reply to tags first:
ahmad: alamkk,rabak uhh question number 36.malu,..ehh im still studyin laarh..
ChiCka: aah sey.. like so SPOT ON kann. haha. iyekeer.. study kat sentosa keppe.. alah. ko belum start skola lagik per..
Nouru: LOL! Black head again!I'm black head 24/7/
Nouru: Btw, abt the Sentosa thingy, give me 2 weeks (probably 2nd week of Raya) to give you a definite answer. Need to gauge my schoolwork the load de...
ChiCka: what black head? u got blackheads again? oh alright.. just tell me when u're ready for it.
Aky: Melampau eh... Sesungguh nye aku tk fren ko agi. haha
Aky: kat sane aku mkn dengdeng babat DIAN..haha
Aky: LoOk at my blog
ChiCka: Aky melampau sey spam aku tags. aku pun tk fren ko lagi ahhk. EHKK! babat2 slow sikit okeh.. stop it ehh. haha. ko nye babat lagi byk sehhk!
okay enough of the tags.
TOMORROW IS MY 2ND MONTH ANNIVERSARY WITH BOYFIE AND TOMORROW IS HARI RAYA TOO! And.. TMR,
HAPPY 20TH BIRTHDAY KHAIRULANUAR!
ok, so everyone's posting blogs about raya tmr.
Selamat Hari Raya to all who's reading this. i apologise if whatever i said pissed some of u all off, especially to the Endang girls, i apologise if my actions hurt some of you and yeah, maaf zahir dan batin, ye.
this Ramadan, was the toughest ever Ramadan period i'd have to go through. I did improve on fasting. I remembered when i was in:
Year 1, i only fasted for a week. 3 1/2 weeks gone on smoking and period.
Year 2, better by a bit. Fasted about 2 weeks, 2 1/2 weeks on smoking and period again.
Year 3, 3 weeks, 1 week by period, 2 days coz of smoking, 2 days cause i was injected, 1 day coz i couldnt stand the hunger.
Alah, even so, tak tentu whether some of my puasa days are batal-ed or not.
So anyways, if you all had known, i dyed my hair orange during 2nd week of Ramadan and after that, my parents drifted apart from me. They didnt talk to me and going back home is like going back to a hotel room. Nothing went right. I got picked on for every little thing that i didnt do.
Had a major war going on with my dad one night. and it was the first ever time that i screamed back at him just to defend myself. i know, it wasnt right. but enough of the sarcasm, enough of just saying but not helping. all these while, i've kept quiet and just take whatever he said of me. but that night, it was pretty bad. and the same night, my parents fought and mum went out of the hse at blardy 1.30 am, something which she's never done before.
and it was the first time too, that my 15 year old brother actually knocked some sense to me. a 15 year old boy, scolding a 19 year old girl. whatever he said was true, i'd admit that. it hurts but, it was true.
and for the first time too, abang zaid actually scolded me when he read my brother's msg.
and i had to, dye my hair black again, and try my very best to get my parents' trust again, and just be my parent's little girl again.
he gave me the money to dye my hair black again.
and when i dyed my hair black again, miraculously, my parents were nice to me. imagine what colors does to your life aye? haha. corny.
what i'm trying to get at is, i'm definitely hating the fact that my hair is black. hating it to the core. but, in order to get my parent's attention and trust, i have to give in.
i never liked to give in. i hate giving in. my ego would not have allow me to give in. but i did.
and this, i learnt, giving in does not mean that i lost. it gave my parent's attention back to me.
DearGod,i've sinned again.
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