these days

why didn't my heart race when he msged me?
usually, i'll be jumping for joy when he does.
but, the heart was being lazy and it didnt.

he asked me out for a movie.
but of course i couldn't coz i'll be out tutoring.

i know i miss him.
i was just thinking about him yesterday.

maybe, the attention has shifted to another.
i guess so.
or maybe, my head's filled with too many problems.
might be.
that i can't be bothered to react to anything.

haiz. i don't know anymore.

yesterday, was out with a new friend after training.
he's okay. slightly clingy.
my definition of someone clingy would be when he msges me everyday.
urgh. that part sucked.
but otherwise, he's okay.
good spoken english. 26. stable job. yeah go figure.

and then, we went to the interchange to go home.
he was taking 168 and me 187.
and the moment we reach to the stop, i was like,
OH MY GOD.
the ex was there.
it was blardy awkward.
so then i stayed right in front of my friend,
not wanting to right up the queue coz if i do,
i'll be right in front of the ex.

but eventually, i moved up.
and the ex, weirdly talked to me.
oh no, not talked. mumbled would be the word.
i couldnt hear what he was trying to say.
and it the end we ended up with a nvm.

so off they went to take the bus.

damn, it was awkward.

ouuhkay well, more pictures from Citra i suppose. Got it from Huda's blog.

i like having you by my side boy.
with you, i am myself.
with you, i feel secure.
u make me feel special.
a friend, that's who i am to you.
and i'm happy by just being that for nw.