sentosa

i wouldn't exactly say my life has been a bed of roses.
the ups and downs have been extreme.

the ntuc job, has been good.
no more balancing problems.
colleagues are okay now i guess.

but, the sentosa job.
really got me pissed off to the max.
that i went to the extreme of returning my nametag to them,
and saying, "i don't want to work anymore"

why quit?
maybe coz i was angry at everyone.
i couldn't handle the pressure.
and the expectations.

but i'm just feeling the hurt now.
especially when Dad said,

"at least kesiankan adik tu, baru ghairah2 nak start keje same dgn kakak. abeh kakak buat macam ni, sedikit sebyk, dier pun affected jugak."

read: at least pity your brother, he's excited to work with you and when you do this, he will also get affected.

that is the only thing that is making me think twice of coming back.
coz the brother was telling me to come back.
and so does everyone else.

but i don't know anymore.
i've had enough.
but then again, i pity the brother.
haiz. i'm totally clueless.

from this: 15-16 yrs old. Monorail times. 2004-2005





to this: 16-17 yrs old 2005-2006





to this: 17-18 yrs old 2006-2007








to this: 18-19 yrs old 2007-2008
















to this: 19-20 yrs old. 2008












and dis was the last 2 days.







and i'm tearing while typing all these. :(

and the saddest part is..



the brother. :(

haaaiz

haiz. he is such an utter disappointment.
i thought he would be someone, nice.
ended up being a jerk.
howells..
don't just a book by it's cover i guess.

and finally Irfan proved me wrong.

met up with the CDM crews.
Zoul, Adi, Hairil, Arip, Osman, Hamid, Sham and Kholique
and there was Yayan and ME.

and i got hugs from Zoul and Adi.
Best sey dapat hug.
tuari get hugs from Endangs.
nw from Cucus.
i feel so lucky.. =))

ive had the best weekend.
friday met ma Endangs.
saturday with family
sunday with sentosa peeps and Cucus.

and i laughed a lot today. =)

though i wish i had enuff time to spend with Weiling too.
promised her that we'd go back together but again, blew her off,
coz i tot Zoul wanted to talk about Reflections.
BAAAH.

but its ok. i'll make up for it next week.
hopefully.

haiz, schedule for next week is tight.

Monday: Income
Tuesday: Income
Wednesday: Income
Thursday: Sentosa
Friday: Sentosa
Saturday: Income den Reflections
Sunday: Sentosa

Mati OH.

haiz. i'm shagged.

my days.

that was last week.
they were trying to teach mom to blade but it was almost impossible. haha.
ouh, forgot to mention dat the family has changed the family hobby.
it used to be squash, now its blading and cycling.



the day i bit the Shafiq's finger and it ended up like that.

yesterday went back to RP.
and it was supeeeeer nice to meet the Endangs again.
and Ain teared while hugging me,
making me wanna tear too.

after that, went to eat and lepaked at titanic.



i miss them so much!
AND I MISS JAAAAAAAY! =(

and today, belanje-ed the kids to kfc.



and at night, went to ecp
and blade again! =)
i loike..







AND THATS IT!

IMISSYOUSOMUCHLOVE!

the exact sentiments.

"how's your second day?"

"fine"

"were people nice?"

"no"

"did you make any friends?"

"yeah"

an excerpt from Mean Girls.

AAAAAAAH!

pics from halloween.
they don't look halloween-ish at all.

oh oh! KNOW WHAT?

MY PARENTS BOUGHT ME AN EXTRA ADVANCED BIRTHDAY PRESENT!
and of course, it's the..



BLACK 4GB CREATIVE ZEN MOSAIC!!

ouh maaan!
i was just telling my mom dat i wanted to get it on my payday.
and she told dad and dey got me one.
though of course, i wanted pink.
but, its okay.

I GOT A 4GB CREATIVE ZEN MOSAIC!

and that would of course be the same as Abg Hafiz one lah.
alah, i don't care.
hee.

first day of work at Jurong Branch was okay i guess.
and again i had trouble balancing, which is so irritating.
it's always the cash lah can.
fed up siar.

urgh. hope tmr will be a better day.

other than that,
well.. nothing much to update on. =))

halloween.

sorry for the lack of updates.
i have been too unwell and occupied to actually bother.

anyway, i wanna wish my good friend,
MUHAMMAD HILMI BIN ROSLAN,
whose bday was yesterday,

A HAPPY 19TH BIRTHDAY!!

hee. wish you all the best in life, bro.

apart from that,
last friday was my last day at Main Servicing (Bras Basah).
Met Kak Diana after a long day's work and we went to shop for Abg Hafiz's bday present.
and she got him this suuuuuper nice creative mosaic.
I AM SO GONNA GET ONE FOR MYSELF SOON.



its uber pretttyyyy!
i wanna get the pink one. =)

ohkay anyways,
so, then she bought for herself a desktop webcam.
and off we went to find another present for her friend,
and we settled down at KFC for supper.

PLUS, since it was Halloween night,
we decided to stay up late.
and i wanted to see what nightlife is about.

so, we went to Esplanade,
walked to Clarke Quay and den to Riverside point.

OH MY GOODNESS.
it was whaaaack lah kan.
but seeing so many ppl wearing the devil's horn was irritating coz they all looked the same.
hahaha.

and saw Jas and Ainul there as well.

hee. i dun have pictures coz Kak Diana havent send them yet.
when i do, i'll post em. =)

and then, i reached home at 2 am.

and, have been sick ever since.
flu and cough like heck lar.
URGH.

and that's it.

and he did it yet again.
precisely the reason why i don't hope.
coz i'll get myself disappointed.
and since i didn't hope for it to happen,
i'm not affected much each time dis happens.
so moral of the story is,
DON'T EVER HOPE.

coz hoping is hopeless.