breaking down.

i wanna cry.

i'm just so pissed with every single thing. with everyone.

i was jealous. yes, that's because i wasn't used to being left out whenever at work. i'm not used to not being given attention and i'm definitely not used to not being pampered.

i'm not trying to be some attention seeker. yes, i know that she's a new girl and everyone wants to kacau her. but don't expect me to join in to kacau her.

it's already bad enough that i'm trying to get used to having another girl around at work. coz i'm so used to being the only girl at work and everyone gives me attention and pamper me. and now, even my favourite people are not layaning me and kacau her.

i mean, i just don't wanna be left out!

and of course, i'd be moody. what do you expect?

abang zaid says i showed it too much. i couldn't help it.i know he meant well when he asked me to call him to actually tegur me about my moodiness in the bus back to Harbourfront.

but..

in the other case, he was jealous. yes, he msged me at night and asked me why i didn't sit beside him in the bus and chose to sit alone, only to have abang zaid to sit beside me.

and he was different today. he kept saying i'm different. not as manje as last time, and somebody said something about me and him. i don't know lahh. i know nuts.

i don't need this right now.

i'm just so pissed lah. i just wanna breakdown now.

i don't know.