yesterday.

when one is bored in class, one blogs.
when one has too many things to tell, one blogs.
when.. there's so many things happening at the same time, one blogs.

ok i think we all get the picture.

yesterday, i was so semangat lah. i woke up at 5.45 am hoping to reach class in time. but then, of course, Atie was late. Then, so i msged her this,

"Atie, aku mcm nak makan macgriddles."

and.. HAHAHA.

she said something like today she got lab and den if wanna skip, must skip the whole day coz she had lab class yesterday and if she skipped first meeting she'll be lost.

ade link tak?

so then, yes, i bought my macgriddles, and yes, we caboted and went to Sentosa coz i wanted to write lyrics for comp.

and we saw Ashik as soon as we reached harbourfront. haha. and he said, "korg ni pagi2 dah kacau aku.." haha.

so anyways, we went to the Southernmost Point, my most favourite place in Sentosa. and we just chilled facing the sea and we saw this.



so you think it's all rocks? look again.



there's a monitor lizard.

and so, out of fear, we walked towards the hut and just sat down there for hours. Atie went to walk around while i was writing my lyrics. then it drizzled. and then it rained. and, it stormed.





and i had to put down the phone with Zoul coz absolutely inaudible. The wind was freakingly gusty. And soon enough the whole place got wet. So, to save ourselves, we decided to make a run for it, sheltering our heads with these things.


a labcoat and a shawl.

so atie led the way. haha. look how heavy the rain was.



so we reached to the tower, soaking wet.





haha. the whole place was like, a getaway temptation island thing. it was cool la. so anyways, i got restless staying for too long there and so, we made the run again.

which ended like this..



we were freakingly wet with no extra clothes. danggg.

and then went to washup at my offices' toilet and borrowed Ahmod's toiletries. and you know what, after we washed up, the weather was dammmn blooody hot and bright. ouhh geez.

so we went out and did this..





we just lay our stuff there to dry while i waited for Abang Omar. So yes, i managed to get him to send us back to RP coz he stays in Woodlands as well. But yeah, he will only end work at 4. So, that gave me and atie time to go around.

in the blue line..







went down at Siloso Point, hoping to see Abang Shangri-La yang hansem tu but he wasnt there. And then we took Pinky the double decker.





so then, while waiting for Abang Omar, saw Uncle Zul. Haha. asked him for some sticks. gerek per uncle ni mcm. huhu.

so then, yea lah. tumpang-ed Abang Omar back to RP and had training till 9pm. Yesterday was like the first time a lot of Endangduts cabot-ed class but not together lah. and yesterday, most of us.. haiz. nevermind.

i love them.

exhaustion

IDEAS.

i need ideas badly.
but..
SLEEPY and HUNGRY.
hahaha.

i've concluded that i have a very busy schedule this month and the next.

Tertiary Silat Competition: Gelanggang Crew.
Layar Citra 2008 Dikir Competition
Yellow Ribbon Project Show

on top of that,
job @ Sentosa
new job as tutor

plus
family's need of going to holiday on top of a busy schedule.

and plus again,
FYP and PP

and plus plus again,
endless trainings.

ohhh great. no life sia.
and it's very exhausting.
urgh.

MACAM MANER NIE?
REALLY WRITER'S BLOCK.
WHAT THE HELLLL.

boost!

i'm in love with CADBURY BOOST.
so in love and addicted.

howells, today, had fyp at 10.
so early in the morning sehk.
yesterday slept late to do work.
been freakingly tired these few days.
so many events.

so i would be in school till 9pm today.
mcm giler kan.
on a WEDNESDAY!
shucks.

i'm supposed to write some lyrics.
and i tried,
ABEH WRITER'S BLOCK.
what the heckkk.
i'll try to continue at night uh.

and you know, sometimes i think.
i should just remain single.
makes me and my parents happy.
and we have good communication when i'm single.

thanks jay and jayjay (jumali) for listening out to me.
=D

oh and dis morning, i walked past this short fat 30plus-ish guy.
and he looked at my boobs!
what the fuck.
and he commented.
"koosmangat!"

cheebye larh!

binget saks.

oh what the hell la.

cant wait for training later! huhu!

Your Heart is Feeling Broken

Your heart is pretty much destroyed right now, and it's hard for you to think of anything else. You are in deep despair, and sometimes it feels like you will never love again. Your hear may be at its lowest point right now. Things can only get better from here. Deep down, your heart is susceptible to: Being swept away by the wrong person Your current outlook on love: You find yourself wondering if love is ever worth it Your love life will improve if you: Take a lot of steps back. You're in no shape to fall in love right now. Watch out for: Anyone who may try to take advantage of your fragile state.

What Is Your Heart Feeling?

oh the food haven's radio in school is playing that knock 3 times song.
the song that abah played time the launch of the peranakan museum.

ok dah. ku diam.

damn it big time.

i know it's gonna end up like this.
shit lah.
i dunno what i want anymore.
contemplating huh..

merepek lah dee.
i'm just so pissed off with myself.
i know i shouldnt.
but i still did it.
and now, i'm regretting it.

ARRRRGGGGHHH.
DAMN IT.
DAMN IT.
DAMN IT!

haiz. i need time alone.

and i miss mama and abah sey. =(

THURSDAY

ohh life is such a whirlwind these few days.

i havent been to class for a week already. and i feel so bad about about it.
Monday cabut
Tuesday overslept
Thursday, cabut
Friday slept at home.

urgh.

so anyways, the Thursday i cabut-ed. Called Atie and asked her if she wanna go in for 2nd meeting since we're late, might as well be late. So, yeah.. Waited for her at CWP Mac and then we had McGriddles.



Look at the packets of sugar we took. KENCING MANIS! haha



Atie, does not like the sausage. So i made her trade the sausage for the egg with me. Haha.. So it turned out to be like this..

Before.



After



haha.

then, my chilli sauce plate stuck together - TWICE, while i cecah my burger onto it.



haha. it was so funny la. and me and Atie talked like a lot. since its been a long time since we hung out together eventhough ade trg. Pity Jay wasnt there.

So we decided to go to the library. But i had to go Watson to my pressed powder. Huhu and this was what we left..



Litters neatly in place. Haha. A lot too.

Then at the library. Sheesh, if the librarian was strict, she'd prolly throw us out. We were so noisy lah. Haha. Who wouldnt be, when you do silly things like chatting when u're just separated by a pillar and WEBCAMMING away..








Atie the Minah Tudung.


Atie the Rocker


Atie the Emoshit.

Then i was lookin at this profile on my multiply.
Songsang lah okay! Satanism stuff.

and i said.. "Bile budak nie nak pergi ke hujung pangkal?"

Haha. den Atie burst and said,
"BILE NAK PERGI PANGKAL JALAN LAAAAHHH"

=) *malulah saye*

Then after that JAY joined us. Slack2. And then we went to watch CONGKAK!



Seram lahhh oi. Tsktsk. Sound effect ISHHHHK.. Happening. The storyline also seram uh. A must watch i say.

Then after that, we went to eat School's Haven. Then i went for UT and met them back for trg.



and yes, after training that wrapped up the day.

oh yesterday was MCG Welcome Tea Party. Another day yeh? Dah cukup panjang seh post ni.

short.

i planned to blog.

but i ended up deleting over 300++ contacts in my msn.

and now, it's 2.50am.

and i'm sleepy.

next time.

night.

weird.

somebody landed on my blog after searching for my ex's full name.
hah. how weird.

i havent been to school these 2 days.
network security and banking.
the 2 worst modules ever.

so yesterday,
firstly, i couldnt find my ezlink in the morning.
got fed up then i just left home and at Lakeside, it was freakingly crowded than usual.
squeezed in the train like i've never done before.
so then decided not to go to school.

went to Mac, had McGriddles.
Then decided to go to the library and slack.
and the library wasnt due open till 10 am.
which was an hour later.
so i sat at Civic's Mac. bluetooth some pics to the laptop.
and decided, to go to Sentosa to do my PP.

ok so went to Woodlands Interchange for 963.
then the worst thing happened.
i couldnt find my handphone.
and i thought i left it at Mac.
So i went back to Civic.

and when i reached Civic, i realised,
i didnt buy anything. so, the table was empty.
so i looked thoroughly in my bag.
and yeah, it was there.

so yes, i went back to the interchange.
queued up.
and 963 came.
i was thinking how come the queue wasnt moving?
so then, i looked again.
i was queue for 161.
BLEARGH.

reached Sentosa.
and it rained on me.
GREAT!

WHAT A MONDAY AYE?

today,
actually... the plan was to go in during 2nd meeting.
but overslept till Bas called me at 10.30. haha
finee.

so anyways,
work tmr.

oh oh. i tried the webbie that atie recommended.
kekekness.























kelakar sey.

ok, i'm done.

MY LONG WEEKEND.

i've had a long weekend.

on Friday after school, walked to CWP with Atie. Bought her hp cover then went to the front of Popular to wait for my aunt. Then Atie went back and i had early dinner with my aunt and i had this.




Laksa at Banquet CWP. Yeah well.. Makanan kenangan lah katerkan. Somehow, it doesn't taste as nice as before. Hmmm.
Ok, no further comment.

at home that night,
my dad was working night shift. so there were my mum, and my 3 brothers.
and my mom!
she made dominoes with rubbers! well.








That's SR. Sharifah (mom) and Rusli (dad).

So the next day,

went to Persisi at Bedok with these loves and a few year ones.

i think we stayed there for hours and hours. ok i do not want to elaborate.

went home, and went out again with the parents and Shafiq at 11 plus to celebrate an early mommy's day. went to Al-Ameen at Bukit Timah.










the disgusting sup ekor. yucks.



oh then went home at 1 plus.

Woke up at 10.30am. Siap2 and went to Jemputan orang kahwin at Geylang Bahru.
After that, went home.
Changed.
Went for a family photoshoot.
looked like this.




went home again.
changed again.
went to Ikea, Giant Tamp.




and then we went to Serangoon and OMG it was flooded and i mean, FLOOOOOODDEEEEED with Banglas.
still, we went to eat at Komalas Villas.



MINE.







and after that we went..

HOME!

funniest things happened.

i don't find smoking a necessity for me now.
maybe, just a bad habit.

yesterday scared me.
breathless, like literally.
i wanted to cry so bad.
but then, i just tried to hold on.

hmm. abang arman msged me this morning.
the typical, good morning have a nice day kinda msg.
instantly, a wide grin on my face. =D

he just said,
"good morning you, make today a meaningful dat ya - have a good one!"

so, i tried to make the best of that message and tried not to be grumpy.
and the funniest things happened today.

firstly at lakeside,
saw this girl from my secondary school. my senior actually.
who happens to stay in the same block as i am.
high nosed now.
but she wasnt really known in secondary school.
the invisible girl i would say.

and just now,
i saw her.
pregnant.
oh. okay. instantaneous reaction.

after graduation, she'd always like to make herself look better than i am.
competitive? i guess..
on who is more fashionable and trendy.
but, heck. do i care?
if i'm not in the mood i'd probably slip into an oversized shirt and pants.

but, yea, not that i'm saying serve her right though.
well.. i dunno how to put it. go figure.

secondly,
saw Zul as in Almi's boyfriend in the train.

thirdly,
saw this awfully dressed girl.
dunno whether it was a China girl or not.
white loose round neck t-shirt. guy's shirt.
RED BAGGY PANTS.
oh my god.
wad was she thinking?!
auditioning for the next Poland flag?

fourthly,
i think this guy whom i saw, was a Chinaguy.
who happens to be a tourist in RP.
at the entrance of the school, this guy was wearing:
a SUNHAT, 3/4 pants, long socks, shoes and those Hawaiian shirt and, PINK shades.

wrong place i think.
Maybe he mistook North for South.
Wanted to go to Sentosa but ended up in Woodlands.
and thought maybe,
wanna go for a swim at the sports complex.

HUHU.

and and and!!

i think the counter girl at the rp Koufu is pekak (deaf).

the other day i said i wanted teh o packet.
she gave me teh with the cup and saucer.
den i said, packet.
she gave me a milo on the go.

nevermind.

today,
i said coffee packet.
"KOPI PENG!"

WTF. she's got some serious digging to do.

oh well, that's all i guess.

beef burger anybody?

training.

maybe i was just being the popular one there.
notoriously popular maybe.

my name was called like.. a lot of times.

"dee. tangan kasi straight" (first time)

dah straight.

"dee. tangan kasi straight" (second time)

i was like. wth. my hand's are already long enough and when they're straight, they're such a hindrance. ishhk. fine.

"ok start tepuk 10 balek. orang kat belakang (me) kononnya nak kecoh tapi terlepas"

WHAT THE FOOK!

fine. point my every little mistakes yeh.
once or twice, it's ok. but geez. thanks ah eh.
i dunno what you're up to, pal.
but it sure is irritating.

oh suit yourself.

ohh great. the guy i talked about in the earlier post pun budak clap2.
harapan per.

chey. deytu.. my ex's friend.
wth. that guy. sheesh!

arghh.
suddenly.. mcm i have a lot of things to do.

fyp: finish up use case specifications, start on database and codings.
pp: report first draft and poster by 29 JUNE.
Network Infrastructure UT tmr!

ohmygoodness.

oh i was going through my archives. i actually have a flickr account.
haha. the chickatakuhiro was me and jayjay. wakakaka. kenangan beb!

2006 i think. zaman kekentalans when i was stil 17 going 18. huhu.

okdah. hahaha

thoughts

rp network is being an effing bitch today.

can't log in to msn. e-buddy lah duh
LAG.
DAMN SLOW LAAAAHH.

it's been like a month to school and it's not getting any better.
hah. at least be thankful that its not really getting worse.

i was totally bored in class.
went anak-melayu-ing and alamak-ing.

and it bored me more.
dis guy was asking me this lame qn.

guy: dah brape lame single?
me: abt 6 months.
guy: tak carik?
me: malas.
guy: kalau i nak letak application form boleh?

what the fook. u just know me for ONE bloody day and u said that?

desperate i think.

had the usual talk with Jay.
maybe i'm just too picky.
takboleh ni, takboleh tu

maybe, just maybe, i want someone like him.
but, just a little more mature.

someone smart. who can always prove me wrong.
not mushy. definitely.
someone, who doesnt make me look down on them.

oh well.
when he comes, he comes.
i'm just too lazy to search.

but it does hurt to see couples here and there.

i don't know anymore.

being single is fun and everything.
maybe just.. the attention.

tsssk.

howells.. just stop dwelling and look forward to the future.

speaking of which.
i have a VERY VERY BUSY month of May and June.

whats new?

randoms.

i was out with my mum and brothers when i saw one of my close friend who happens to be one of my dad's NSman.



yeaa. faiz! and he's no longer a faggot. he looks, guyish and yeah.. cute.

uhh well, i don't really have a story to tell these few days. well, nothing much has been happening actually. to school, to trainings and back. uh, ya practically that's about it.

oh but, this morning, i went for this ce activity organised by DBA and it was a trip to the COCA-COLA FACTORY!

oh and i tell you.. it was sooo cool. Cocacola vintage and all. but, i didnt take any pictures coz we weren't really allowed and my cam wasnt that good. haha.

haha. ok done.

wanna watch atas heights and ogle over didicazli and yg nina halim nye adek whom i dunno his name but i know he's cute.

anger issues

i took out like loads of names under my link coz i realize it's freaking long and then again, i don't read some of em.

so, those who are in my list now are often read and they're friends.

just random i guess.. out of sheer anger and pissedoffvity (pissed off la). i was on my way home from somewhere the other day and i was in the train, and this Indian national, was being such a bloody pain in the ass.



she's not the first one that i've spotted. but anyhow, IT'S FUCKINGLY INCONSIDERATE. The pole is for you to hold and not to hug and lean your whole body onto it. Ass. When you do that, you bloodily refrain others from holding just because your smelly body is leaning on it. fuck.

oh enough about that.

i hate my classmates for today. they're like, damn cheeenas. well, anihoos, my facilitator was quite understanding about my slowness in class and he just said to revise more.

i'd trade this class for my Network Infrastructure anytime. At least, they're fun.

anger issues.

uhm. endang juniors, just, buck up.

the end.

nek rock.

i dunno why every time i wanna type nek rock, slalu tertype neck rok. ahaha. cute or whatt.

ok well, just came back from Bussorah Street (Booo-Sore-Raaah and not Boostraw eh Ain). Had a dikir show with Endang. and huhu.. i guess the show was pretty different. haha.

for the 2nd time, i was the 2nd karut.
for the 1st time, me and Naj did Yengki and Kelantan spontan.
for the 2nd time, we did Patani spontan.
for the 1st time, i played a Jawa-Nenek character (hence the name Nek Rock).

haha. firsts and seconds.

but then, haha. kekeknesslaa.

"naek bah, trn intercheng, naik BOHT,"
"alaa. yang bende keras2 panjang2 tuuu. aper tuu. kapal menerbang"

hahaha. tsk2.

PLEASE SEND PICS TO ME ENDANGDUTS!

NEK ROCK SEMPAT POSE TIME TRG BEFORE SHOW. HEH

for awhile there, i saw his perangai sial.
perasaan bertukar menjadi benci. adakah ini orang yang aku sayang selama ni? somehow.. it made me think of the same reaction he did to me then.
ohh fuck it. this is not the type of guy i want.
letting go. again and again.

after show, went to lepak at Starbucks Bugis Junction with Yayan and Atie while waiting for Ain Ifah and Huda.

and HE msged. my mr hotness abang arman. huhu! he just said, "hey sexy.."

and it made my night.

and that is all. oohh. and anyway, i edited a pic of me and him when i was bored in class. and i like it like ooooh so much!

even though mcm it reads. man and dee. i kinda like to pronounce it as mandy. hahaha.

and that is all. good night.

tiredness

I'M TIRED.
I'M EXHAUSTED.
OVEREXHAUSTION.
READ: FREAKINGLY TIRED.

haiz. i need some sleep and rest.

damnit

i shouldnt have written that post. damnit.

and now, padan muke aku, for having the feelings for him again.

i dreamt of him ytd. fuck.

damnit.