think.

time check: 0420 hrs.

ahh yes. i'm still not asleep. not that i can't sleep. i think it sleepless nights always happen to me when my mind is clouded with things which i need to think about and things which i can't get off from my mind. thus, when my sleeping time has been altered, that means, i'll be suffering from humongous eyebags.

abang zaid expects an answer from me tomorrow. and, i only have a vague idea of the answer. he needs a definite answer. i'm gonna be screwed.

yes, he is trying to help me straighten out my thinking. it's just me who's been ignorant about it. that is so me. ignorant as always.

he asked me this.

"do you think you're prepared to be in a relationship? and, do you even think that you're prepared to fall in love?"

ohhh i hate it when someone knows me too well. coz they make me think of something which i don't ever wanna think.

he gave me 2 days to think about it. and it's due in less than 12 hours.

ahh well, he thinks that i'm in a state of denial. yesyes, i know i am. but it's for my own good. he says i'm being unfair to myself.

it's better that i be unfair to myself than i hurt myself.

okay, the whole thing came up because:

abang zaid thinks that i like shahid because he reminds me of amy. so, in actual fact, i don't really like shahid but i like amy. get the picture? pls try to get it coz it's hard for me to explain.

damn it.

i hate it when someone gives me a reality check.

i have to think of an answer like, real soon.

it's 0430 hrs. i'm supposed to wake up in 1 1/2 hrs. yeah geee. i'll be out of society today. will be stationed at the beach tram stop. yeah, like thanks eh cik jamilah.

oh fuck.

no sleep + beach tram stop = TOTAL DISASTER!

fuckfuckfuck.

i hate taking trains in the morning. BAHHHH~ the only route i can think of now is to take the train from lakeside to boonlay and bounce back to Outram.

it's so not gonna be my day.

hopefully, i get to see shahid. =)

ok. that's it. one stick and go to sleep and hopefully, wake up in time.

muchlove.