 9, we left to dinner with my maternals.
:)



and yet again,
i burst.
i was trying so hard to be better today.
i tried so hard to not let my pms take control of me.

but after the whole day of not bursting at him,
i burst in front of my mum, in front of him.
it was because of a stupid thing uh.

merepek sak dian.
tak pasal2 nak carik kemarahan org.
sheesh!

warriors

the 1st week of Harbourfront has ended.
1 more week left.
harbourfront's been good.
just the scanning though.

but nothing beats Jurong.
the crowd, the friends. :)









althought at first,
it was hard to get along with them (newbie maah),
after a while,
they turned out to be great friends.

JIWA WARRIORS EH DOK!
SATURDAY REUNION!

pms!

i hate having pms.
fedup sak.

i find faults over little things which i shouldnt be doing.
get mad over little things.
urghhhh.

i dont mean it you know.
after all that, i'd think of how stupid i was to react like that.
it's ridiculous.

why the heck is there such a thing as pms?

i'msorry..

out with bb

maybe i should learn to behave myself more.
or try to not sulk so much.
or maybe try not to be too temperamental.

right now, i'll use the traditional excuse.
pms.
hurhur.

met bb today, he accompanied me to ESTA to get my skirt done.
and we went to Vivo after that.

Bb treated me to Carls, Jr. woots.





watched 17 Again.



Zac Efron was hot.
I'm not really a Zac Efron fan actually,
but gotta admit he's hot in this movie.

i'm sorry baby for throwing tantrums at you.
it's not that i'm not appreciative,
i just want to spend more time with you. :(
imissyousooooomuch.

thankyou for all the belanja-ing and sending me back.
ily bb. <3

sentosa again. =)

i had soooo much fun ytd.
went to sentosa with love and his cousin Yati.
and joined by his 2 friends Zan and Rusydi later on.

so we met around 12.30 at Harbourfront.
grabbed some food at Giant and had lunch at Banquet.



den after that took express in to Sentosa.
and placed our stuff at Siloso toilet lockers.

after that went to Merlion to find Weiling
and she gave us free tix to Merlion, Images of Singapore and Fort Siloso.
most of the pics are with yati uh btw.







after Merlion, we went to Images of Singapore.
it was uber fun.
saw Mamang inside.









so after IOS, we went to sit at Coffee Bean and slacked,
while waiting for Zan and Rusydi.
and coz it was drizzling, we didnt get to go to Fort.
so next plan was maybe Butterfly park or 4D magix and such.
but siak uh ticket price went up again.

so we took skyride down to Siloso.
and Yati was sooo cute.
she got a bit gabrah and held me sooo tight.
but still sempat take pictures.




so then, went to Beach Station and collected 5 staff passes so that we could get into Songs of the Sea for free.
and then we collected our stuff, and went to BORA BORA!!

they ordered Vodkalime and Burbourn Coke.
and i drank more than wad i usually did. haha







so after that,
took bus from DL and took Baker's bus.
and it so happens that Yati knows Baker. haha





so then reached Imbiah..
and luge down!

da ckp takmo challenge expert
hehe



then saw Sabran.
talked a while.

so after that watched SONGS OF THE SEA.
basah kuyup siak.








so after SOS, we went to Tanjong Beach.
IT WAS FRIGGGGINNN COOL AND COLD!
hahaha. nice siar.





and in the end, i went home,
a happy girl. =)