such as.. being temperamental.

i'm too tired and lazy to update about my holiday.
hahaha. it was sucha crazy one.
just click the link and go see the pics aight.

HOLIDAY!

i have felt very disturbed lately.
clueless, actually.. on why i've been thinking too much.

thought about the man.
thought about him,
thought about arwah Malik; eversince i saw the accident along Malacca.
thought about school which, i've no idea when i should get the application form.
thought about life, which i keep contradicting it.
thought about the future.

i never used to think this much eversince i quit RP.

i dreamt of the man.
and it hurts.
but there's nothing i can do about it.
as much as i think that he's perfect,
the more i think that he's imperfect.
there's no denying that i miss him.
but mr man, i hate hoping.
coz hoping, will hurt me in the end.
it's been 4 months, it's been.. long.

1 year 1 month single.
wooh. definitely an achievement for me.
but then again, there's a glint of hurt and animosity.
i wished, but it turned to hope.
and i resent myself for hoping.

wow, i'm feeling miserable.
something i haven't felt for a long time.
i've kept my ego intact.
i've kept my head up.
i've always had my strong front.

haiz.. just so tired of all that.
so tired of being strong all the time,
when all i wanna do is drop and cry.

well, let's just bring an end to this misery for the time being.
it's 1 am and i need to sleep already.

lol, it's so unlike me to be emo.

take me into those arms,
hug me as tight as possible.
all i need is those warm hug of yours,

waiting...