New Year

and so we countdown-ed in Sentosa.
had a uber long day yesterday.

work started at 8.30 am and ended at somewhat 1-ish.
reached home around 2 and was out again in 15 mins or so.

and so went beaching in Sentosa.












so then, we continued the night by staying there and waiting for countdown.
went luge-ing.







and so we settled down at Imbiah,
where i reckoned we could see fireworks from both Mount Faber and Marina.
and while waiting, we played Uno, which took an hour or so to finish~



in the end, we managed to see the fireworks.
it was far though but i guess it was something.



pardon the sleepy eyes.
LOL.

and that was it. =)

well, and, this is the survey tagged by atie..

This should passed on and not passed back. Pass this survey to 8 girls you know. You can

not say "anyone is able to this survey" or similar like that. Those who were chosen to

do this survey, you must play along and not back out. If you received this survey more

than 8 times means you are someone on the outgoing popular links. REMEMBER: NO HIT BACK!


0- Who passed you this survey? What is your relationship to her? How do u befriend with

her? And how do u find her?
NURUL ATIKAH BTE SARI!
SHE'S MY GF!!
We hung out after training and just got close together with JAY~
SHE IS CRAYZEEE.

1- What is your real name?
Dian Farini Bte Rusli

2- Which one do you prefer to be call?
Deeee. Dian.

3- Are u currently wearing something green?
nope.

4- Do u eat raw salmon?
yeaaah. it's nice.

5- Are u married? If no, when do u intend to get hitched?
i am not. i will when the time is right.

6- Are u attached or no? If yes whats his name and how do u met?
i am notttt attached.

7- If you are attached, would you mind if your boy got kissed by someone?
hahaha. obviously kan..

8- Do u love answering back?
depends. usually i don't coz i can't be bothered to.

9- What is you fav color? Name three.
black, white, red.

10- Why do u like the 2nd color of your earlier answer?
coz it's seems pure.

11- Do u think u are someone known to public?
nope. i like my privacy now.

12- Have u had sex with anyone before?
HAHAHHAHAHA.

13- Do u like to be hated?
who would?

14- Do u think this survey is stupid? If yes, why? If no, why?Why?
okay laa.

15- What is your fav lingerie shops? Name two.
lingerie shop? hahaha. no preferance la.

16- Do u prefer to wear G-string or normal undies?
like em both..

17- What is your fav watch brand?
i don't wear watches so i don't know.

18- Have u own all the above mentioned watches yet?
i don't wear watches u noob.

19- What is your current addiction fav song?
forget about me.

20- Name your fav blog website besides than your site (list their name down)
dunno lah.

21- Do u think by blogging can make u famous?
well, yea. i mean it happened before wad, like mr miyagi and such..

22- Do u support rima melati adams or ida nerina? Pls chose only one.Why the both of

them?
rima melati adams. coz i've never really liked ida nerina.

23- Do u think taufik batisah or hady mirza has the nicest voice? Chose only one.
Taufik Batisah!

24- Are u planning to adopt a child like Angelina Jolie does?
no lah, not for now at least.

25- Do u think you are pretty/handsome?
no i do not.

26- Do u rate yourself as caring or understanding?
more to understanding

27- What is your occupation now?
customer service officer

28- Where do u usually shop for your clothes?
any shopping mall lah. anything nice i buy la.

29- Do u prefer dresses or t-shirt and shorts? Chose only one.
i kinda prefer dresses now.

30- If you were given a miracle to change something in yourself, what would it be? List 4..
smaller.
be who i was.
skinnier.
more creative.

well, okay i dunno who to tag.

okay byeee.

feeling, i don't know.

i dunno whether it's a big deal or not.
or maybe i'm just thinking too much.

i don't know what it's about.
it's making me feel edgy.

i feel like i'm too insistant.
and so, i should back off.

i can't say out the things i wanna say
coz i don't want to lose.
that's all to it.

i don't wanna be like every other girl,
though i know that it's normal for things like that to happen.
forget it.

perturbed.

all in all,
face it.

and i wonder, why do i care so much?

let go.

such as.. being temperamental.

i'm too tired and lazy to update about my holiday.
hahaha. it was sucha crazy one.
just click the link and go see the pics aight.

HOLIDAY!

i have felt very disturbed lately.
clueless, actually.. on why i've been thinking too much.

thought about the man.
thought about him,
thought about arwah Malik; eversince i saw the accident along Malacca.
thought about school which, i've no idea when i should get the application form.
thought about life, which i keep contradicting it.
thought about the future.

i never used to think this much eversince i quit RP.

i dreamt of the man.
and it hurts.
but there's nothing i can do about it.
as much as i think that he's perfect,
the more i think that he's imperfect.
there's no denying that i miss him.
but mr man, i hate hoping.
coz hoping, will hurt me in the end.
it's been 4 months, it's been.. long.

1 year 1 month single.
wooh. definitely an achievement for me.
but then again, there's a glint of hurt and animosity.
i wished, but it turned to hope.
and i resent myself for hoping.

wow, i'm feeling miserable.
something i haven't felt for a long time.
i've kept my ego intact.
i've kept my head up.
i've always had my strong front.

haiz.. just so tired of all that.
so tired of being strong all the time,
when all i wanna do is drop and cry.

well, let's just bring an end to this misery for the time being.
it's 1 am and i need to sleep already.

lol, it's so unlike me to be emo.

take me into those arms,
hug me as tight as possible.
all i need is those warm hug of yours,

waiting...

boohoo

i hate packing.
mom has been bugging me for days and hours just to get me to pack my stuff.
like, since when do i even pack early?
i've always waited to the day before the trip,
in the wee hours,
just to pack my stuff.

and i take hooooooours to just pack one bag.
which only consists of outfits.

the second bag, would be for things which i need regularly,
like makeup bag, wallet, handphones, mp4, perfumes etc.
and, habitually, my toiletries as well.

oh shit.
where am i gonna stuff my footwear?
urgh.
travelling is fun,
but not packing!

and i know i'm gonna regret my choice of clothes.
haha, especially when i know that i'm going to Cameron Higlands,
and i only bring 2 long sleeve tops.
ahh well, there're always Shafiq's clothes which i can borrow.
hehh.

so, then..
this morning right..
i was at work. fucken busy lah.

and in total, i collected something like $29,642.82
broke my record today.
and i was so excited when i collected 2 of this!



woohoo.
and of course at the end of the day while closing,
i've had all the different kinds of notes that Singapore has!



supercool lah.

well friends and loved ones,
will be back on Christmas i guess.

2 days of work and then Sunday,
will be back to Ledang to pick Dad up.

tsktsk. i've been wanting to meet up with some people,
but due to the time constraint, everything has to postpone.
tsktsk.
end of the year. it's always like that.

on a lighter note,
look at this!



she looks like Queen Amidala from Star Wars.
hahaha. this was when we made a cake out of Atie.
hehehh.

so, will be back in 6 days then.
take care good people.
=)

thoughts.

i'm guessing that i have too much free time on my hand,
thus the frequent blogging these few days.

well, i've been thinking a lot recently,
when i shouldn't exactly be.
and the excuse which i can come up with,
would be:

1. PMS. that's like a bigtime excuse.
2. work stress.

you know how sometimes, things happen but they don't happen like what you think it did, but because of what you thought, it bothers you somehow?
geddit?
well, it sucks.

and because of your ego, you don't want to improve the situation when in actual fact,
you really badly want to.

ohhhh nevermind.
it's just a passing feeling i guess.
it'll be over soon enough.

and i always do that.
it's just so irritating.. hahaa.
i mean, really..
type down things which trouble me and end the post with a "forget it", "nevermind"
like, i don't want to think of a conclusion to the post,
and instead resort to, just denying the thought and block it off from the memory.

howells.
and, i decide to end it.
abruptly.

so bye. hahaha

birthdays

firstly, HAPPY BIRTHDAY ATIE!
she finally turned 18 on the 14th.



sorry i havent really buy you a present yet.
coz i'm planning to buy when i'm out of town. =)
so, just wait yeah.. hehe.

secondly,
HAPPY BIRTHDAY COUSIN DIANA!
i shall not reveal her age coz i know she'll definitely knock me out if i do.
haha.
still, she turned ** on the 16th!



heh, and seriously..
it slipped my mind this morning that it was her bday.
until i was changing my date stamp at work.
i resorted to just texting.

and after work,
the parents fetched me up from work,
went to West Coast park.
had a Mega Mac while the brothers were off blading.

kak diana was telling mom that she wasn't celebrating her bday this year coz abg hafiz isnt around.
i was like, this cant be happening siar.

so i told her,

"you just wait. i still have 4 hours left to the end of your birthday. i'll think of something to do to you. haha, just you wait..."

so then told dad about the plan and he was like, ok jom!

bought the cake.
and we were walking back to the car when we passed by Watsons.
of course, Watsons always have sales going on.
and, i saw these nice Adidas box, with cosmetic bag, perfume and spray deodorant.
got it instantly.
and the parents bought like, these 2 hampers which had shower gels, body lotion and soap.

and we raided her house.
mak, direct translation for serbu. hahaha.

the funny thing was..
we had 2 plans.

PLAN 1: if she's not home yet, we pakat with Mak Lang and cik Ahmad to surprise her IN the house.

PLAN 2: if she's home, we'll just bring her cake in and sing to her at the door.

then, i was like, okay.. so how do we know that she'll be home or not?
can't possibly call her. confident plan2.. but dunno how which plan to follow.

so then okay lah, gut feeling.
we just light up the candles along the corridor and walked up to the door and sang.
she was like, utterly shocked.
and maklang was like,

"aku fikir api aper yang bergerak!"

HAHAHA.

and of course, she cut the cake and we gave the presents.





and that was it..
=)

and she called my family a family bergerak..
betol jugak lurh tu. :p

pop oh.

haha. not me.
but Shafiq has POP-ed from his Cadet Leftenant Course.
3 weeks and finally POP.

so, on Friday, asked Max if i could end work early.
and i did at 5.30 and the parents fetched me and off we went to Amoy Quee NCC Hq.
and we had to sit like quite far from the parade coz it was full up front.

and when i saw him marching past,
i was like..

"EHHH ADIK AKUUUU!"

haha. was proud of him though i havent really been there to support him.
and i was quite happy that i came.
coz initially, i told him i couldnt coz work usually finish at 7.
but i just tried my luck and yeaah, i made it.

also, there was this part where,
family members are supposed to put in the rank for them.
it was so kecoh lah.






so you can see, how extremely excited the parents were.
hehehh.
but at the end of the day, we had our fair share of pictures taken.



and today,
we went to Gunung Ledang to recce the place.
and the brothers ended up swimming at the waterfall.







so yeah, basically that's it.
back to work tmr.
for the whole 5 days.
then off to holiday for another 5 more days.
and start work the next day.

okok. live life day by day. =)

good night good ppl.

missing it.

i miss getting shahaha hugs can? :(

school?

terribly long day.

after work, to rp.
from rp, back home.

from home,
went to adam road for supper.
wasn't satisfied with the food.

so drove around, just to find satay.
and we ended up driving to Simpang Bedok.

and the satay was quite good actually.
woohoo. might return there one day.

okay well..
i've had recurring dreams.
of, school

i've dreamt of RP, SP and NP.
and it made me miss school a lot.
so i've decided to go back to school.

and RP is out of the question.
noooo way. not RP in a million years.

not NP too,
because it will remind me of arwah.

NYP and TP do not have the courses which i'm interested in.

and finally,
there's SP.

they have a new course there.

Diploma in Creative Writing for TV and New Media (DTVM)

http://www.sp.edu.sg/SPweb/appmanager/home/default?_nfpb=true&_pageLabel=SP_FS_C_CASS_DTVM&_nfls=false

it's like cool coz,
i get to learn to write scripts for comedy programmes and such.
well, just go to the website and see lah.

and i guess SP would be a good choice,
since it's near to home.
it doesn't have a straight 8.30 to 4 lessons every single day.

and most importantly,
- NO PBL.
- NO LAPTOPS (UNLESS NEEDED)
- HAVE EXAMS.
- HAVE TESTS.
- HAVE ASSIGNMENTS
- HAVE PROJECTS
- HAVE ATTACHMENTS.

which equals to MUGGING! =)

haha. basically, the opposite of RP.

i am sane when making these statements.
i don't know what i've learnt in RP.
i don't remember them much.

coz you see, not everyone can adapt to PBL.
not everyone can do independent learning.
and laptops in class are total distractions.

you need to be in RP to actually understand the feeling.

haha. well, we'll see how.
told the parents about it.
think they should be okay with it.

shoots. 4.02 am.
KEJE LAH OI later.
bye

waiting.

waiting.

waiting for it to be 10 to watch the Singapore-Indonesia match.
waiting for it to be 11 to get my pay banked in.
waiting for it to be 12 after the match finish to go for late supper.

and lastly,

waiting for tmr, where hopefully.. yeah hopefully..
(complete the sentence yourself with your own imagination)

i am so trying to waste time now.

lalala~ 15 mins to go.

ohh maaan.
where are my endless ideas when it comes to typing?
i always have some opinion about some things.
but now, i can't even think of anything meaningful to type.

sometimes, when you have lesser problems,
it makes you think less as well,
coz you're not able to evaluate your life.

like, it's so stagnant..

oh anyways,

i miss this nyonya a lot!



i should totally meet her like soon.
haha. it's been like a month or so.

ok done. 3 mins left to 10.

ciao.

socceroo.

i assure you, i am no longer a soccer addict,
like i was back in secondary school.

eversince i left Home United Fan Club in 2003,
i've never really been interested to watch any soccer match.

except, of course, ASEAN CUP since Singapore won like, last year?

yesterday's Singapore Vs Myanmar match got me on multiple orgasms.
haha. okay, not.

it was like, a super interesting match where Singapore kept attacking in the 2nd half. Myanmar on the other hand, had lesser opportunity of course, but it seems like there were more red shirts than white.

But the 78th minute fiasco was like, the highlight above everything else.

Shi Jia Yi was brought down, and Noh Alam Shah asked for an early freekick and was given one. It was quite a flurry, and i was thinking, "Kiwak, lincah!"

and the next thing i saw, Agu Casmir nicely tapped in the ball, and the Myanmar keeper was running towards the referee and then pushed him.

woohoo. it was like, so interesting to watch a dispute in a soccer match.

and then i deduced the same to the commentators.

when Shi Jia Yi was brought down, the Myanmar players were too busy trying to complain to the ref that the free kick wasn't valid that they weren't alert that the free kick was being taken. thus, the goal came in, smoothly and nicely.

and now, i can't wait to watch the Singapore vs Indonesia match tmr night.
woohoo. definitely gonna be interesting.

okok. enough about soccer now.
hehehh.

been watching tv all day.
and still gonna watch summore. ahakz.
later.

i am usually not a sucker for sweetness.
but recently, i have been.
tsktsk.

keppel bay

nothing beats like a shahaha hug.
it definitely came at the perfect timing.

Keppel Bay was awesome.
the kinda sight where you rarely see in Singapore.
definitely the kinda place where it's a rich man's play.
yatches and marinas.
high end restaurants.
but the view was a beauty.
of course, except the thunder and lightning.

too bad, we didnt snap any pics.

but, all was fun. =)
had a great time.

oh anyways,
found some edited pics on ain's and jay's blogs.
wooohoo. grab uh abeh.




ok now,
it's 2.14 am.
i should be a good girl and turn in now.

good am good people.

and again.

feel like replying tags first.

weiling: thaaaankyou! and i miss you like oh sooo much!

farah: thanks beb! *hugs*

jumali: thanks and shut up! ahaha

atie: dah lama per dier botak. and he's so getting on my nerves ever since dier botak. the sudden hyperactivity is beyond control.

.diana.vanderh: yeah, it definitely made me treasure life and people even more.

ain: hey.. ahakz.. thanks babe. well, not doing too good currently but i'll live. :)

today hadn't been a good day.
i was so lost at work.
daydreamed a lot.
tried to distract myself.
but it was difficult coz i'm always reminded
that He was there at my workplace.

and it didnt help that His dad and sister came.

it really made me think about him more.
i managed to talk to His dad and sister.
and what the dad said really made me sad.

chill dian.
like Joc said,
"i'm sure he didnt want his friends to be sad"

but i can't help it sey.
i'm always reminded of him.
somehow, somewhere.

and because of my carelessness and daydreaming,
i had an excess of $234.25.
haiz, dunno lar eh.

ok shoots.
i should.. try to move on.

really i should.
i have never seen myself this sad, this weak before.
everything seems to affect me.
like, i can't be left alone coz then,
well.. i'll think a lot.

:(

what i need,
is a heeeeeuge looooong warm hugg.
haiz.

the birthday

this year's birthday was okay i guess,
maybe because i wasn't really in the mood to celebrate.
but had to coz it wasn't only my birthday,
but it was the parent's anniversary as well.

so then, there were only me, aken and parents.
we went to eat at Changi Airport Canteen.
not bad lah, but i wasn't really in the mood for eating.

den jalan2 around the airport.







then, we went to AMK Hub to watch Madagascar 2.
it was freaking funny laaah.
then after that, went home.

yeah so, that's how i spent my birthday.

and,

thanks to everyone who wished me on my birthday.
really appreciate it.
to those, who called me tua,
hahaha.. boooo. at least, i'm almost full legal!
hehhh. =)

boy oh boy.
when are we going to meet?

loss of a very good friend

i still can't accept the fact that Arwah Malik has left us all.
it seems just yesterday, that all of us were in secondary school.



i still can remember vividly..
the way he smile..
the way he walks..
the way he talks..
the way he laughs..
the way he writes his name with his left hand..
the way he says "halo!"..

and i still miss looking at his brown eyes.

i was trying to be strong.
but when i saw his face for the last time..
i broke down.
i can never forget the sight.
it was so sad.

i can't believe that he's gone, forever.
i still couldn't accept the fact that,
the face i saw was his.
and Abdul Malik Bin Ahmad didn't pass away,
so soon.

after the funeral,
me, hannah, lydia, afro, faiz, nash, azmi and hafiz osman
went to eat at Teh Tarik.
den hannah, azmi, hafiz left.
only left me lydia afro, faiz and nash.

and we were recalling all the times we had in sec school.
especially with Arwah.
its been great.
and, i have never regretted him being part of my growing up life.



then, we had 2.
the twin towers



and now there's only 1.

:(
i miss you Malik.
Goodbye friend.
Goodbye brother.
Goodbye my favourite keeper.



Goodbye Abdul Malik Bin Ahmad.

Al-Fateha..