boredomness

my tummy is hurting so bad.

i don't know whether it's the jamu i just bought which is taking effect or the mee rebus which i ate this morning, which, at the stall, i saw a rat.

urggh. it's keeeeeeeling me.

ok now, it feels better.

i've been feeling lousy these few days. i don't know why lah. i don't know whether it's PMS. i don't know.

i feel unwanted.
i don't feel important.

hurhur. talk about low self-esteem. or self-confidence. or self-love.
i guess, it's just the time of the month lah. nothing to worry about. the feeling will go away, like soon.

Jazzy's not in school yet and no one to go smoke with me. i need to fag. i know i need to stop fagging a lot. it's like, 4 packs in 2 weeks is not reasonable for me. but yeah, 1 pack now lasts me 3 days. Gosh. I'm left with 2 sticks now.

i can't buy another pack because i'm left with $20 till monday. and, i can't fag as much because now i have dikir trainings and also, this saturday i've soccer. i need my stamina and my throat. haiiz.

i am damn bored.

abang man just msged me. he said khairul was sacked. the guy was already warned. haiiz. 1 marshal less. aizad and farid are gonna go NS in june. faiz is gonna go this year. oh goshh. one by one my blood bros are gonna go NS.

i found this.



yeah, i guess, i'm feeling this way. haiiz.