long post!

i don't really think that i'm ferry lagged (jetlagged in boating terms coz i didnt ride a jet).

ohkae well, i just came back from Telok Bakau yesterday and i'm damn tired, d0wn with fever and stomach flu. eat, puke. eat and puke. urgh. irritating.

so anyways, about the trip. mom woke me up at 4.30 or 5 AM. huuuhu. den get ready and left home around 6. took 334 to jrg east interchange. oh and my dad was kiasu and jakon coz he hasnt been taking the bus for years. so, yes, that explains the jakonism. then took 97 to Harbourfront.

then, met the relatives at Harbourfront Center. and saw this baby.


AZAKHIR AKA KEMBANG!

but kembang skrg dah sombong. huhu. dah taknak dgn orang lagik.

den i saw this while teaching Aken how to tie his shoelace.


my pri 3 cousin helping Aken to tie his shoelace. how cute is that? haha.

and on the ferry..








Batam Arrival Center.




then we took a sort of taxi boat to Belakang Padang, the "city" kampong.



At Belakang Padang itself, bought a lot of stuff sehk. the place was.. URHM. eww.



then, went to buy stuff,


Kedai Jamu


the pasar siang


the market


the food!


the steps. giler seh.

den reached there, then saw this guy (from that kampong). he kept looking at me and tried to get some eye contact, and then i kept thinking.. and he was AMRI, a childhood sweetheart. haha. later i'll show his pic.

so the next day, went to the local school, coz they had this pri 6 leaving ceremony.




the funny thing was, the locals were dressed up so nicely. and me and my cousins were soooo selekeh! ahah. we haven't bath yet, and were wearing shorts and tshirts. waddderrhell.

this is the walkway to my grandma's hse..



at home,


mcm jay ckp, MANUAL. haha


FOOD!

2nd day,


my dad forgot his glasses so he grabbed the binoculars, and then, looked at his hp coz someone msged him. and he had to flip his hp downwards den he can read it. weird kan?


the shallowness.


the toilet area. ahhaha.


the kids.


the view from the veranda.


the kebun.

by the 3rd day, my phone battery flat. so didnt take any pictures.

so the last day, woke up like superearly to take the taxi back to Belakang Padang. and this was the guy that i mentioned about. don't mind the center girl.




4 years ago, i went there. and there was 2 guys. Amri and Saderi who happened to be close to me. and then, Cinta Lokasi 3 Segi happened. ahhaa. But I prefer Amri coz he's hardworking and more fun, Saderi more like, good looking hopeless guy. And at that point of time, a lot of them thought i was with Amri coz i spent lotsa time with him. He'd sleep at my gramma's place and when i wake up in the morning, he'll be right there. =)

But then, 2 years ago, i went there, Amri wasnt there coz he was working in Malaysia or somewhere. And i was stuck wif blardy Saderi who stuck wif me the whole time. It was so irritating.

But now, Saderi wasnt there and there was only Amri. But, he wasnt the same person anymore. He was quiter but still hardworking. He didnt talk much. Oh gee. We didnt get to talk much lah actually. sedih tau. haha. den i saw him took pics of the fam when we were on the taxi while he was at the jetty.

and i took his pic too. well, he and his younger bro and i reckon, his brother will be hott when he gets older.



the view from the jetty.


baju orang kat depan ku.


then, while on the ferry back to sg.

mee goreng mak Amri masak. pedas sedap giler.

and this pic, i managed to capture on the ferry.

cool giler.

today, PAK RUSLI punye bday. haha.

HAPPY 46TH AYAH!



first time siol family makan kat Haagen Dazs. alurh. free mah. voucher. went to loadsa places. malas nak update. but yea, happy bday dad!

long daay.

i've had a long and rough day.

being stationed as weigh in at the ISC was tough and that's where you see the ugliest side of things.

you get to see which school is the cockiest, kerek-est, has the most attitude problems. fed up sey. dah tau name kau tu dah dipanggil turun ah. orang lain leh turon bile name dipanggil, cume skola kau je tak turon. merepek uh.

but at least, today, RP did good lah. Quite a lot of wins.

So, anyways, i'm going off to Telok Bakau tmr.
Yes, Endangs.
Pulau tu exist okeh. haaha.
So yes, I WANNA RELAX OKEH!

baby, i miss you.

PIRATES!

ohhhh i like LOVE my new msn skin.

thats the main windows live page uh.



conversation window.



sign in pop up.

COOOOOL LAAH!

(abeh orgasms..)

wooh

was out the whole day.

worked from 10 am to 6pm.
went to Abg Zaid's for tutoring.
ended at 10pm, and now just reached home.

time check: 11.17pm.

ohh man. i'm beat.

luckily tmr, no work. but still, need to send the lyrics and synopsis to Siglap South CC.

shitto!

but at least dapat tgk si dektu! ahahaha.
BAS, KAU TAK DPT!

hehhhehh.

ok, nak mandi and tido!

busy busy busy!

i have, like, a gazillion things to do.

first, i need to do a synopsis about the Lyrics for Citra Comp which is due this Saturday.
Zoul is so gonna nag at me if i don't do it ASAP.

secondly, i need to do rework for PP which is due on the 16th June.
No more last minute work again, please.

thirdly, FYP. need i say more?
week 13th ehk. damnnn it. Zi Xin's flying off tmr. HABES ARH AKU.

fourthly,
this one's kinda inter-related. work-thenewjob-tuitionjob-comp.
WHERE TO SLOT IN THE TIME??

the other day went for interview at Digiphoto Sentosa with Naj. Haha.
Damn it lah. I dunno whether i can get it.

If i get it, where am i gonna find the time to work?
With Dikir Trainings.
Then next week, i think i'm going to Indonesia.

ALAMAK. LECEH AH.

but at least, today's training we managed to do steps Juara Chorus, Verse 1 and Yengki.
Learnt Matang.
We're left with Intro, Kelantan and Patani.
Tsktsk. A little behind schedule i'd say.

HABES ARH.

RP Invitational Silat Comp will start tmr.
And i'm involved as a weigh-in crew. But won't be down for all the days ah.

Adoii. Busy month sehk.

Arghh. Need to focus more on studies already.

HAIZ.

CHANGED BLOGSKIN!

oh yaaaaaaayy!
i've finally changed my blogskin after...

209740235723220 YEARS~!

actually, yeah true la.
i havent been changing my blogskin for ages.

and of course, like Endang's blog, i made this from scratch.
but then, haha, i have no idea why i picked orange, pink and white as the theme.
it took me, 3 hours i think to finish this up.
sikit2 tak happy, add this, add that.. take this out, take that out.
hahaha.

but of course, it's not really that nice ah.
i dunno what to put for the top part.
the rockyou and the pic.
alah gasak la. haha.
simple yet nice.

haha. tk habes2 simple yet nice.

ohh the flu is acting up on me. damn it.
i wanted to do fyp just now.
but php codes were killing me, so, i thought. TMR LAAAH.

but then tmr, i've training and ISC dry run.
i'll be exhausted till then.
and, i've to do sypnosis for Citra.
ALAMAK. LECEH LAH.

SAYA MAHU ABANG ARMAN SHAH. LUPP LAH SAMA DIA.

random

been smiling like a nutcase today.
and yes, it's about him.

he has never fail in making me smile like a nutcase. =)

and i keep talking about him to atie just now.
hahaha. =D

ohhh a friend of mine forward me an email and so, this was the outcome.

SAGITTARIUS - The Happy-Go-Lucky One (Nov 22 - Dec 21)

Good-natured optimist. Doesn't want to grow up (Peter Pan Syndrome). Indulges self. Boastful. Likes luxuries and gambling. Social and outgoing. Doesn't like responsibilities. Often fantasizes. Impatient. Fun to be around. Having lots of friends. Flirtatious. Doesn't like rules. Sometimes hypocritical. Dislikes being confined - tight spaces or even tight clothes. Doesn't like being doubted. Beautiful inside and out.

So yes, those coloured, bolded and enlarged are very very true.

I can't wait to go out with Abang Arman again. Hehh. =)

ok, now, i wanna cheooooonnnnggg on FYP myself. haha. CODES!

takde maknenye untuk aku nak jealous.
tak perlu!

dengar2, aku takleh hidop tanper dier.
huhu. menyesal lah ehk aku cakap aku tk dpt lupekan dier.

Oh wells, i enjoy my life the way it is now.
I'M FREE TO GO OUT WITH WHOEVER I WANT.

lagipun, dier ade aper?
at least, abg arman, ade stable job, ade kereta, ade duit.
not that i'm looking for harta orang, but at least, i feel SECURED.

and lagipun, abang arman is SO MUCH MORE MATURED than he is.

ohh ABANG ARMAN LAGI BAEK DARI DIER IN ALL SORTS OF WAYS!
including in bed

namra. love.

"27?"

"i'd take that as a compliment but wrong."

"30?"

"close, still wrong"

"then what?"

"34 (pause) Does that change anything?"

"(smiles) of course not"

the only thing that will change, would probably, i've fallen more for him.

"hmmm... everything's nice. you smell nice too.."

and i was just thinking, he's the nicest smelling guy i know. the best smelling i'd say. ohh i just love his cologne and the smell of his car.

"(holds the forehead and stares into the eyes) tell me. what's bothering you? help me to help you. you don't tell me, i wont know.."

and, the 4 hours we spent together was such a bliss. it was sweet, romantic and i've never felt more pampered than just now.

ohhh man. i tell you, i couldn't stop smiling till i reach home. =)

and of course, till now. =)

i swear my lips are swelling.
but he did it the way i like it. huhu.

and i think i'm really falling for him.

dearGod,

I want that MAN.

huhuness.

so, two of my girlfriends have found 'the one' for them.
and, yay for them!

and i am so happy for her and him.
there was definitely a hikmah behind everything that happened.
so, happy2 always ehk korang. =)

haha.
aku je lah yang single sekarang kan.
both of them ade yang berpunye.
wakaka. Dee biler lagik?
NYAAHHHAAA.

lupekan sajer lah.

huhu.

tak mungkin kan aku masih tunggu si budak annuar tu.
arman! nak dier jugaaaaak!

yesterday i was at work.
arman msged me. huhu!
happy giler or whaaat.

i was like, i miss you laa.
and he said, same, i cant wait to date you out again.
and i said, haha.. but you're the one who's always not free.

and he said,

will make time for you dear.

HUHU!! =)

okdah. thats it.

confusion

i've always been caught in the middle.
and i've always hated it.

but these few days,
i've been thinking,
the 2 persons that i've been in the middle of,
are 2 of my close friends.
who happens to be having problems of the heart with each other.

then, i was thinking.
oh love.

haiz. i dunno larh eh.
to me, it's just difficult to give my heart to anybody at the moment.
and when i think of people fighting for love,
i try as best to support but at the same time,
if i was in their shoes, i'd prolly forget about it and move on.
and maybe that was why i lost him.

maybe, i've come back to my secondary school mindset.
buat per nak ade mataer2, bukannye nak kahwen ngan orang tu per.
yeah maybe true.
i'm only going 20
i've so much more to accomplish in my life.
like, how i need to finish poly and get diploma.
and work, enjoy and travel.

and i actually don't know what i'm trying to prove here.

it's not that i do not believe in love.
yes, i do believe in it. but maybe not fully.

boyfriends?
hah. i don't know.
i guess it's not the right time for me to open up to a guy yet.
6 months single. gerek per.

maybe, it's about the C-word.
COMMITMENT.
something which i'm terrified of.
haiz.

but, i'm having strong feelings for arman. yes, absence makes the heart fonder.
haiz. i don't know larh.

aper cakaaaaap?

see larh.

SAGITTARIUSES! THEY ARE FOREVER CONTRADICTING THEMSELVES!

oh, and sorry atie pasal de private blog. =(
suddenly, i've got a heavy heart.
BENCI LARHHHHHH.
i think, i should just mind my own business from now onwards uh.

damn this uneasy feeling. wtf larrrhh

reminiscing.

when i was 16


when i was 17


17 years old with Shaffie (a friend). point is, look at MY HAIR! panjang giler kan!


18 years old with me then-ex-now-good-friend, Jayjay


first time clubbing at China Black with Sandy


one of ma favourite pictures.






and i miss this hairstyle. can i have my emo hair back pleaaaase?


i DEFINITELY miss this hairstyle.


oh. i guess you'd be wondering why the pictures.

i was going through my archives and then i went to look at my old photobucket accounts and i spotted a few pictures like these and made me miss my hairstyles in the past. and i NEED TO LOOK LIKE HOW I LOOK 3 YEARS AGO. damnit.


ok dah thats it. =)

busy weekend

ohh my weekend was such a long one.

well, it started out on friday when, i went for Amirza's birthday party at Tavern. It was so fun lah to see my uncles and aunts singing and laughing themselves crazy. Pictures, have been uploaded to my multiply.

http://diandeey.multiply.com/photos/album/5/Amirzas_Birthday_23.05.08

okay, on Saturday, had training in the morning. We were like pushed hard and tough during the training and some of us teared i guess. it was exhausting okay but, yeah.. you've got to feel some pain before you can feel the pleasure.

after that, me and some of the girls went to Sembawang Park coz i wanted to re-write my lyrics and we just wanna take a breather.

http://endangdk.multiply.com/photos/album/53/24th_may_-_lepakz_sembawang_pk

then on Sunday, started work at 8 am and ended work at 9.30PM. gosh. it was exhausting. but fun too i guess coz Certis Cisco had their family day at Sentosa and there were 7000 over people at Tanjong Beach and lots of cars.

So then, i came back from Harbourfront and then stayed on at Dolphin to jaga the entrance of the Tanjong Beach road. and abang Ranger tu, Khalil, he was so fun to talk to arh. a lot of sound effects ah bebual ngan dier. hahaha. and he was also the one who aided my wrist when it was torn during the incident last year.

uhm ok.. other than that, OH! OH!!!

Arman msged me on Saturday night while i was on the way home from Sembawang park. heh. =D happy giler can?

ok dah. =)

HAPPY BIRTHDAY!

BABY MONTEL IS ONE YEARS OLD TODAY!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SAYANG KUUU!

and best part, his parents are gonna have his party at a KARAOKE CLUB at Tavern(Environment Building). So off i go straight after school.

=)