sentosa

i wouldn't exactly say my life has been a bed of roses.
the ups and downs have been extreme.

the ntuc job, has been good.
no more balancing problems.
colleagues are okay now i guess.

but, the sentosa job.
really got me pissed off to the max.
that i went to the extreme of returning my nametag to them,
and saying, "i don't want to work anymore"

why quit?
maybe coz i was angry at everyone.
i couldn't handle the pressure.
and the expectations.

but i'm just feeling the hurt now.
especially when Dad said,

"at least kesiankan adik tu, baru ghairah2 nak start keje same dgn kakak. abeh kakak buat macam ni, sedikit sebyk, dier pun affected jugak."

read: at least pity your brother, he's excited to work with you and when you do this, he will also get affected.

that is the only thing that is making me think twice of coming back.
coz the brother was telling me to come back.
and so does everyone else.

but i don't know anymore.
i've had enough.
but then again, i pity the brother.
haiz. i'm totally clueless.

from this: 15-16 yrs old. Monorail times. 2004-2005





to this: 16-17 yrs old 2005-2006





to this: 17-18 yrs old 2006-2007








to this: 18-19 yrs old 2007-2008
















to this: 19-20 yrs old. 2008












and dis was the last 2 days.







and i'm tearing while typing all these. :(

and the saddest part is..



the brother. :(