FUCK!!

first major quarrel in 4 months.

fuck men and their ego. it suddenly made them someone else. a person u never knew.
a person once so gentle yet loving, turned to someone so hostile and defensive.

i'm just disappointed at the words that were being hurled to each other.

and it hurts to see that fuck over there okay. y do u think i keep asking u abt the fuck?

and this quarrel is pointless. no matter how many times we argue, THINGS WILL NEVER FUCKING CHANGE!

and dun insult them pls. as much as they cause a lot of problems to this relationship, dey are still MY PARENTS. u dun see me insulting ur parents. even if u dun like them, at least respect them as elders. dun hide ur true self to me. coz it seems that u're not the same person i knew 4 mths ago.

fuck this blardy life.

i'm not pretty.
i'm not as stylish as u think.
i'm not that smart.
i'm not vogue.
i dun haf understanding parents.
i dun haf beautiful figures or face.
sometimes, i may never haf time for my loved ones coz of my schedule.

but i am me.
i'm not perfect.
i'm just another human being.
i'm just a girl.

why cant u all just fucking understand that?
DROP ALL UR BLARDY EXPECTATIONS OFF ME!!

STOP TALKING TO ME TO FOCUS IN SCHOOL DAD!!
STOP TELLING ME THAT NOW IS NOT THE TIME FOR RELATIONSHIP!!

WHY CAN'T U FUCKING UNDERSTAND?!!!!!

WHAT WILL CHANGE UR MIND?!

just...

GIVE ME MY FUCKING SPACE!!
AND LET ME BE MYSELF. LET ME BE HAPPY FOR ONCE!!!
it's time that u realize that ur little girl has grown up.. and she needs to be on her own feet now. and she can be on her own.

WHY CANT U FUCKING UNDERSTANDD??!!!!

i feel so trapped.

FUCK! FUCK! FUCK!