fucked up

generally, i'm a patient person.
and i try not to be emotional because all these while, i've considered myself to be a thinker and not a feeler, and everything should have a rational explanation.

but these few days, i've just been pushed so hard that i just feel so down and stressed and useless. and i cried myself to sleep yesterday. it made me feel better, yes, but just a bit and the hurt is just so intense. i just couldnt stop myself from feeling the way that i'm feeling.

first of all,
my handphone bill is still not paid. yes, athousandfivehundred all in all. and i'm freaking broke.

secondly,
i'm feeling the stress in school. i can't stand finance and banking. i hate it like so much. i can deal with the other modules but this, it just sucks.

thirdly,
ahh well. we don't need to dwell in this third matter.

i don't know whether it's just me. or the situation that i'm in.

thank goodness i met Sandy Bobandy just now and i just told her whatever that was troubling me coz she knows me and how my temperaments are. felt kinda better after talking.
Well, at least i know, even though we don't meet that often, we're still as close as ever.
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i love sandybobandy. =)

siggh.

should i just voice it out? but the thing is, i don't want to make it seem as if i'm finding faults. but if i don't then, it will just go on and on and on.

i'm really not in a good mood today. and i think it's gonna last the whole day. plus, i'm gonna have FYP meeting before training. thats gonna add in to the bad mood.

and when it comes to training, that's where all the accumulated bad mood will be at. and plus, haizz.. takmo cakap lah. the more stress i'll be.