backk.

I AM BACCKKK.

after being impatient for the past few hours with the network, i finally got a stable connection. geez. first days of school are always like that. hang, freeze, network connection. ouhh whateverr.

i actually have like, 5 classes. 1 for each day. and each day, it's a different class and all of them, are unfortunately at the same block, which is W5!!! wth. freaking far lahhh. i think it takes me at least 10 minutes to reach to class each day. goshhness. sucks aye.

okay so let's not talk about school anymore.

2 months of holiday. holiday? was it even a holiday for me? i managed to escape for 1 week from work and dikir trainings. now, that's holiday for me.

i worked like a dog.
no, i'm a female dog.
so yeah,
i worked like a bitch.

ahhaha. yeah i know. lame..

i think this holiday means a lot to me. learnt a lot, emotionally. i learnt that people can be two-faced and hypocrites and that office politics just sucks. some people may be all holy and religious but sometimes, they're just the most evil person around. it's just fucking stupid. stop the act siaa.

secondly, about the Piala Bintang Seni. or Seni Bintang. well, i just wanna thank these few who were there with me that day. Nadia, Fazliana and Shidah. Thanks for being with me when i was really down and got my dignity scarred. i love you girls.






yeah so, the girls.

when i was out from the grp, i sat amongst the crowd, watching the comp. and when it was CDM's turn, i looked for a friend. i asked him whether he was playing on this comp and he said no. i was like, okay.

and, well, he lied. he was the juara lahhh okaaay.

i was kinda happy for him coz he did good and i thought CDM should at least get top 3 sia. but well, they got 4th ah dengar2. and so then, i got back in the grp and then, after the performance, which i so totally do not want to think about anymore, i just changed and went out to meet my parents.

and i saw my friend. so, yeah, sindir lah kan.. "dgr2 org tu cakap tak main pe ni comp". haha.. stoned sia..

and yeah, 2 days later, he called me. and we talked. i haven't had a good conversation for a long time.

and, the most hurtful thing happend. yeah, well.. let that just be between me and him.

think about this phrase.

"When complications rise above love.."

yeah.

and i still love him.