judgements

i got so pissed off just now while watching M.A.T.

yet, again..
dad was mocking at me about Dikir.

takde future..
tak berfaedah..
pasal Dikir Barat pelajaran kemana..
orang2 Dikir Baratlah yang merosakkan..

with the background of Aken chanting,
dikir keparat..
dickhead barat..

i know it's weird to have this kind of feeling,
crying over this matter..
but it seems like, it's just sad coz parents always have the same mindset about it.

buang masa je lah kau join dikir barat!

it's just un-understandble.

it's not fair.
he has never been supportive of me being in dikir.

why can't he treat it the same way he treats Shafiq being in NCC?
ohh i forgot.. masuk NCC ade future.

when Wawan was in silat, he supported too.

likewise Aken in soccer.

but when it comes to me,
he would never wanna take notice.
he would never wanna hear anything about Dikir.

and this coming from the person who said..

"kalau nak bebual dgn ayah pasal seni, secawan kopi pun tak cukup."

so much for that!

everytime i wanna share with him about Dikir,
it will definitely fall to deaf ears.

terkutuk sangat ke Dikir ni?

i teared while watching the show.
while wanting to hear what Ayu wanted to say,
and having to hear what Dad said.

grr. i wonder till when, i have to bear with this.

manusia itu tidak sempurna. mesti ada cacat-celanya.
siapa lah kita untuk menjadi hakim kepada manusia lain,
sedangkan, kita sendiri tidak sempurna?