my life. a soap drama.

i know i'm not doing much today in class.

but i'm still stressed up.

and my eyes hurt. either my sleepiness or because i've been crying too much last night. goodness!!

sometimes, i think.. God is being so incredibly unfair to me. The one i love, he turned away, and the one, i'm totally not interested in, is hopelessly all over me.

i'm in dire state of confusion. i do do not want this to happen nor i wish it would happen. but it did. and like it or not, i have to come up with an answer which, i can't think of right now. it's hopeless. i just can't think of anything to come up with.

it has never been you like how it's always been me for you.

i'm sorry you felt disheartened when i went there with him and you were there with them.
i'm sorry for all the things you heard about me and him.
i'm sorry that u've never been noticed all these while.
coz to me there's only him.
he's my world.

and i'm also sorry that i said i've forgotten about him.
coz i haven't.
and i don't intend to.

my life, a drama.
you, me, him.

you love me.
i love him.
and he loves her.

how much of a confusion can that be?

if it's something about me which i hate, i am soft-hearted. i have difficulty refusing people. be it help or advises. and i'm scared that i'll make the wrong choice.

it doesn't hurt to love. but to love doesnt mean to possess.

i love him. and i'm happier with the way things are with me and him, as friends. as long as i see him happy, it makes me happy.

i'm binded by a lot of people, you have no idea. no one has any idea.

Dear God,

Please help me make the right choice. Guide me to the right path in life.

Please.