just, stuff.

i am blardy excited about school tomorrow.
it's been 1 year since i last went to school.

oh for those of you who don't know yet,
i enrolled to MDIS, taking Diploma in Mass Communications.
it's like the course of my dreams, eversince, i was 16.

life needs to change from now on.
i'm a student working part time.
not a working person studying part time.
the course is only for 8 months.

so just deal with it.

8 months, then i find myself a full time job.
and, i can do whatever it is that i want,
without having Dad or Mom to nag at me.

and by then, i'll be 21.
all the more freedom.

i just wanna do things which i've never done before.
like, i want something, different in life.
like say, have a nightlife?
i'm tired of being in my shell.
i just wanna be the rebel again.

haiz..

i miss those younger days.
i miss sentosa days.
i just miss the life i used to have.

it was a hard period but i always manage to pull through.
but now i'm doubting myself.
it seems harder now.

or am i just making things difficult for myself?
i'm just having lots of doubts.
on a lot of things.

and i do worry about things.

i want the strength that i had.
i need my positivity back.

but how?

haiz. i need sentosa.
really.

and there i go again.
being contradicting.