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gosh. every single thing requires a lot of energy.
and i'm lacking of it.
even sitting down using the PC is tiring.

i have to keep lying down.
and that is tiring too.

now its Day 3 of my MC.
fever's gone. thats good.
cough and flu's still around.
and not to mention the heavy phlegm in the chest.
its tiring man.

its been a long time since i fell sick.
hurhur.
i'll be gone nw.

PRP 09

and PRP Saringan is over and done with.
so in the morning..





and then started make up and hair, and i became this!






and did one whole set through.
and off to KCC.






on the way, the bf called saying he performed already.
graaaah. i wanted to hear/watch lah.
geez. but anyway, reached KCC,
nampaak AAAAAAIN. ahahaha.
den of course nmpk bf.

i was like so scarded the whole time.
but on stage, just did my best.
and it paid off!

ENDANG IS THROUGH TO THE FINALS!!
WHEEEE. =)

and the rest of the pics...








tapi...
training lagi... :(

scareded.

fancy changing my blogskin the day before the competition,
on the day that i'm supposed to sleep early.
hahaha.

nervous, as one would say.

i need sleep man.
i seriously doooo.

stuff

just trying hard to be strong.

i can face all these.

i can face all the busy-ness in my life.
i can face my hectic schedule.
i can do without proper meals.
i can do running around to attend to different trainings.
i can do with coming home late and waking up early for work.

but there are just some things which i cannot do.
it just hurts at the end of the day
but i can do nothing else but to keep it to myself,
and be strong about it.

it's for the best i guess,
even though it hurts.

i'm gone.
for now.

who are you?

RIP MJ.

Watching Michael Jackson's Memorial.
It's just so sad.



Another day has gone
I'm still all alone
How could this be
You're not here with me
You never said goodbye
Someone tell me why
Did you have to go
And leave my world so cold

Everyday I sit and ask myself
How did love slip away
Something whispers in my ear and says
That you are not alone
For I am here with you
Though you're far away
I am here to stay

But you are not alone
For I am here with you
Though we're far apart
You're always in my heart
But you are not alone

'Lone, 'lone
Why, 'lone

Just the other night
I thought I heard you cry
Asking me to come
And hold you in my arms
I can hear your prayers
Your burdens I will bear
But first I need your hand
Then forever can begin

Everyday I sit and ask myself
How did love slip away
Something whispers in my ear and says
That you are not alone
For I am here with you
Though you're far away
I am here to stay

For you are not alone
For I am here with you
Though we're far apart
You're always in my heart
For you are not alone

Whisper three words and I'll come runnin'
And girl you know that I'll be there
I'll be there

You are not alone
For I am here with you
Though you're far away
I am here to stay
For you are not alone
For I am here with you
Though we're far apart
You're always in my heart

For you are not alone
For I am here with you
Though you're far away
I am here to stay

For you are not alone
For I am here with you
Though we're far apart
You're always in my heart

For you are not alone...

i was shocked with his passing,
a bit unbelievable, really.

but then, after watching the memorial,
i guess i'm feeling what a lot others are feeling.

and especially when his daughter spoke,
gosh, it really made me teared laaaa.
and i loved what the Reverend said..

"There is nothing strange about your daddy. What was strange was what your daddy had to deal with"

gosssh. so sad.

i remembered when i was much younger.
kindergarten? primary 1 or 2?
i put on the CD on the CD Player..

and my most favourite song on that CD was,



it touched me a lot.
and then, it was Black and White.

and then, i didnt really keep track of his songs.
but i heard of what wonderful things he did.
and when the allegations of child molestation came in,
i didnt believe any of it.

coz i believed,
he loves children so much.
i doubt he would ever do that.

and when he passed away,
when they revealed all those videos about him,

it made me think what an extraordinary figure he was.
he started at a young age.
and he grew up, touching a lot of peopele's hearts.

Rest In Peace Michael Jackson.
King of Pop.

:(

ily.

here comes the 6th of July.

lesser meet ups.
lesser adventures.
lesser everything.

bb♥ will be starting school today.
2 years of school.
and he's school is blardy strict.
8-6 every single day.
8-1 on saturdays.

like office hours lah can.

but it's okay.
it's for his future too.
and prolly, maybe our future.

and padan muka aku.
lol.
lemak kan ade boyfriend yang selalu free untuk aku.
now, he'll be busy with school and wont have much time for me.
so, i have to understand that.

it's okay.
i'll work my ass off.
plus, i'm gonna go trainings.
and then, i'm gonna go back to school myself.

it'll do just fine.
:)

hopefully.
i'll try my best.

we'll get through this baby.
ily

loving you.

"how much do you love me?"

i love you a lot.
i love you so much.
i love you too much.
i love you so much more than i love myself.

i don't even know where to start.

you've been very patiently tolerating me.
you've been my upmost motivator.
you've been my guidance.
you've been my happiness.

gosh baby, i love you so much that i'm tearing doing this.
i'm going to do whatever it takes to make this work for us.
coz i really want you to be the last.

you may piss the hell out of me.
and then i'll irritate you like no tmr.
we argue.
we debate.
we get angry at each other.

but that's the best part about it.
i don't want someone better.
i just want you.
you.you.you.

and at the end of the day,
i still love you the same baby.



iloveyousomuchbaby.



i've dreamed of someone like you my whole life.
mytreasure.mysoul.
ily.

rindu atieeee

gua rindu sama ini budak banyak2.



Nurul Atikah Bte Sari!!
Aku rindu kau giler babi. :)
hehhehh.

please get better soon okay.
:)

love ya gf!

stubbornly sweet.

my boyfriend is sweet, even though he's stubborn.
ahaha.

we went to AMK Hub,
went to meet Nana,
and then to X-Zone.

and you know this machine,
the X-Scoop, where you scoop all the sweets?
yeah that one.
he changed $10 first.
okay nevermind.
he changed another $10.

$20 for sweets can you imagine how pissed i was?
waste of money!

den, i thought he'd stop at $20.
nooo, he didnot.
he went to change another $10.

i was so pissed.

den, this uncle came, and lighten the situation.
made him get lots of sweets, and trigger the checker thingy,

and, HE HIT JACKPOT!
:)

and i got this.



it's an Elvis Stitch. :)
and not forgetting the sweets.




and it all cost around $38?
yeah i guess.
haiz.. bb.. bb.
the things you do sometimes..
haha.

so after that, we went to Little India.
coz i soo badly want to eat Nasi Briyani Masala Chicken.
and i got it!



and then, haha.
aku gatal.
went for eyebrow threading for the first time!
and i kinda like my eyebrow. :)

after that, walked around, and then home.

at home:






and that's the end of today. :)
thankyoubaby.
iloveyou.

love.

have you ever had that kinda feeling,
where you miss your special one so much,
but its funny,
he's right there just beside you..

you've spent your whole day with him,
and you go back home,
you still miss him so bloody much.

i'm feeling it now,
and it's a damn weird feeling.

iloveyousomuchbaby.

a week's in.

this week, was kinda slacky.
so i was out the whole time.

monday - training.
tuesday - training + jb

training pics:






wednesday - out with cousie







monday tuesday wednesday off ehh.

thursday back to work.
then, went to send bro off to Swissotel for some AYG thing.

friday work, finished at 5.
met bb and yaty at Heartland Mall.
shop2 and bought this freaking nice dress with yaty,



it's a halter neck uh.

after that, yaty went home while waiting for her fiance Akie,
and me and bb waited at his void deck.
yaty came and then we went to ECP to have supper.

we had seafood!
and these 2 were nice laaa.




chilli chut chut dier was soooo pedas.
i likeee~

but it was a bit weird coz Yaty and Akie were dressed up,
and me and bb were so kopet.
both of us in shorts and tee.
and muka ngantok.
haha.




and then they sent me home.
reached home close to 1 am.

i was late for work today.
hahaha.

after work, met bb again.
he's finally going back to training after so long,
so i accompanied.

the moment he popped his head in the room,
they were screaming at him laa..

"ehhh taaaaaaaam!"

haha
it was so funny, den he got beaten up.
lol.

so watched them train, from 5 plus to 6 plus.
it wasnt that awkward since i knew yassar, and jamal.
then nearing 7, went out for a puff,
hahaha, and bb and boy decided to buy durian.

2 of it.

and in the end, only me bb yassar and boy ate the durian.
the best part was where we ate it.
at the side of the road in front of the cc.
haha. and stop calling me Nini laaa!

then had fun while they jam dondang stuff.
zapin, joget sume kluar.
best~!

den had to go off coz the fam was waiting.
so bb sent me down, met the fam.
and funnier..

bb said to Dad, coz he wanna salam..

"pakcik.."

Dad, was doing something, didnt notice he was there..
Dad said,

"kunci kat depan.."

hahaha.
kelakar.

den we went off to buy food at Changi.
and to eat.





and here i am.
gosh.. what a day.

tmr, still need to go out for cousin's birthday.
gosssssh.
penat siol.

tsktsk.

iloveyoubaby.

boreddd

bb's away to malacca for 5 days.
baaaah.

2 meanings:
early nights.
lonely nights.

haiz..

girlfriends! let's go out!
ahaha

think uh.

i dunno what you're trying to prove when you said that.

it's not that we wanna jaga your tepi kain,
but it's because we're older, we know.

i may not be close to you,
and whatever your business is,
i don't fucking care.

but what i fucking care,
is that you're being fucking rude.

just what the heck are you trying to prove?
that you're smarter?
is it?
and smart people can be rude to people who are less smarter?

bodoh. is it?
can't you just say nicely that it's a virus?
now, what is your problem?

see, the person you said that to, was ur UNCLE.
UNCLE is blood related.
UNCLE is relative.
UNCLE is family.

so much for being family huh.

stuff.

too many things happening.
whirldwind.
will update again if i feel like it.

anw, pics from 3rd monthsary.









hmm, and i suddenly miss him so much.

anw, i'll just do this survey thing that cuzzie tagged me to do.

1: Besides Your Lips,Where Is Your Favourite Spot To Get Kiss?
~ no particular favourite.. i love em all. :)

2: How Do You Feel When You Wake Up This Morning?
~ horrible. coz i still felt sleepy and tired.

3: Who Was The Last Person You Took Photo With?
~ kak diana.

4: Would You Consider Youself To Be Spoiled?
~ ahh. i would think so.

.5: Would You Ever Donate Blood?
~ nah, i'm not allowed to even if i wanted to.

6: Have You Had A Bestfriend Who Was The Opposite Sex?
~ yeaah. quite a lot actually.

7: Do You Want Someone Dead?
~ nono. death is not a solution.

8: What Does Your Last Msg Says?
~ too long ah.

9: What Are You Thinking Right Now?
~ what is he doing now?

10: Do You Wish Someone To Be With You Right Now?
~ of course.

11: What Is The Tyme You Went To Bed Last Night?
~ 4 am.

12: Where Did You Buy The T-Shirt You Are Wearing Now?
~ got it free from RP

13: Is Someone On Your Mind?
~ YES.

14: Who Was The Last Person Who Texted You?
~ bblove.

15: Tag 8 Random People To Do This Survey.
~ jay
~ atie
~ fadzlee
~ shafiq
~ aky
~ linda
~ jujul
~ naj

16: Who Is No.2 Having Relationship With?
~ hahaha. she's with abang adiii. lol.

17: Is No.3 A Male Or Female?
~ male lah. but i'd like to think him as a shemale. wakakaka. peace!

18: Is No.4 Single?
~ hmm. i dont think so

19: Say Something About No.1.
~ diam diam lepu! hahaha. but one of my favourite girls around.. :)

20: Describe No.8.
~ haha KARUT ENDANG!

okay dats it. :)