it's always been you.

LOL.

Syasya went to take my first line. I wanted to put, *sesungguhnya aku sedang berpuasa*, den i left my blog for a few hours unupdated only with that line. Then at 12 plus, went to her blog, den she went to put that line. LOLZ. and she was sitting at the other side of the room. Hahaha..

But then, i can't say that anymore because i'm not fasting.

i was so angry and so mad and so upset with HIM that i went to the block opposite the school to smoke with Farah. 3 sticks one after the other.

i was close to tears when i typed what i wanted to say to him. it just hurts so bad when he said what he said this morning in the sms.

the discrimination is getting worse on me. about me and abang. and of all people, i expected him to understand. why issit so difficult for you to understand that you are the one that has been in my heart all along?

i find it weird when my friends discriminate me and him and my mum's okay with it. And so are my colleagues. Had a talk with Farah while smoking and we talked about the issue of girls our age dating older guys. not that i'm dating abang man, but yea, like, very close.. and she understood. =) talked to Linda in the morning about it also, and she understood too.. yeah.. so at least, not everyone is against me.

ok. will update about Geylang with bestest mates tonight or tmr. =)