his voice still melts me. his singing touched me.
yes, he knows i still love him. he still calls me his dear. but it's just that the situation doesnt permit us to be together. it's not that he was a bastard. he's the one which i felt most comfortable with. the only one which i actually dared to call sayang and dear. i am waiting for the time that we can be together again.
the word is wait.
like how he's waited for me since 2005.
and please, i do not want to be fixed. let me be myself. i don't like to be forced, to be nagged at, or anybody to change me. i hate mushy and romantic stuff. i am unpredictable. and no horny guys please. i am straightforward so accept that~
bingit lah when this kind of things happen.
i know you'll be reading this. don't force me. i don't like it. i'll delete your number. you don't have to call me anymore. we're miles different. we barely know each other. so, it's a goodbye.
geez, i found out that abang shahid is married (yeah that i know), has 1 kid, stays in jrg west and, he's the youngest son of the stall owner which my mum's family frequents. haji sharikin at jrg east. haha. what sheer co-incidence. haha.. and my mum actually got an invitation letter to his wedding last time. wahahaha. ok fineee. coincidence giler.
and pls, i do not have any feelings twds abang shahid ok. it's the same as how i anggap him, abang rafi and the abang2 at my workplace.
sometimes, i feel, i need not explain my stand. i have reasons. everything that happend has a reason to it.
hati direbut oleh seorang insan
yang pada dasarnya tidak ku kenal
pelbagai paksaan dan omelan
tidak senang pabila didengar
kucuba untuk memberi diri
kucuba untuk membuka hati
namun, tidak boleh aku beri
sesuatu yang tidak aku rasai
hati masih padanya
walau ku tau tidak akan bersama
tapi ku tidak tau mengapa
diri asyik teringat tentang dia
aku bukan merayu
cuma ingin luahkan isi hatiku
walau tersepit dlm kekalutan haru
aku masih mengingati mu
deeChiCka
hairilDiabz
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