stress

these few days, i've been so stressed up. like, eversince i've got the mail from the programme chair, i've been like, depressed eversince.

it's all because of my high absenteeism and not taking school seriously. okay. this was what she sent.

This is regarding your high absences, weak grades this semester which will affect your module selection for next year.

If you do not intend to continue your studies here, please download the withdrawal form from myrp, get your parents' signature and bring it to the One-Stop Centre.

geez. i've been depressed eversince. i've never been a poor student. neither am i an ace student. but all along, i've never repeated any modules, until now. or, withdraw from school or whatsoever. but of course, i'm not that stupid to go withdraw from school uh. haiz. i'm just gonna suffer for Academic Year 07/08.

and that would mean, lesser work. haiiiz.

i'm so blardy stressed up okay! and i havent even finish my PP yet. urgh i need a break from all these.

hmm. it's 2 days to the 2nd December. Maybe that's just one of the things which i've been looking for. Daddy asked me where i wanna go on the 2nd December. i don't know. anywhere which can give me a good break. probably gonna go malaysia.

haaiz... i just feel like crying now lah.. i havent been crying for such a long time. =(

and, not to mention, i'm having some heart problems. Farah once told me, "yes, moved on.. but you haven't gotten over it."

well, yes i've been caring so much for him these few months and when things go wrong, i just try to deny everything. that's just me isn't it? i'm just good at denying.

haiiz... i think i'm ready to open up to someone. maybe i want a relationship now. but if i do, what about my 2 favourite guys? i don't wanna leave them.. *sobs*

howhowhow?

raaa...

abang man was surprised i was home damn early yesterday. i reached home at 6pm. and yes, i've got the much needed sleep that i want to. i slept at 9.30pm last night. and yes, now i'm in school.

it just irks me that my new facilitator kept giving me a C. i mean, i know that my good grades are gonna land me to a C for the whole module after all and they don't mean a difference. but at least, you know, it's a new class and all, just give me some time to work it out.

something's come up.

i just wanna run away and cry.

i'm baaackk!

ok so people have questioned my hiatus.

heex.. well.. i've been good. just that i was freaking busy and i just did some soul searching, threw away some feelings, and yeah, i'm back. =) i miss blogging oh so much! heh...
drama has already ended. the show was okay. the technical glitches sucked big time. however, natasha's grp which performed on friday had a much better show. howells, that's just show business.

but then! on friday, haha.. we had the flame awards.. and the theme was retro rock. and there was a party after that. omg.. drama totally rocked the night lahh. heh.. it was crayzeee!!! we owned the stage and we made the most noise eventhough we had a few people. heh.. and i danced for like, 1 hour plus.. wooh. but the songs were a bit boring coz it was retro 70s and 80s songs.

and YES! i came in as a GOTH ROCKER CHICK! hehhh!

yeah well, drama people are camera-hoggers btw. so yeah, while the show was ongoing, with crowds in front, we ran to the front stage and posed and snapped a pic. =)



well, i'm still waiting for the pics to be uploaded to the sharepoint.. then i will upload it here.
but then, urhm.. nevermind. i will only say it when the right time comes.

i've been working like a bitch again. last saturday, i worked for 12 hours.. from 9 am to 9 pm. and to think 12 hours is bad, on sunday, i worked from 7 am to 9 pm! how's that?!! haha.. i swear, my legs were all numb and my focus wasnt as sharp. like wadderrhell. it's been a crazy crazy week.

okay well.. =) i'm back. tag me okeh. hhaha..

withlotsoflove.

soul searching.

untill i find myself again, then i will blog.

as they say, i'm on hiatus.