moving too fast

gosh, my life is a whirlwind.

i think that i'm moving way too fast, starting school in like, 3 days. ok, 2 days in fact. new class, new people, new modules. haiz.

yesterday, i met with my troubled niece. and i realised that we have so many in common. and well, i adviced her, though i thought i wasn't fit to even advice her coz i'm not perfect myself. she's 14 btw, adolescent i suppose. but, well, i guess, i've gone through a lot in life, so, i should, and might as well advice her. hah. and a lot of secrets were revealed. heh.

oh so, Aky asked me if i wanted to join him for a project. huhu. NAAAAK. But, i dunno if i'm qualified enough. Stakat awok2 and tulis lyric okeh ah. Buat lagu? JANGAN HARAP. Beats? MAMPOS. hahaha. but we'll see how.

Okay,

Recently, me and a friend at work were talking about how, people in sentosa have scandals and stuff. yeh, well.. i feel so sinful that i have this uber crush on a married man. nyahhhh. crappy kan. oh well.. maybe, because, he looks a lil bit like abang arman, which i have a crush since forever.

so abang arman looks geeky in this pic. but, haha. i love geeks, rmb. ok corny. haha.

but then, haiz.. i dunno lah eh. this married man, is of course, songsang jugak. huhu. but, oh well. i dunno lah. maybe just a passing infatuation i guess. just go with the flow jer walaupun today i was supposed to meet him to drink. but, none of us contacted each other so, haha. buat bodoh jer la. besok pun jumpe jugak wad at work.

But the one i reaaaally want is the guy in the pic there. aaaaargh. that selambarish face and that cool aura surrounding him just melts me. huuuu.

ok blah3...

so, the ex-bf found out that i am smoking again. heck la.. it shouldn't be any of his concern. since, he moved on, i should move on too and, I ALREADY HAVE. it's just that incident about the chalet which pissed me off and made me realise things, which i should have realise a long time ago. ah well.. the past is the past and i shouldnt be dwelling in it anymore.

i want a MAN. a MAN i say. not a BOY.
HE is a Man. But HE is married. ouhh geee.
but the other MAN, who's melting my heart, arrh.. where is he..?