Chemo Cycle 2

I'm on to my 5th and final day of my consolidation chemotherapy.

It is not as bad as the first one. I was in the hospital from 02.02.16-28.03.2016. - exclude 4 days i was granted home leave. That was almost 2 months of hospitalisation. 1.5 months of being in cold isolation room.

Ohh how i suffered. Really. It was the toughest phase in my life ever. The chemo side effects played such a big part. There was nausea, vomitting, ulcer, diarrhoea, no appetite and the worst of it all, fever.

When someone with leukemia receives chemotherapy in the induction phase, we lose our good blood cells + the cancer cells. Therefore immune system = 0. So i couldnt go out of the isolation room.

And maybe i was in an aircon room so when i had fever, the cold was magnified. I started shivering. I had fever for like 3 times a day. I had to use up to 7 blankets on me till i suffocated for a bit.

There was once when my fever went up to 40°C. That was the worst. Thanks to Allah, i actually called Hafiz to ask him to come over as soon as possible because i was alone and i was seriously feeling cold. When he got to the room, i was having the worst kind of cold there was and cried so hard. That's when the nurse took my temperature and it was 40°. They did so many things. Antibiotics, hot pack, hot water bottle, layers and layers of blankets. I can't rmb much then I was too weak. They were scurrying in and out to help me with the fever. I was so thankful that they managed to reduce the fever and stop the shivering.

My appetite was the worst then. I couldn't even smell food, let alone eat. I could only manage cream crackers and milo on most days. I lost a total of 12Kgs.

And last but not least.

Of course i lost my hair. I cried. I've never seen myself botak before. Now i think i'm quite used to it.

Well, for memories' sake. I'm gonna upload photos here. I dont find them embarassing or anything. Cancer is real. It is a battle. To upload this photos mean that i am fighting this battle.

I am very thankful. Allah gave me this sickness to show me the way to Him again. On days when i am totally alone, He was The One who heard my crying and saw my tears. I know that I am not alone.