such as.. friends.

i thank these ppl for making my school days un-boring.
hehe. with friends like these, life, can never be boring.
and of course, not forgetting her too.



well, today, i skipped school like again.
went to his place to watch vcds and dvds.
and i finally get to watch DUYUNG!
fuyoo!
hehe. was so sweet lah that he remembered that i wanted to watch Duyung.

ingat tak lagi janji kita dulu Aspalela..

=)

i dunno whether he was serious abt his question last night.
hmm. baru jek nak feeling sisters single dgn Atie and Naj.
hahaha.

tsktsk

i haven't exactly been myself.
i feel lost.
very lost.

it all happened when he msged me back at friendster.
i felt mad after all these months.

but then again,
i have no idea why..
i can't get him off my mind these few days.
haiz.

i know for a fact that, everytime we contact each other,
we end up quarreling and getting ourselves hurt.
but i don't know why,
we still bothered to contact each other again.

contact, argue/quarrel, end up blocking of msn, deleting from friendster list, deleting number from hp.
but a few months after doing all that, its either me or him will view each other's profile,
and end up contacting again.
still, we end up doing the same thing all over again.

and, fyi, it's since 2006.
haiz.

now, no matter how hard i deny that i miss him,
i can't.
i have no idea why.

ah yer,
i viewed this profile on Friendster.
and dis guy added me back.
he looks like him. so i msged that guy.
and yeah, he's the younger brother.
yerlah, pagi2 mcm ni chat kat friendster msg.
tsktsk.
ade msn buat aper ehk?

so anyways,
my friendster's like active dis month.
for this month alone, till now, i've gotten 364 views.
wth.

haiz.

birthdays.

"kwn baik kau kat tb blangah mane ade kasi kau birthday.... kwn kau yg stay jrg jugak kasi commen........"

ape maksud eh?

dah stop it.
i shall not entertain this anymore.

fafa's bday chalet was quite fun actually.
brought aken along wif me.
fafa's grandma's sambal tumis udang..
POWER GILER TO THE MAX!
pedas giler. i likeeeeee.
=)

hope kau suke present aku ehk fafa?
ahakz.

HAPPY 18th Birthday to Siti Nur Zarifah!
and
HAPPY 22nd Birthday to Amat Khayrul.
=)

Happy2 always. =)

today and yesteday again

200 bucks burnt just like that.
mcm cb lar.
like an online friend said,
"know how to smoke but dunno where to throw"

thanks ah.

yesterday marks my 8th month's being single.
hehe. i loike!
then yesterday, went out during 2nd break with Naj.
we talked about being single.
about why we can't accept guys and why we can't open up for a new relationship.
best ah Naj. hehe.



ok. that's about ytd.
today, best.
it means that i've gone to school for the whole week.
how rare is that?!

hmm. okay so, the faci's here.
=)

randoms

squash-ing with the girls was fun.
haha. giler2. i think we laugh more than we played.
ahaha. typical scene when u have atie around. lolness.

oh yesterday too, i went to this talk with Bas.
Body Fixer for woman.
i know very much that i'm a pear.
but i don't think that i'm an A coz i feel that i have broad shoulders.
i can't be a V coz i do not have thin legs.
a T? maybe. guess so.
haha. i don't know lar.

i'm getting obsessed with these things.
plus, i can't have a proper meal wifout puking after that.
i don't know why.
the system doesnt accept rice or noodles or heavy food.
so all i can eat, are mainly finger foods.
tsktsk.

okay lar. enough about that.

i was going through endang's multiply if i'm not wrong.
and i spotted this pic.

hairil-nafis-hakim-zoul

haha. instructor2 kitorg. okay, minus hakim.
cantik pulak dorg berposing.
gambar lama giler.. time zoul msh blonde lagik.
huhu.

and then ader ni.





hehe. zaman kekentalans sia.

howells. that was then. skrg.. tsktsk. =)
dah maju lar. hahaha. yah right.
kelakar sia. kite pose pon tak standardised. huhuhu.

but then again kan, mcm seram coz we'll be going for their comp.
and then, tau lar kan.. mulut2 org.
just to make it clear.

ENDANG IS NOT UNDER CDM.
Instructors jek dari CDM but we are NOT under CDM.

okay. i need my sleep.
good night good people.

OH OH!!!

Happy 18th Birthday Raffian!
Dah legal siaa. huhu. =)

oh, abeh tadi, aku nmpk juara Andika. =)
bukan Munir. yg lagi satu tu.
entah lah ape name dier. haha.

kk. good night. =)

the dark knight

yayy! i'm happy today because i get to watch this:



thanks Jumali for the treat! =)

i absolutely love Heath Ledger's acting. I love him as the Joker. He's damn good.







it's definitely a MUST watch lar. If you're not into action movies or loud gun sounds, too bad, this movie has every single bit of it. =) it's daaamn nice. but it's a long movie so, pee first before going in. haha.. don't be like me. lol.

it feels good to hang out with old friends or talk to them on the phone. at least do some catching up. instead of just being busy in our own lives.

yeaps. =)

squash tmr.

today and yesteday

the other day, my 200 bux job, was ok.
a lot of carrying balls done coz, ya..
the people there were fucking rich a*holes.

was supposed to sell terquilla shots and margarita.

so i learnt how to make margarita already.
oh and dey gave us free terquilla (the small bottle to bring home). haha

this is the blender for the terquilla.


cool giler sak.


the big tequilla bottle.

after that, we went to shower at the clubhouse and get ourselves ready for dinner.


the cousins



yeap. so that ended the day.
i've never had so much alcohol in my system.
mix and drink like dunno how many times.
huhu. i wasnt drunk tho.
just tipsy. ahah.

oh well,
went to watch Mega Perdana today.
was okay lar.

CDM DAPAT MASUK SEMI!

WOOOHHOOO!!

baek or what.
they deserve it uh.
ekk ehh.. cdm pakai baju baru laaa

for skdm, takper la.
first comp so, shldn't be hoping much yeah?
just for the exposure.

aswa, teh anang, keris and a couple more were good.
srw was much better than wahana deksu.
balqis, don't know what happened to them.
kinda felt sorry uh for them.
it can happen to anybody sia.

haiz. and then, i saw that guy yg main andika.
i think his name's munir.
he's now at kp.
why siaaaa?
tsktsk. aku ni fan andika.
dier main andika aku suker. heh.
dier main kp, aku tak suker la.
hahhahaha. siakens.

ok. well. thats all i guess.

ciao.

mcm suaaar.

you know what't the most fucked up thing about me?

i just don't make full use of chances.
i was given a chance to go back to school.
but, i keep skipping classes.
wtf lah.
i haven't been to class for a week already since last thursday.
mcm cb lar.

and today's module,
i've skipped 8 times.
cb lar.
how to pass siak like that?

dee mcm siak uh. seriously ar.


banking.


manufacturing logistics

these 2 modules are my domain module.
mampos uh. tk tau camner nakgraduate sak.
silap2 repeat lagik. haiz.
i'm not so worried abt banking.
just manufacturing logistics.
wad's more stupid is that,
it's a fresh module.
and not a repeat module. fuck.


network security


network infra-structure.

siak uh.
network security attendance colourful giler sak.
abeh predicted grade module a freaking E?!
cheeeetooooot.
infra-structure jer lah satu2nyer harapan.
haaiz.

bodohhh.

i hate myself for doing this.

haiz. cabot skola.. just to get 200 bux?
haiz. :(

i feel like crying.

boring

Dilmah has got me addicted to its tea.

i drank like.. 3 cups of 750ml cup in one day.
oh man.
caffeine! but, i think teh-Os are good if u wanna decrease ur sugar level.
if i'm not wrong.
coz my mom does that.

so, that aside..
i'm loading Harold and Kumar on a website.
haha. i know he would have wanted to watch this on movie.
hahaha. but i get to watch it first! huhu.

i didnt go school again today and, i watched ayat2 cinta on youtube.
it was.. hmm. okay2 uh. not really exhilirating.
i mean, it's not supposed to be but, still.. haha.

hrmmm.

ok work tmr. dang~

I CAN'T SLEEP DAMNIT.

presentation day.

good morning singapore.

for the latest news, i have reached republic polytechnic at a smashing time of 7.10 in the morning. news has it that the preparation is only going to start at 8 am, and presentation is going to begin at 9.00 am.

TETTT! NEXT!

ngantok gilerr.
haiz. it's okay.
just a few more hours to go.
and it'll be the end of FYP.
u just have to do your best in there and be confident.
confident mau lebih gang..

i slept at 4.15 am.
woke up at 5.25 am.
left home at 6.05 am.
and here i am.

haha.

alurh. let's just forget about fyp for a while.
the more i think of it, the more i get stressed.

oh. i changed my blogskin again.
and everytime i do it, i take lesser time to finish. =)
achievement aye?

but the picture it's like not obvious.
it's not the message or the theme that i want to send across.
about the death part.
it's more like, i just had a breakup kinda thing.
BLEARGH.

but i like it lar
it's preeety. =)

ok. i need to study the codes now.
7.30 am.

15th July.

with full of confidence, i wanted to go to sleep just now.
without doing any weekly logs, or even the fyp evaluation and rj.

crap lar.
i'm feeling so tired.
and i dun think my brain can do any thinking right now.
aaaargh.

okay, it's now 1245am.
and i just finished 7 weekly logs and 1 long rj and evaluation in one night.

later on, i might be wearing these again. haha.
too lazy to go and find other suits.




KASUT! so the tak kene. haha.
pedulik aper aku. hurhur.

okay so let's update for today.

you know the funny thing about today was?
of course you wouldn't.
i woke up early today. too early for my liking.
yeah, it was about 5.45 am.

in the end, i was too lazy to go and i wanted to ask Bas along.
but member iman kuat. huhu.
so i msged atie. met at woodlands.
lepaked for a while wif adi.
den atie decided not to go. aha.

so we took the train to Orchard.
coz i suddenly had the feeling of relieving the past.
where, i used to cabut wif Sandybobandy at Shaw Mac and went around town after that.

so yeah, me and atie had breakfast at mac.
as usual, we made lotsa mess.
standard jugak, budak2 sagittarius. =)







den, we kept wanting to watch a movie but there was none which caught our interest.
okay lar, so after what, almost 2 hrs of sitting there, we went off.
in search of forever 21 at wisma.
confident. went up to the 3rd floor only to find out that f21 was at basement.
=_="

then we went to the toilet.
ahaha. YESSAH. make up kan atie or whaaat?!





k arh. dunno whether it was nice or not lah kan.

den jalan2 wifout any arah tujuan.
den i wanted to go to Suntec to meet Abang Man Boyan (Rahman).
its been ages since i last saw him.
so yeap, we went to suntec, waited. and yeap. there he was.
and i kept saying,

"atie, confirm kau jakon nye kat dlm."

and bedek. jangan ckp pat dlm uh.
tgk bas tu pat luar pun dah jakon.
hahaha.

we took the bus for 2 rounds. in and out sentosa.
and then, for both rounds,

ABANG MAN SABO-ED ME SAK!

i was like the tour host or something inside the bus.
urrrgh. ok pics.

after that, we went off to eat at KFC.
again, the mess. tskstskkkk!

i appreciate the small talk that we had at KFC.
from the talking about relationships, to dreams, to flying cockroaches, to lizards. and blaaaah. hahaha.

read dis in atie's blog.

Dee, aku paham perasaan kau.
sedangkan aku yg jumper setiap pagi.. for less den 10 minutes ni tak puas..
ape lagi kau la kan? haiyoo..

well, haha. coz we were talking about abang arman.
ok no, I was talking about abang arman.
coz dis morning, he msged me. =)

and aku terlompat kat tgh2 underpass orchard. haha.
i was just thinking of msging him last night but i shrugged it off.
it's been a while since there was any contact.
but he msged me instead dis morning at 9am.
and so i was telling atie, i only meet him like once a month. =(

so yeap.. i seriously miss him a lot.
haiz. tkper lar.
challenges. =)

its okay. i'm happier this way.
i get to focus with my own life. =)

09 April
03 June
02 July

and i cherish every single time that i'm with you. =)

FINAL YEARS, Let's CHEONG TILL THE END OF THE PRESENTATION! GOOD LUCK!

haha. aku goodluck2 pat org. aku nye presentation kul 9 pagi like, 16th july. besok.
hahha. naseb arh.

BUSY!

i can't believe i got through ytd.

work was horrible.
so i started at 7.30 am right.
ok, went to gantry and stuff
den was stationed at hf.

i argued wif my supervisor
for his BIASNESS.
bloody ass.

den later on,
was stationed at Imbiah.
stupid north indian guest.

you don't fuckinly tell me to shut up you stupid cow.
you're not paying for the bus so fuck dun stand at the door
fuck shit, you're shittier ok!

benci sak.

den as planned. went off at 630.
took the train. reached there at 8pm.
went of at 9.45
met the fam.
went to eat at AL-amin wdlds
reached home at almost 12.

and, checked mail
no main from either team members.
so off to sleep.
woke up at 12.55 today

and i'm still lethargic

going out to shop for fyp clothes
den off to school for UT and trg.

thats it larh. bye

if else if else if

time check: 2.35am.

okay, i'll be taking a break till 3 am to have something to bite and teh-o as usual to keep me awake till i finish my report which, i am to finish by 4.45 am.

and then, i'll be getting ready for work.
should be leaving home at 5.30 am.
walk to lakeside. take 1st train to harbourfront
report to beach carpark at 7.15 am.
start work at 7.30 am

will be stationed at the new gantry.
woohoo! confirm gerek.
the gantry ppl are cool bunch of peeps.

then 9 am. proceed out to Harbourfront Interchange.
with the SEX (sentosa express admin ops) peeps. (bo-ring!)
should proceed in to Sentosa around 1.30.
if not, then 3.30. but i doubt so.

end work at 6.
will shower and get ready.
by the time i get out of sentosa, it would prolly be 6.30
and reach harbourfront at 6.45
and i've to reach Masjid Al-Iman at Bukit Panjang at 7.
HUHU.
how the heck am i gonna do that?

option 1: cab. TET! NEXT! (sayang sehk duit burn tu mcm jek.)
option 2: take 963. TET! NEXT! (45 mins seh. 1. butt cramp. 2. will be late)
option 3: take train. TET! (okay, so where do i drop at?)

if (late)
{take cab}

else if (no money)
{take 963}

else if (don't want bump cramps)
{take train}

else
{CARIK ORANG TU TUMPANG!}

end else if.

BAEK PER!

huhu. i rock at this.

okay. i overshot by 5 mins. it's 3.05 now.

ok done. bye.

EDITED!

it's now 5.22 am. supposed to get ready but..
maseh golek2 lagik atas katil. wahahaha.

listen to this song ok.
abang arman gave me the initial lyrics.
which got me scared.
but when i listened to the song (which, took me a few months after i got the msg)
i feel the song.

and it made me imagine
how it would be like, when your bf/gf pass away.
and u have to move on and accept their death.

actually the song's not supposed to be thought that way lar.
coz mcm.. the Mu, is supposed to be God.
but, there's 2 sides to everything yeah?

okay, well.. just listen.

andai kutahu
kapan tiba ajalku
ku akan memohon
Tuhan tolong panjangkan umuruku

andai kutahu
kapan tiba masaku
ku akan memohon
TUhan jangan Kau ambil nyawaku

reff:
aku takut
akan semua dosa dosaku
aku takut
dosa yang terus membayangiku

andai kutahu
malaikatMukan menjemputku
izinkan aku
mengucapkan kata tobat padaMu

ampuni aku
dari segala dosa dosaku
ampuni aku
menangisku bertobat padamu

aku manusia
yang takut neraka
namun aku juga
tak pantas di surga

i think i wanna do a blogskin based on this song.
've got the idea. =)

STRESS MODE.

blank.

damnit lar. not at this time.
i dunno what else to type in for my fyp report.
nabey.
suar.

arrrgggh.

i need some more of that Dilmah Blackcurrant Tea.
arggggggh

he texted.

and he finally msged me.

he ended it off with a "miss you".

that made me smile.
but it didnt stop the headache and fever to come.
geeee.

overexhausted.

i miss you too love.
i miss you sooo much!

arrrrgh

thought of skipping today.
but, no point.. since i was already in school at 9am,
might as well go to class.

and today's module.
Banking and Finance Applications.
and this is what i'll be doing.

damn stock exchange stuff.
buy sell trade. whatever. pfffft.
i am never good with dealing with money.
urgh. damnit.



mampos.

pp-done-ohhh!

I AM SO DONE WITH PROFESSIONAL PROFILING~!!
PP HABES OHHH!

Ok. enough with the bragging.
balak PP dah habes.
balak FYP biler lagi??

now that PP's over and done with,
i shall focus on FYP.
can't wait till FYP evaluation is over,
confirm hurray hurray punye.

and that's gonna leave me all the time in the world to focus on my classes for next sem.
=)
and after that, i soooo wanna get out of RP.
huhu~ best or what?!

as soon as 11am comes and when all of the years 1s have gone back to class,
i am so gonna go to haven,
and get meself Nizam's mum's Nasi Lemak.
ahaha

for now, i've only eaten a sandwich and the Strawberry Mango Twinings tea again.
Lol.

lapar.

damnnit stress

schedule for tmr, Wednesday 09.07.08

9.30 am to 10.30 am: PP Evaluation.
.:BREAK:.
12 noon to i-have-no-idea-what-time: FYP Meeting
6.30pm to 7.30pm: Travel to Clementi
8pm-10pm: Tuition at Clementi
10pm to 11pm: Travel back to Jurong.

HOME SWEET HOME.

it's so weird.
when one is sick, one has a gazillion things to do.
bile sihat, waduh.. lenggang lenggok habes.
the throat is acting up on me.
the nose, is runny.
ouhh man.

went all over jurong to find a place to print the a1 sized pp poster.
but thanks to the uncle at Yunnan, he said, nobody will print that big a size over in this neighbourhood. even if you want to print it will cost you $70.

MANGKOK! 70 BUCKEROOOS??!!

gee. so, i've wasted 3 hours of my time in school doing the a1 size.
so now, i've to complete the 8 a3 sized by tmr and get it printed before 9.30am.
how the heck am i gonna do that sia?
haiz. stress lah nabey.

and this was what happened at the TRCC Cafe when i was stressed up with work.

and these 2 souls, were just helplessly looking and NOT helping much. hahaha.



but i had a good time crapping with them.
at least they eased up my tension a little bit.

and gawd those eyebags! (mine)
mugcow. haiizz.

oh you know, the twinings tea at the TRCC Cafe does help.
to loosen up those stress and just relax.
i had strawberry mango just now.
it felt good.
sort of, the aromatherapy thing. huhu.

haiz.
i am trying to take everything one step at a time.
with pp
with fyp.
and with everything else.

Endangs,
i'm utterly sorry if i cannot commit to you guys for this month and the coming month
biase lah kan. kak dee ni, haha. nak focus belaja gang.
nak kluar dari rp ni. huhu!!

this month,
busy! busy! busyyyyyy!
Lemme see.

09.07.08 Wednesday:
PP Evaluation
FYP Meeting
Tuition

10.07.08 Thursday:
FYP Meeting at 4pm

11.07.08 Friday:
FYP Meeting at 12 noon?
(dgr2 aku tkde class)
Tuition at 8pm

12.07.08 Saturday:
Work 10am to 6pm
Bulan Bahasa at Greenwood Primary 730pm to 930pm

13.07.08 Sunday:
2pm to 6pm: Squash with the Family
7pm onwards, the event at the Masjid which Atie's Ibu paid for.

okay, thats for this week.

for this month, i'm not too sure. but roughly..

19 July, MP Saringan at Sembawang CC
29 July, Wrist Ultrasound at NUH.

okay uh. i think practically thats it.

mak aih.
STRESSSSS.

mcm ni, bile nak kluar with you eh?
haiz. entah lah. i pun tak tau.
i rindu you many2 love.

this week

I've had a long week. First up, Wednesday~

WEDNESDAY

Met HIM at Suntec and i got lost. Haha. I have no idea how to get around Suntec ouhkay but as always, i managed to find my way. Waited for 5 mins or so and he came.

*cair*

We watched you don't mess with the Zohan. haha. funny lar but lame storyline. ahakz. and he laughed like so hard. i've never seen him laugh that hard before. haha. okay well, den he brought me somewhere. =) that special place. huhu. Had freaking good time and fun.

After that, he sent me to Abang Zaid's for tuition and he said, next plan, was to go out for dinner at JB. =)

THURSDAY

Cabuted school with Atie. Huhu. While we were at MAC and talking about Naj, Naj and Kholique came. Haha. What a coincidence sia.. And then we went town, hoping to find something for Adi coz it was Atie's and Adi's first month together.

Abeh.. I wanted to search for my Adidas Fruity Rhythm perfume (he loves this smell on me!)



this was the perfume which i had on when i last met him and it died on me when i wanted to spray in front of him.

i searched for this high and low lah ok.

went to Lucky Plaza, don't have.
went to Plaza Singapura, don't have.
went to Dhoby Xchange, don't have!

OK FINE. So, Naj and Atie wanted to go back to school for UT, so i went off uh to Jurong. OK, in the hope of finding it at John Little at Jurong Point.

ok so i went.

John Litte, OUT OF STOCK.
Sasa, OUT OF STOCK.

EH WHAT THE HELL.

ok, i didn't give up there. Last resort, CK at Jurong.

and I FOUND IT. BOTH! But the glass bottle was different frm the one i had.





ok so, yes! Found it. =)

Went home, the parents wanted to go out, to Jurong Point! HAHA. FINE.

okay well, then.. thats about it uh.

FRIDAY

School. Cabuted. Went to Jurong East Library to finish my PP. Tuition.

SATURDAY

Went to NDP PREVIEW!! Yayan and Atie tagged along with the FAM. Pics uploaded at my multiply. Okay then.

SUNDAY

WORK.



oh well that's about it. I'm shagged. =)


and now i realise,
it's hard to meet you.
and love, everymoment that i have with you,
i cherish with all heart.
iloveyou.

post ms.

i feel like screaming..

"THIS CAN'T BE HAPPENING!!!"

i dunno whether to feel happy or disappointed uh.
i think both i guess.
i should give others a chance,
i shouldn't be selfish and bask in the limelight myself.

but at the same time, i do want it.
i've been practicing.
and i just wanna prove that, i can do it.
and that i can do better than the previous comp.
i've prepared myself mentally and emotionally.

haiz. nevermind.
like i said, my time is over.
it's time to give fresh faces a chance. =)
and i will always be there if she needs guidance.
i know you can do it, anakku! =)
lepas comp, kite dua2 dah jadi mak. hehe.

it's okay lah.

haiz.
i need to get away.
it's madness.
pp rejected.
fyp left with 2 more weeks.
classes are getting tough.
and i don't have the energy to stay late to do my fyp.

i hope, tmr love can really make it.
he's been terribly busy that i only meet him once a month.

"will u be free this evening?"
"tmr free. today work ar"
"ok, i've no class tmr either. watch movie k.."
"ok luv"

like yay!
gosh, i hope tmr happens.
please do, i miss him truckloads.

*i really feel like crying*