sick of it

i don't know what to feel about it.

i think i might need a better reason to be understanding about it.
it happens year after year.
no, it happens, ALL THE TIME.

this time round, i just can't be bothered to ask why.
"sbrg lah"

why was i even so stupid to believe that this year, all 4 of us could go out again?
why so confident aye?
only to find out later that it's cancelled at the very last minute.

he was right.
"it's time somebody teach you 3 about promises and sticking to plans"

honestly, it wasnt me.

i always have to be the one who's organising.
and in the end, i'm always the one who kena played out.

just for a very small reason.
it's not as if, he's not gonna join us.
he's just gonna join us after buka.

i just don't understand your mentality lar, really.

that's it lar.

i am NOT gonna plan any outings anymore.
i am NOT gonna waste my bloody time/money to contact for a gathering,
when i know it's gonna be cancelled at the very last minute.

you know,
i'm not angry coz today didnt happen.

i am fucken angry coz this is the umpteenth time this happened.

thanks, friend.

on the contrary,
i did buka with my cousin today.
and i had fun.

had subway and kfc.
both mine coz i was superhungry.





after that we went to Suntec to get the instant macaroni and cheese.
and i couldn't find my dilmah blackcurrant tea.
fine. but there's this clairol herbal essence shampoo which i wanted to get.
wooh, so gonna find it at CK tmr.
but i saw this thing.



and i really thought there was a crab inside. HAHA.
selenge bacen.

ok gtg.
need to memorise 5 pages of script.
ciao.

missingtheman

today.

in summary.

BEFORE.



THE PROCESS.



THE RESULT.



went to meet the fam at Serangoon.
bought lotsa stuff.
buka-ed at Kamala Vilas.

Geng G6PD

Low Platelet Crew.

huhuhu!

that's done for today. =)

work tmr,
and monday will be the interview with Ducktours.
HUHU! GEREK OR WHAT?!
after that to Carrefour to buy me and cuzzy some instant macaroni and cheese.
and hopefully, i'll find my Blackcurrant Dilmah there.

Aku ni asek merayap jer..
tsktsk.

anw, THANKS EHK ZOUL PERGI MENTION ABT IT TO SHAFIQ! grrr.

oh and i'm awefully happy today when Love msged me this.

quote of the day: 'to the world, you may be one person, but to one person, you may be the world.' have a nice sat ya'

i've seen that phrase truckloads of time but, when someone actually refer it to me, it just feels so good. =)

missingtheman.

chemical reactions

yesterday, Sept 11th 2008,
my brother Shafiq has found a new element.
it is called:

SHAFIQium.

i guess while studying extensively (while minimally absorbing what he studied) he managed to actually discover this element.

While there, i asked him what element would i discover and was a DIANOgen.

and he simply replied,

"Carbon DIANoxide"

and today,
he sent me msges on MSN.


S.H.A.F.I.Q says:
sodium dianoxide...
S.H.A.F.I.Q says:
dianium...
S.H.A.F.I.Q says:
diandium...
S.H.A.F.I.Q says:
dianogen...
S.H.A.F.I.Q says:
potassium diandite...
S.H.A.F.I.Q says:
potassium (VI) Dianchromate


and the best part of all,
was his personal msg.

"New Element Found! SHAFIQIUM! And Its Related To Carbon DIANoxide [="

oh save that kid from coming up with more of these things. hahaha.

oh and,

HAPPY BIRTHDAY NOURU! =)

and2..
this is the new hair dye look.





it was half as bad as last year lar.
but i wanna go rebond my hair tmr.
let's see how that is gonna turn out.

ok ciao.

NS or whaat?

sept 11th.
two of my good friends are gonna go away on "vacation" for 2 years

HAH. vacation larh sangat.
they're gonna go NS.
both kat Tekong, both report at the same time.
Selamat larh eh. =)

first is Hilmi (Sentosa). Known him for a year already since he started work at Sentosa. Kaki gerek punya. =)




Mi, aku tak tau whether kat saner at Horlick ke tidak, kalau takde, minom Milo ok. Badan kau dah sekeping. Kau gi NS, takmo lose weight lagi ok. Takmo geli2 dengan apape bende yang ade kat sane. Especially bende yang brown bergerak tu. LOL. Take care k bro. Selamats!

second, IMRAN (A.k.A WANTIN Chingx3). Used to call him Tengkorak coz he wore a Tengkorak jacket when we first talked after the Jelutung CC training. ahakz. Dier dgn kawan dier kacau aku nan Liyanak. Kurang asam. haha.. last2 jadi members.



Im, selamat berjuang ehk. Jaga diet kau tuh. Jangan asek nak lapar jer. Sikit2 lapar. Huhu.. Jangan tanning banyak sgt, nanti muke tak cine lagik. hahaha. apapepon, take care bro. =) tkmo leGONG2 ok.

ok dah. nak continue tgk Home Alone.

Buka with Bdk2 Pulau

yesterday, i had the best buka-ing session ever.

i met Sentosa friends from the past and present and we went down to Geylang. But of course, we were supposed to meet up at 4.31 pm but at 5.15pm, the only ones at Jurong East Mrt Stn were me and these 2..



Erul has a fetish for nose digging recently. ahaha.. so yeah, then Ahmad, Hilmi and Fahmy Tong (and i wonder why they invited him along) came. and off we went to Geylang. Hilmi went down at Redhill to fetch his friend. Kat Geylang, we waited again for summore people.

then, saw Nida and Shidah, Faizal, Fadhli, Hairul and FAIZ! woohoo!
and Hilmi came with his friend, i forgot her name.
and then we walked twds Joo Chiat.
i had to go to the ATM, and was accompanied by Fuad and Faizal. =)



then we went to meet them, and saw Ainah and Iqbal, and Farhan and GF, Syamsul and Radiah.
bercouple2 pulak dorg. :)
berlambak per orang. =)
after buka, smoked, and went off to jalan2.
it was chaotic. we keep having missing people. ahhaha



this was while waiting for Radiah, Syamsul and Fahmy Tong who went to pray.

after that we jalan2 again.
went to City Plaza.
Macam BO LIAO siak jalan2
in the end, abg kite (Fad coz he's the eldest) ajak gi minum.
ok lar.
so went to dunno what stall near city plaza.
had late supper.
me and Erul shared Satay.
60 sen siar one stick. mahal pe. 20 sticks dah $12.
rokok lagi murah. ahha



the supper was the best ever.
we laughed soo much that we teared.
they bullied Hilmi until he couldn't retort.
hahaha.
i had such a good time then. =)

so after that went home. =)
sat beside fuad and we critic on ppl's choice of clothings.
haha. he's not bad after all (coz we always argue and quarrel).

ahakz.

and today..
i'm dying my hair!
HOORAY!!
i'm missing this look.

weekends and stuff

last weekend, surprisingly i didn't work.
not that i didnt want to,
it's because they don't allow me to.

so, Saturday, went out with Linda to S'pore Expo.
There was this book fair, John Little Mega Sale and some bag apparrel sale.
the book fair was kinda boring.
but i found this.



same book, 2 different prices.
but actually 3. at the bottom, there's one going at $4.
huhhu.

but once i stepped in to the JL hall, i'm like..
OHMYGOD! freaking cheap okeh.

and i only had $14 that day.
i was cursing and swearing lar.
so in the end,
i bought myself a pair of Charles and Keith heels,
which cost $9.90!



and i saw this weird footwear. haha.



so anyways. the next day,
RETURN SIA.
i went back to Expo with my family.
and we shopped like there's no tmr.
hahaha.
i managed to grab one more C&K pumps, and 2 boxes of eyeshadow.



it's 9.90 too.
CHEAPO. =)

so after that, waited for Kak Comel and Abg Madi,
who wanted to bring the boys to watch Thomas and Friends at the Expo.
while waiting..




after that, we went to Geylang.
Nth much uh.
and then to Serangoon.

I thought we're gonna eat at our favourite place at the Tekka Market tu.
ingat tak Atie? yang kite gi malam2 tu lepas NDP?
but noooo. my dad had to explore Serangoon and dragged us along.




then we went to eat at this very yuckish tepi jalan hawker.
i wasnt really happy about it ok.
coz i wanted to eat at that kedai and have my Teh Sarbat.

so buka time.
the food was tasteless and plain.
the curry which was supposed to look dark orange looked like strawberry milk.
sheesh.
and the horror! when we wanted to walk to the carpark,
I FELT LIKE I WAS A TOURIST IN MY OWN COUNTRY.
tsktskk. badd.

and then we went HOME!
yay!

i didnt sleep again.
:(

dear friendSISTER,

thanks for being the sister which i never had. knowing you and the girls was the best part of my stay in RP. among all, i think you're the one whom i'm closest with. you're like, a call-an sms-an msn away from me like all the time.

we won't stray ok. we won't part. tuition kan ade.. we'll still meet. trainings masey ade. if i'm free, i'll come for sure. =)

i'll still be around.


❤
diandee

no future

there are only 2 persons, who almost made me cry while talking about my grades and future.

one is, miss choong siew ling, my program chair (course chair).
the other one is jasman (silat).

maybe because, they don't damn what i did in the past.
and they know that there are other options for me in life.

i felt a tinge of rebellion in me, when talking to my parents about this.
ok, maybe Dad. Mom has always been understanding about it.

"you will never learn.."
or
"when will you learn?"
or
"your teacher can't be bothered with you anymore thats why she's asking you to withdraw"

truth is,
i figured out myself.
she didnt ask me to.
she didnt encourage, neither did she discourage me from withdrawing.

maybe RP isn't for me.
the whole PBL system.
the whole 8.30 to 4 class.
the team work thingy.

it's just not me.

and, scoring a B, would just be like, aiming for the sky.
when was the last time, i've got myself a B for a module grade?
WHEN I WAS IN BLOODY YEAR 1, SEMESTER 1!

she's right.
i can do it.
but i've just lost my momentum in studying.
i havent pick up the habit of PBL again.

true enough.

and no, everyone.
relationship is the last thing that is on my mind right now.
and it's definitelt not affecting my studies.

seriously,
i don't know what is.

definitely not dikir you know.
i havent been active eversince Citra.
i still came to school even though we had trainings the night before.

i don't know where my life is headed to right now.
i'm just a waste.
and i wasted myself for 3.5 years in bloody RP.

i damn myself.

i have no idea what to do now.
oh God, give me Your grace.

i have lost all hope to study.
i have lost all hope in my future.

long post.

sheesh, i've been very very lazy to update my blog.
well, i'll just put in pictures for u guys to see.

29th aug.
morning went to hospital,
at night, went out with the sentosa peeps.
had dinner at ktm, as a farewell dinner for Hilmi who's going NS.
present:
PANTATS: me, skip, nisham, taufiq
KETIAKS: erul, ahmad, hilmi.
Others: wan, cik rosley, cik kadir, abang nazree, atie









the reason why the last pic was taken was:
THERE WAS A COCKROACH GOING AROUND THERE!

so yar,
kite segan dgn lipas.
=)

so we ended by going to Vivo to watch midnight movie,
dis happened when we wanted to decide for which movie.


when, my parents called and told me to go home.
geez.




so then, went home.

30th Aug,
haha. the day that we were so confident.
woke up at 10 by Wantin's phone call.
he asked if i wanted to go to MP with Ain (Harapan).
Then i was like, naaak.

okay la, we planned to meet at 2.45 den abang Zul picked us up at his block.
den, me and atie waited at the void deck so when Wantin came down,
he said, "korang, bad news. kite ditinggalkan"

haha. baek uh wantin.
went there by cab.
reached there, saw the CDM guys.
and guess what, they've performed!
BAEK UH. COMP STARTED AT 3 INSTEAD OF 4.

comp mendak uh.
but at least, get to see him, him and him. =)
cuci mata okeh.








so, went to buy this nice gladiator sandals at Bata.
went home.

31st Aug:
worked.
after work, went to eat at Sakae Siloso.
And it's not Sakae Sushi.
It's Sakae Izakaya.
And it's not very nice.

howells..









this one sedap giler. =)





after that, we went to Luge.



Then Weiling bought for me a Hot Chocolate. =)



and we took cab home.

HUHU. all in just 3 days.