stress

these few days, i've been so stressed up. like, eversince i've got the mail from the programme chair, i've been like, depressed eversince.

it's all because of my high absenteeism and not taking school seriously. okay. this was what she sent.

This is regarding your high absences, weak grades this semester which will affect your module selection for next year.

If you do not intend to continue your studies here, please download the withdrawal form from myrp, get your parents' signature and bring it to the One-Stop Centre.

geez. i've been depressed eversince. i've never been a poor student. neither am i an ace student. but all along, i've never repeated any modules, until now. or, withdraw from school or whatsoever. but of course, i'm not that stupid to go withdraw from school uh. haiz. i'm just gonna suffer for Academic Year 07/08.

and that would mean, lesser work. haiiiz.

i'm so blardy stressed up okay! and i havent even finish my PP yet. urgh i need a break from all these.

hmm. it's 2 days to the 2nd December. Maybe that's just one of the things which i've been looking for. Daddy asked me where i wanna go on the 2nd December. i don't know. anywhere which can give me a good break. probably gonna go malaysia.

haaiz... i just feel like crying now lah.. i havent been crying for such a long time. =(

and, not to mention, i'm having some heart problems. Farah once told me, "yes, moved on.. but you haven't gotten over it."

well, yes i've been caring so much for him these few months and when things go wrong, i just try to deny everything. that's just me isn't it? i'm just good at denying.

haiiz... i think i'm ready to open up to someone. maybe i want a relationship now. but if i do, what about my 2 favourite guys? i don't wanna leave them.. *sobs*

howhowhow?