pics, pics and more pics.

Firstly, Happy Belated 14th Years Old to my Bro SHAFIKKI. LOL. Shafiq lah.

Dah besar boboy. LOL.

So yesterday went to Changi and Geylang and reached home like, at 1 am. And i haven't sleep till now. Ok, maybe i did lah in class. LOL.

So today, was in the same team as the Girls. =)

and dis was what happend.

Hahaha.. Like nothing to do seyyy.. And i was like, step hairdresser manerr jerr.. Hahaha..

Then, we cam-whored.

Presenting...

FACILITATION ROOM E24K.

The Girls.

This is our working space.

Messy ehhh..

Then today after school, thought of going to watch movie. So i asked Daniel ah. Then, the most fucked up thing happend. My parents called and asked me where i was. Then i said i was going to Vivo City la. Then they said, okay, meet you at Harbourfront, buka together.

i was like, WTF!!!!

and Dan reached Vivo City already sey. Pity him arrr. Took cab there. URGGHH. Why do they always have to do that?? URGH.

So then went around Vivo City.

i can't get enuff of Vivo City. NYEEHHH.

DANIEL!!! I'M SOOO SORRYYYY.

headspin

and so, it's my brother's 14th birthday today and what did we do?

clean the house.
*yawns*

after work ytd, Me, Limei, Louis and Melissa went to Harbourfront to eat at Food Junction. Then Melissa went off with her friends and Me, Limei and Louis went to VIVO City to look for my bro's present.

And Louis, idiot.. He didnt want to go to Vivo but then, when we reached there, he was the one who was sooo excited about the shops.. Went to Crocodile and he spent like, $115 on 2 shirts. Wahlao ehh.. Can cry siaa if i spend that kind of money on 2 shirts. But it was Crocodile and it was nice laa. And Vivo City is like, a shopper's paradise. Everything is there! Not too mention that their Banquet has nice tomyam! ARRRGHHH.

And so i didn't know what to buy for my bro.

We ended up going rounds and rounds. Till we came to Converse and i finally bought him a nice Sling Bag for $39.90.

Then reached home about 11 like that. Flat siaa. So tired.

Work was like, helll.. I felt like i was I/C ytd coz Viknas didnt do anything much. And i had to do Dolphin Lagoon thrice and had to do the traffic coz the rest didnt had their walkies with them.

Still tired. Bad headache man. Sigh..

Well, if you can see my msn nick, it says:

`ĊħĭĊķă ™ .::candle::. [[if that's the way you wanna be, i'll take my leave then]]

YES. I AM TAKING MY LEAVE. I am so sick and tired of having to be the one you turned to but you never realise that i really care. Gee. You want it to be that way. Then fine, i'll take my leave.

adios.

Iftar 2006

Yes, finally.. Iftar 2006 is over and done with.. I was one of the photographers today so, yeah.. i have some pics with me, waiting to be sent to Zul to be uploaded to MCG Sharepoint. These are the only pics with my face on it. LOL.

can you believe it?

of 70 over pics, only these few has me in it.. lol..

saw a couple of people i know from other school. like Taufik aka Mat Tau, Nizam, Isyak.. And i think Hawanis was there.. ahakz.. The ITQAN people.. I was running around and wasn't at the place to eat so, i didnt know who was there and who wasn't...

ok whatever. i think my area is haunted. no, like seriously. the road, like i don't know how many accidents there are and it's like, at the exact same place.. twice, car knocked down pri sch kids. and once, a lorry knocked down a man. exact same place. it's like as if someone push them or something.

gee. strange..

ouhh. maybe it's because of Friday the 13th. hahaha.. i'm bullshitting.

my brother's got an accoustic guitar for his birthday. gee. when am i gonna get something that expensive? lol.. i think because for him, at least he knows what he wants.. so my parents can buy for him.. i never know what i want so my parents also anyhow la buy for me.. hmmm... 2nd dec okeh.. remember eh.. hahaha..

tomorrow work at 10. wanna sleep already.

peace out.

Geylang.

ah yes. finally done with editing of the Geylang pics coz the pics were too dark and huge.

met Jalilah at Marsiling MRT Station then we went to Dover to wait for Nouru. We were at the platform towards Paya Lebar and then we saw Nouru's guy classmates. lol. That guy. Disgusting.

So anyways, we took the train and sat down and just caught up. And we were talking about Huda's engagement and talked about Mai losing weight when, Nouru said about Siti Nurhaliza. And i was like, "EH, you guys know, there's a kueh datok k.."

And it's called, 'KUEH DATUK K BERSALUT CHOCOLATE"
read: Kueh Chocolate Coated Datok K.

ROFL.

Me and Nouru were laughing like, non-stop. Jal maintain. I think we laughed from City Hall all the way to Aljuneid or something. Haha.. And i was like, "bapak aku ckp..." like so many times coz everytime i say it, i saw Nouru's face and i started laughing again. haha.. It was so funny.

Dunno how long i havent laugh like that.

So then, we reached Geylang, jalan2 and bought food and we headed to the normal place which i always buka with Kak Diana. And we camwhored. =))

So after buka, we went off..

Jalan2 around Geylang.. Saw a couple of kebayas.. Nice laaaaa... I want!! But i wanna wait for my mum to buy it with me.

So anyways, after that we got tired and went back.. At the MRT Stn...

FAV OIII!! I like that pic!!!

Then in the train...

LOL. All act cute and emo pics sey. Haha.. Macam paham lor all of us. Hahaha.

That was like, zeeee best secondary schoolmates gathering i have ever had!! =)) Too bad Ridzuwan couldn't join us.. If not, i think it'll be more fun.. Really. =)) I totally forgot when was the last time i had that kind of fun.. =) Like Nouru said, we had funS. HAHA.

ME AND JALILAH aka MissBlurtink.

ME AND MD NOOR aka FUJIHARA NOURU.

My Best Mates. <3


So Long and Good Night

it's always been you.

LOL.

Syasya went to take my first line. I wanted to put, *sesungguhnya aku sedang berpuasa*, den i left my blog for a few hours unupdated only with that line. Then at 12 plus, went to her blog, den she went to put that line. LOLZ. and she was sitting at the other side of the room. Hahaha..

But then, i can't say that anymore because i'm not fasting.

i was so angry and so mad and so upset with HIM that i went to the block opposite the school to smoke with Farah. 3 sticks one after the other.

i was close to tears when i typed what i wanted to say to him. it just hurts so bad when he said what he said this morning in the sms.

the discrimination is getting worse on me. about me and abang. and of all people, i expected him to understand. why issit so difficult for you to understand that you are the one that has been in my heart all along?

i find it weird when my friends discriminate me and him and my mum's okay with it. And so are my colleagues. Had a talk with Farah while smoking and we talked about the issue of girls our age dating older guys. not that i'm dating abang man, but yea, like, very close.. and she understood. =) talked to Linda in the morning about it also, and she understood too.. yeah.. so at least, not everyone is against me.

ok. will update about Geylang with bestest mates tonight or tmr. =)

Ramadhan Challenges

So, in another episode of My Life, A Drama.

Work was horrible yesterday. Massive congestions, taxis, buses, cars, mindless people can lead to: A COMPLAIN.

well, what's new right? I pity Faiz and Jimmy. They might be suspended. Who knows? So, after work and buka, I helped them type down their reports at the office while they were still working.

Started off with Jimmy's report. Think it was quite well done, especially when i haven't done report-writing for a while.

while typing, i heard Abang's voice outside. Gawd. I screamed from inside the office. Lolz. Haven't talked to him the whole day. And he came in and sat with me for awhile and went outside to have his break.

Then, when i finished with Jimmy's report, went outside coz i thought someone's gonna fetch me so i rushed lah. Saw Faiz's Sampoerna. I took it.

Then sat beside Abang. I guess everyone knows how close we are.

I called the someone but he never pick up. Msg him also he never reply. Heck lah. Cik Jamilah came and i helped her with her report. Then, helped with Faiz's report. They needed my help coz they said i have fast fingers. Lol.

Left Sentosa around 10. By the time i gave up. Went home with Cik Jamilah, Jimmy, Tian Chan, Faiz and Khairul. But Khairul went to Punggol then the rest of us went to the EW line. And we made loads of noise. Haha..

I love my marshals.

Then at night, i received a voicemail from the guy who wants me to be his gf. He said *blahhh3...*. So i guess, i didn't really wanted him to wait for me. So i told him that i didnt want a relationship now and blah3..

And guess what?

HE BLEW UP.

DUDE, FACE IT OKAY. I DO NOT WANT A RELATIONSHIP. ACCEPT THE FACT!!!

and he told me to delete his number, delete his msn and friendster. I did.

and he said this..

"Happy kan? Dah gi jauh2.. jgn tanye diri u yg u tak saketkn hati me. Lain kali kalau kenal dgn org lain, saketkan hati dorg jgn lupe. Me bangge dgn u ah"

wtf.

and blah3. i fell asleep. and woke up this morning wif 4 unread msges. 2 from Pirlo, 1 from him and 1 from the someone.

He said, "Dah la. U kan perfect tak mcm me. Bye"

GEE. THANKS AH EH.

I've said what i wanted to say to you, so freak out from my life okay! I dun wanna care anymore. It's my life and my feelings and if i don't wanna give it to you, IT'S MY BLARDY problem! THANK GOODNESS i listened to my mum's advices and i didnt accept you. Thank you mummy dearest.

Be gone.

And today, someone msged me. I guess he's having his depression once again. And then he talked about friendship and he don't mind if he loses friends.

GEE.

EH HELLO. I just argued with your friend yesterday and you are doing this to me.

Please, i really cherish you as a friend. If not, i don't think our friendship can last this long. 10 months of friendship with someone i know from a website is unusual okay. I really care for you as a friend and i will help you no matter what. you know i will.

Abang called me just now and we talked for a while and i went back to sleep.

Woke up then went online. I AM SO TOTALLY CRANKY AND NOT IN THE MOOD.

And to that someone,

i know you're reading this. i don't blame them for turning sarcastic on you. now i am turning sarcastic on you too.

look, stop telling me who i can be with and who i can't. First Irfan, now Abang Man. Stop it okay. If my mum doesnt mind me going out with Abang Man, what gives you the right to? So what he's 40 years old? At least he does not go overboard in caring for me like you do. He doesnt tell me that i can't mix around with whoever i want to, or not to do this or do that. Coz he lets me be MYSELF.

Don't freaking talk to me that i'm for his money. I can make my own money thank you very much.

DON'T ever criticize any of my friends or loved ones. This is what you get.

I'm happy with the people in my life. I don't need new ones. The people in my life, my mum, my family, kak diana, amy thabri, abang man, my sentosa drivers and my marshals, nouru, jalilah, wan, sandy, sid, george, wan chik, kecik and those who holds good friendship with me.

and yes, i'm egoistic. it's for my own good.

my life. a soap drama.

i know i'm not doing much today in class.

but i'm still stressed up.

and my eyes hurt. either my sleepiness or because i've been crying too much last night. goodness!!

sometimes, i think.. God is being so incredibly unfair to me. The one i love, he turned away, and the one, i'm totally not interested in, is hopelessly all over me.

i'm in dire state of confusion. i do do not want this to happen nor i wish it would happen. but it did. and like it or not, i have to come up with an answer which, i can't think of right now. it's hopeless. i just can't think of anything to come up with.

it has never been you like how it's always been me for you.

i'm sorry you felt disheartened when i went there with him and you were there with them.
i'm sorry for all the things you heard about me and him.
i'm sorry that u've never been noticed all these while.
coz to me there's only him.
he's my world.

and i'm also sorry that i said i've forgotten about him.
coz i haven't.
and i don't intend to.

my life, a drama.
you, me, him.

you love me.
i love him.
and he loves her.

how much of a confusion can that be?

if it's something about me which i hate, i am soft-hearted. i have difficulty refusing people. be it help or advises. and i'm scared that i'll make the wrong choice.

it doesn't hurt to love. but to love doesnt mean to possess.

i love him. and i'm happier with the way things are with me and him, as friends. as long as i see him happy, it makes me happy.

i'm binded by a lot of people, you have no idea. no one has any idea.

Dear God,

Please help me make the right choice. Guide me to the right path in life.

Please.

of love, fate and destiny.

i'm chatting with Tian Chan now..

And i can see myself and JJ in his relationship. Like, i mean, he has this girlfriend who really loves him and he loves her too. but it just so happens that her mum is strict.

sounds familiar?

hahs. yea.. been there done that..

one thing that i've learnt from that relationship was not to go against parents. coz fate will never side you if you go against your parents.

so you may seem that you're ever so confident that the person you're going out with is gonna be The One for you. But you forget, that the Supreme Being is the one who decides everything. you think that The One is The One you're gonna marry. But if He decides that it's not. or if Fate decides that you're destined to be with another, then, the storyline changes.

i've gone through quite a lot in life to know what is right and what is wrong. of course, as human beings, sometimes, we find it hard for us to refrain ourselves from doing the wrong things. but, for me, i am trying very hard to change what i've done in the past.

of love, all i can say is that, i am still young. at 18, i just don't see myself as someone's wife. that's the point of a relationship ain't it. to develop it into a marriage. and honestly, i'm not looking into a marriage anytime soon.

and you should think, what's the point of getting into a relationship now when you know that that person is not gonna be the one for you? so why trouble yourself with the heartache?

and, i remember one thing Abang Azri used to tell me.

Your relationship isnt going to last when you don't have blessings from your parents or when your parents are against the relationship.

Take it from him.

He found his first love at 10 years old and he married her at the age of 22. Still, their parents disapproved of them. His parents disapproved of her. Her parents disapproved of him.

They had their first child at 24. Still, the parents disapproved of the marriage. At age 34, they divorced. But they still loved each other. Because, they had to divorce because of the constant poking and provokations by their parents till they can't stand it anymore. wasted.

so the point i'm trying to make, is that, without parental blessings, a relationship won't last, no matter how hard you fight for it.

take it from me. i've learnt a lot from my past mistakes.

and like i've always said..

"i don't believe in love as much as i believe in fate."

If you believe in fate, it will make you strong. Like, for example, you believe that you love this guy/girl sooo much. but in the end, you guys break up. but to you, it's okay. because you know your fate is not with him/her. you're not destined to be together.

and that your fate is with someone else. and you believe that and that is what makes you positive and strong.

like me. heh.

coz for me, i believe that there is someone out there for me. but it's just a matter of time before i meet him/her.(HAHAHA. jk.) okay.. just a matter of time before i meet HIM. And i don't have to go around looking for him coz i know he will be looking for me too, so why should i waste time looking? That said, we shouldn't be too slackish and should put in effort too. make sense?

Love is just a facade. It can be a beauty or a horror.

it's up to you to judge.

if you think that you cant handle the hurt and the pain, then don't fall in love. its that easy.

then i was chatting with my ex Farizan last night.

he said he found it hard to find someone who can fit in to his schedule.

gee. and my answer to him was...

"let's say u have someone, but you dun have the time for her, not only will u hurt yourself.. u're gonna hurt her also"

see. tell me it's true. yeah it's true! lolz.

that's also partly the reason why i choose to be single. i don't have the time for a relationship. if i'm busy and i'm in a relationship, (like when i was wif JJ), not only will i be hurting myself.. but i will hurt my partner as well..

so, get my drift?

love and being in a relationship are not the most important things in the world.

making money is. =)

booyah.

lolz. the classroom dustbin is full of tissues. and who's to be blame?

yeah me.

my neverending flu is becoming worse due to the sudden cold temperature in the class. urgh.. it's so irritating. and not to mention that my tummy roars in hunger. okay, so it's my first day fasting in school. bahh. feel like not fasting coz of this stupid flu and cough. but, i'll try to tahan as long as i can.

just hope i don't collapse.

lolz.

so cold and hungry can??

RAAAA. makes me sound like some refugee. lolz.

i am so blanked.

LOL. My HUMPS. on my player. LIKE, that is sooo R&J. Romeo and Juliet RP version. Lol. With the oh-so-*fill in the blanks* Cleo.


And Pump It. LOL. So R&J.

Okays. Sungguh keboringan. LOL. i'm typing too much lol.

i am single. but i don't feel that i am.

in a way, there will always be some guy who tries to control me, which, i totally hate - being controlled. and, furthermore, he's not my guy.

firstly, if you feel that i'm shooting you, well, it may be you. if not, it may not be you.

i know that people care about me and don't want other people to take advantage of me and stuff. but then, by restricting me won't make me any happier. look, i know how to take care of myself and if i'm hurt by them, then let me handle it.. jeepers.

i am strong-willed. i am determined and i'm not emotionally weak. you don't have to treat me as if i can't take care of myself. i can do it better than you.

so, leave me alone.

urgh.

Dee punye degil.

Stubborn.

Now, it's not just cough, flu and sore throat. it adds on. i've fever and headache now. geez. thanks ah eh.

and i'm still fasting. mum told me to go and take some medicine but i didnt. argh. heck lah.

gawd.. i hate the haze.

i miss abang.

SICK

i'm SICK of being SICK.

why am i such a SICKly child. i get SICK every few months. Isn't that just so SICK?

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fyi.

ChiCka has become lazy and she's even lazier to update her blog these few days.
ChiCka has some personal issues.
ChiCka has guyS issues.

ChiCka has been MISUNDERSTOOD.

ok. what have i been doing so far?

ooh. okay. Friday, went to Kampung Glam with Kak Diana. And it was soo freaking BORING. We went in and came out 5 mins later. really. And i saw Syed, the tour guide who used to work at Fort/Ticketing at Sentosa. He also said that it was soooo boring. Don't bother yourselves going there.

Then after that, we went to Geylang, which is like, 387274104608147 times better than KampungGlam. Saw a couple of people i know. And, i saw a REBANA and ANAK which cost $300 altogether. ZUL!!! I WANT THAT ONE!! lolz.

ok i got pics for that night.

oooohh i love my cuzzie~!! we're like best friends. finish each other's sentences and think alike. love ya loads!!

ok then, yesterday, started work at 10 am and stationed at VAC. The whole day, it rained like heckk. and it was so freaking cold. And Cik Jamilah called me and asked if i can work till night. So i was like, okay lah. Since i was gonna meet Amy at 9 plus.

So at night was stationed at Ferry. Like, no way am i gonna stay at VDC and see Viknas' face. He underpaid me. URGH. And stil can bodek me that i'm his best worker and etc. That's what he is what. Balls carrier.

So after work, i met Amy at the interchange's control stn. And we went to Geylang to meet my mum. Den my mum jalan2 wif my grandma den i jln2 wif him. Gosh. We were so worried sia coz of a few things that happend the night before. But luckily nothing happend. Thank God!

I was supposed to go back by lorry with my mum and the maternal side. But i was so worried for Amy that i decided to follow him all the way to his bike. Then he searched for his keys den couldnt find it. Den i checked my bag, and the keys dropped from the newspaper that he told me to keep. Luckily i followed him. If i didnt, confirm member cant go back home. Hahaha. So then, i went to meet my mum.

then today work, i was at Imbiah Lookout. Was okay lah. And then, at 3 plus, Abang Man dtg!!! I was sooo happy! I don't know why. Happy to see him.. Hehe.. Sayang abg! I'll talk about Abg Man later. Then, me and Tian Chan were so sleepy so i went to Coffee Bean, only to see Fir Pirlo there. So i told him i was sleepy and i wanted a coffee that can really make me awake but i only had $4.70 wif me. And, it was kinda nice of him to put it on the house. =)

So then, me and Tian Chan went to VAC after work and we were about to leave when i had the feeling that i wanted to meet Abang. Like, suddenly miss him giler babi. haha. Lame sia Dee. So we went out of the bus and waited for Abang. Lolz.

One week of not meeting Abg sey. So i better meet him now lah. And anyway, if you guys don't know, Abg Man is actually older than my mum. Wouldnt say how old he exactly is but he 20-plus-ish older than me. My mum kinda freaked also lah when she found out that i was so damn close wif him. but dunno lei, i don't seem to mind.

AND. Last night he saw me holding Amy's helmet. Then i told him la i going out with Amy. Then today he asked me where we went and i said Geylang uh. Then he said.. "No more eh.." hmmm. Don't tell me he jealous siaa.. I mean, all these while, i only tumpang his bike. Then.. HMM. Dunno laaah.

Then i went back with Tian Chan and Cik Jamilah. Only to be left by Cik Jamilah at Outram Park coz she went in first wif all the banglas. And then, me and Tian Chan got left out. Ahakz. Then i told Tian Chan, i'm so not used to going back from work by train. Coz usually either my mum will pick me up or Abang Man will send me back.

Then Tian Chan said, "They pamper you too much.."

Me? Being pampered?? Hrmmm. I know i'm very pampered with Abang Man but not my parents ahh. And i realise that the drivers also pamper me too. But i dunno le. It's just me i guess, being pampered and stuff. Haiiya..

Anyway, last night, at Ferry Terminal while waiting for the crowd to come out, i called Md Nor and we talked. Haiz. I kinda miss him lah. Then at 4 plus, Astroboy called me. Then talked for a while then Md Nor msged me. Haaaaiz.

That aside,

To Sandy:

i love you too my bitch. but let's face it, there's no more us anymore. ok. maybe us, wifout you-noe-who. but like you said, mayb all of us were caught in our new life that we actually forgot to spare time for the old pals.

TAG REPLIES.

SaNdy
i miss you my bitch~
ChiCka:
i miss you too bitch.

Mud LPB
u said that memories hurt.but u urself most of thetimes tink abt memories...
ChiCka:
yes, i do think of memories. but at least i'm strong enuff to face my hurt and get on with my life.

Nouru
Haish...Life is full of -4stars- things huh?
ChiCka:
Ouhh yes. the -4stars- things. urgh. it's never gonna end.

diana_vanderh
thanks for the chill. wealways have fun. n ya, acicurl says hi! ;p
ChiCka:
No probs darling. yes, we always have fun together. awww. say hi to acicurl and acioi for me. =)

'SHACUTE
Heyh0! Saya Bloghopped.Super Nice Pichas. I LoveYour Smile, Heh. The Song,POWER Laaa. Take Care*<3
ChiCka:
Hey awak~! Ahaaha.. Thankieew. Alerrmak. Power Langsung beb!

Meow___*// Mira
greetings...wus juzblogghopping...kewlskin...linkk me yaa...tcshweets....ciowz x))
ChiCka:
heyloz~ thanks~ i've linked you up.. u tkcre too~ =)

lin
oits. i agree with u abtthe web application codes.seriously heart-wrenchingsia doing it. hurhur
ChiCka:
GAWD! TELL ME ABOUT IT. web app SUCKS.

mizz rai
DEEEE!! bumped into you deother time, lehh. ahaha!!mish you laa!! ehh,anything, update me horr,it might be my lastperformance alr for srydylaila.
ChiCka:
RAIIIII! HEH. i miss you too babe~ ahakz.. dun wry.. i will update you. ASAL EHH!! ALAAAA.

SaNdy
y cannot b anymore us ? I mSTILL here nor... (=
ChiCka:
Coz US as in 6 of US died. there's no more spirit.

till then.