long post.

sheesh, i've been very very lazy to update my blog.
well, i'll just put in pictures for u guys to see.

29th aug.
morning went to hospital,
at night, went out with the sentosa peeps.
had dinner at ktm, as a farewell dinner for Hilmi who's going NS.
present:
PANTATS: me, skip, nisham, taufiq
KETIAKS: erul, ahmad, hilmi.
Others: wan, cik rosley, cik kadir, abang nazree, atie









the reason why the last pic was taken was:
THERE WAS A COCKROACH GOING AROUND THERE!

so yar,
kite segan dgn lipas.
=)

so we ended by going to Vivo to watch midnight movie,
dis happened when we wanted to decide for which movie.


when, my parents called and told me to go home.
geez.




so then, went home.

30th Aug,
haha. the day that we were so confident.
woke up at 10 by Wantin's phone call.
he asked if i wanted to go to MP with Ain (Harapan).
Then i was like, naaak.

okay la, we planned to meet at 2.45 den abang Zul picked us up at his block.
den, me and atie waited at the void deck so when Wantin came down,
he said, "korang, bad news. kite ditinggalkan"

haha. baek uh wantin.
went there by cab.
reached there, saw the CDM guys.
and guess what, they've performed!
BAEK UH. COMP STARTED AT 3 INSTEAD OF 4.

comp mendak uh.
but at least, get to see him, him and him. =)
cuci mata okeh.








so, went to buy this nice gladiator sandals at Bata.
went home.

31st Aug:
worked.
after work, went to eat at Sakae Siloso.
And it's not Sakae Sushi.
It's Sakae Izakaya.
And it's not very nice.

howells..









this one sedap giler. =)





after that, we went to Luge.



Then Weiling bought for me a Hot Chocolate. =)



and we took cab home.

HUHU. all in just 3 days.

drama-ing

it's my 501 blog post in this blog!!
finally made it to the 500 mark.

oh you know,
eversince a colleague has given me a website to watch movies,
i've been watching movies online eversince.

friendster, blog and tagged shoved aside.
huhu.

and today, my cousin has given me another website
to watch korean/taiwanese drama.
and of course, the first one i watched was..


METEOR GARDEN 1.

been watching it the whole day. =)
i likkkke.

and of course, this guy, Jerry Yan, is super hot and adorable.



i remember watching this drama when i was in sec sch.
and watching it again now, i love it still.
i teared while watching it.

haaaaaaaiz.

note to self: must reflect on the 500 posts already. hahaha

movie marathon

i am utterly bored today.

been watching online movies the whole day.
the first movie i watched was..



Definitely, Maybe.

and i loved it!
very heartwarming and romantic.

then, watched the 2 Princess Diaries movies.





yar, then after i can't seem to find a suitable movie to watch.
thought of watching The Hottie and The Nottie again.
But the loading sucks so, the equivalent would be She's All That.



somehow Freddie Prinze, Jr. reminded me of my supervisor Singh.
oh, Singh's a hotstuff btw, not they typical Singh-singh. =)

so yay, i think that would be last movie i'm gonna watch today.

i miss you too sweets.
more than you can ever imagine.
iloveyouarmanshah.

happyyyy

lols. i found the link to that post.
the one which had the incident which made my wrist like this.
happy reading.

http://deessleeze.blogspot.com/2007/09/sueyest-day.html

yar. so, today, i was supposed to take off the bandage.
and just let the waterproof plaster on the wrist.
but, i didnt dare to let it be like that.
coz, it's fugly.
and disgusting.

disgusting right?
sheesh!

howells,
so i went to training.
didn't want to actually but since, i was going out with the gfs,
i might as well bump in.
and i came in 15 mins before training ends.
lol.

then went out with the GFs!
ate at Banquet then made our way to town.


while waiting for Atie and Jay





after that, went to meet Kak Diana.
Yay. Like FINALLY!





Sometimes, i feel like i'm the naggy one when it comes to her.
hahaha.
but then again, there are some aspects which, she is wiser in,
and some aspects which i'm wiser in. =)

it's always fun to go out with her.
coz, by talking to her, it makes me realize things.
today, it made me realise that i'm a strong person,
and i don't have to depend on some people to be happy.
=)

my naggings not only work on her,
but to me as well.
and we always have that talk.

The Sagittarius Talk. =)

i read dis at a website.

"Cheerful and Positive
Sagittarians are extroverted, cheerful and optimistic. They believe that things will turn out well, and they trust much to luck. Not much gets them down and they usually rebound quickly from depression, illness or stressful life events. Most enjoy robust health and when they do experience medical problems, it is often the result of over-indulging and risk taking.

Risk Takers
Sagittarians are not prone to anxiety or worry unless the ascendant falls in a more anxiety-prone sign, which makes them natural risk takers. They are inclined to do things that are damaging to their health, or even take physical risks that can endanger their lives. Sagittarians leap before looking and land themselves in various scrapes. However, they have a last-minute luck that often saves them in the end, and they’ll turn around and do it all over again.

Exaggerated Need for Freedom
Sagittarians value freedom far above security. As a result, unless the ascendant falls in the sign of Cancer or one of the fixed signs, many don’t settle down in a relationship too easily. They find the majority of partners too clingy or restrictive, and even those who do settle down will look to the horizon with longing from time to time. This is not a domestic sign. When they do stay put, Sagittarians tend to be messy around the house and most are not particularly good cooks."

taken from: (http://astrological-sun-signs.suite101.com/article.cfm/sagittarius_personality_profile)

there are still some more points actually.
but it's a bit too long winded so, yar..
these are the points which i can relate to.
=)

so yep. =)
huhu

done

done with the surgery.

sheesh. nw i take at least half a min slower to type.
my right wrist is still numb.
my pinky is disfunctional at the moment.

oh man.
dis is taking a lot of energy.
oh well,
goodbye then.





gosh, it's 5.45pm.
my wrist is starting to lose its numbness.
and it freakinly hurts.
argh

18th August

my day ended good.
well, of course it would when i met these 2 angels.


Amirza


Amiran

they're such darlings.
happy okie that i finally met them after so long.
=)

just now after work,
went to the Ranger Station to wait for Abang Madi (peeehhhpusssi).
ahaha. inside joke.
saw him there.
he only saw me when i was in Abang Madi's car.
hurhur.

but tonight,
i miss this man alot.



he's off to KL.
=(

today

moved around a lot today.

went to my childhood friend's sister's wedding.
the deco was nice.
it feels like only yesterday that bof of us were kids.
ahakz, well, it's good to see her again anyways.



after that went to work and was late.
haha. well, stationed at Siloso Point.
Then Dolphin. Then Break. Dolphin. Break. SOS.
tsktsk.

But at least, i got to meet Jas and gang.
They came over to Sentosa to meet me.
Jas' girlfriend was utterly nice.
She's boisterous. I LIKE.
haha. i mean, easy to get along with.
and we share the same passion for trannys.
khekhe.

pics will do.







so yeah, that ended the day.

I thought of something intellectual to actually discuss in my blog.
But I forgot what it was.
So yar, pardon me.

I am after all, getting old.

flashback

perfect.
just perfect.
=)

i was reading my archives.
and i found this.
enjoy. =)

"everybody has a story to tell.
everybody has a secret about themselves.

names have been changed to protect the identity of the people involved. (yeah right)

this. is the story of this girl.

this girl has a history waaay back.

Dec 2005. She got to know this guy named Tabby, who works as a ranger at her workplace, while she was getting to know James. So when 2006 came, she met James and they became a couple.

One day, She was hospitalised. James didnt visit her. Tabby did. It was the first time they met each other but she realised that she enjoyed spending time with Tabby more than James.

As her relationship went on, she realised that, she was much much closer to Tabby than James and she began having feelings for Tabby.

She was hospitalised again. and again, Tabby was there.

After a while, her relationship with James deteriorated because of her busy-ness and also because of her parents. James asked for a breakup soon after. She went berserk. She went nuts. she cried. and she cried. and she cried non stop.

but Tabby came in. Tabby talked to her and cheered her up. along with her other friends and family members, they cheered her up and got her back her strength.

and then, Tabby was gone. she didnt know where he went. she missed him so much. and one day he got back to her. he was different. like suddenly he gave her hope. and he dashed it.

but she guessed, her feelings have been in too deep that she kept on loving him.

and one day, when he said he was madly in love with a girl she knew, she cried. and she cried again. she thought,

"Why can't he realise that i'm the one who has been loving him all these while? and why does he keep letting himself get hurt by other girls?"

but, because she loved him, and she wanted him to be happy, she stuck on to him as his good friend. she would advise him, give him strength and make him happy so that he can go on with his pursuit on that girl, since he believed that he really loved her.

one night, Tabby came over to her place and they decided to slack at the void deck. so she brought over her guitar and let Tabby play her guitar. and she teared. Tabby was hurt. She was certain of it. He looked angry but in fact, he was hurt.

At that time, it was hard for her too.

Her friend. His friend. Az told her that he loved her all these while and was pestering her to get into a relationship with him. But she couldn't bring herself to. She loved Tabby.

It was a confusing scene for her. Az loved her. She loved Tabby. Tabby loved the other girl.

She rejected Az but only to know that he made a rumor about her and told Tabby about it. 2 am, she received the meanest message from Tabby, saying good luck in her relationship. She was so fucked up. She tried all sorts of ways to get the message across that she wasnt attached.

and she said this to Tabby..

"why can't u realise that i'm the one who has been loving u all along?"

and he said.

"i don't know why until now, we can't be in a relationship"

she cried. it hurts her too bad. and she realised, thats it. it hurts too much.

so she fell silent. she didnt contact him anymore. it was for a few months, until he came online and told her that he was sack from his workplace.

and that was the end of them"

i think it's sad/romantic kinda story which i wrote, in February 2007.
the ranger and the marshal story dec 2005 to nov 2006
that was how long the whole affair was.

howells.
i can still remember clearly every single detail.

James and her became very good friends now.
Tabby is happily attached. =) good for him.
Az, urgh, i don't freaking wanna know.
the girl who Tabby used to like, i think she's still in NTU or maybe graduated.

so yeps.
that explains the graphic.

and the current situation that i'm in.

mixed feelings

i feel fucked up.

i wish the surgery was today so i could cry my heart out.
apparently it's gonna be next Tuesday.
thanks.

i dislike having animosity around me.
hypocrisy is worse.
and i've always thought,
knowing the truth hurts, but not knowing the truth hurts more.

howells,
i know it sounds cheesy or corny or whatever.
yeah i kinda realise where i stand, so yar.
so no point feeling the animosity right?

yeah, thought so.
just my 2 cents worth i guess.

ohhh who cares.



so yeah, went to the hospital when dear ol Abang Arman msged.
thought of going home with mum
but he asked if i had any plans today
and i said no.
so he said "wait there i come and fetch u."

okay lar.
so he came.
and he cut his hair!!
alah dah tak cute okay.
it's so weird seeing him short hair after yeaaaars seeing him with medium length hair.

along the way we talked.
he was telling he'd talk to his lawyer friend.
about my wrist case.
then of course, we went to the usual place.
hang out. chill.
of course, had lots of fun.
and he still likes my perfume. hahaha.

on the way home, he put on this therapy song ar.
those kinds where u'd listen at the spa.
huhu. felt good.

and we're planning to go on a one day Batam trip.
spa, seafood. home.
he still owes me a JB trip. haha.
dah tu, still can ajak me go to KL with his friends next week.
wth.

okay lar, on the way home,
talked and laughed fairly more than we usually did.
so he sent me home.

and here i am now,
with this bloody irritating pimple on my forehead.
and i rmbered what he told me just now,
"soak cloth in warm water, pressure at the area"

i tried and it worked lar.
a tiny bit. =)
hehheh. not bad.

so this month's chance is up.
let's wait for next month.

and i shouldn't forget what he told me to tell Abang Zaid.
yes, tonight then.

i know i can always count on him for things like this.
he has always been the guardian angel.
always popping up when i need someone.
as much as i have close guy friends,
no one can ever replace him.

he's always a dear in my heart.
he's always making me feel so strong.

thanks love,
even though u're always so busy,
once a month is sufficient for me.

=)

surgery!

stuck with this song lah ok.

so anyways, life has been, surprisingly okay.
it has always been that way.
minor setbacks.
mundane climax.
typical.

so tmr's the surgery.
damn. the sudden nauseous feeling bumps in.
and no, i do not think that it's gonna be like "less than a red ant's bite," Khalil.

the memories of the surgery back then were still distinct in my mind.
i still remember how i was jabbed.
and how the pain was excruciating.
it made me scream and cried like never before.

horrendous.
this was how it looked back then.



disgusting?
i can't imagine how it'll look tmr.
bear in mind, when i was stitched up then, the wound was open.
tmr, the surgeon would have to incision it.

crap. and all that when i'm awake?
i am utterly frighten i tell you.
i am so gonna cry my heart out.
and i so hope that they will put me to sleep first.
please please please.

wake me up when all is over.

emofied

it's been almost a week since i last posted something here.
it almost seems that this blog is redundant sometimes.
coz i never seem to know what is suitable to put in this blog.
howells.. let's just randomise everything yeah.

let's just say, life has been a rollercoaster ride.
there were ups.. and then there were downs.
i don't know whether i've gotten over the downside of life yet.
but i did manage to stay strong and moved on.

he was just being the asshole that he is.
'nuff said.

and when one left, another one came.
i'm not sure whether i am ready to talk about this one in this blog yet.
i just do not want to talk about someone, only to find out at the end of the day, he's leaving me all alone.
i'm already sick of that.

listen to this song.
sad uh.



Rela Setia: Didi Cazli

Termenung bila sendirian
mengunung seribu harapan
tak mampu ku melupakan
walau kian kehilangan

kerna ku terlalu ingin kan
untukmu riang berkekalan
rela ku berlalu
walau mungkin tak termampu

Selagi daya hatiku ini
akan tetap ku menyayangi
duka tiada ku peduli
bila rindu membelenggu

selagi nadi belum terhenti
ku buktikan cinta sejati
tak mungkin akan ku kesali
kerna hidup mu kian bererti

Tak mungkin mudah kau mengerti
tak ingin saling di lukai
kedaifan ini
menjadi penghalang sanubari

Selagi daya hatiku ini
akan tetap ku menyayangi
duka tiada ku peduli
bila rindu membelenggu

selagi nadi belum terhenti
ku buktikan cinta sejati
tak mungkin daku kesali
kerna hidup mu kian bererti

Rela ku terus setia
menyayangi mu
menyintai mu
walau berjauhan
teguh kalimah kasih ku

...

Rela ku terus setia
menyayangi mu
menyintai mu
walau berjauhan
teguh kalimah kasih ku

termenung bila sendirian
mengunung seribu harapan
moga kau mengerti
bila nadi ku terhenti

and just a little something.

you are lavenderblush #FFF0F5

Your dominant hues are red and magenta. You love doing your own thing and going on your own adventures, but there are close friends you know you just can't leave behind. You can influence others on days when you're patient, but most times you just want to go out, have fun, and do your own thing. Your saturation level is very low - you have better things to do than jump headfirst into every little project. You make sure your actions are going to really accomplish something before you start because you hate wasting energy making everyone else think you're working. Your outlook on life is very bright. You are sunny and optimistic about life and others find it very encouraging, but remember to tone it down if you sense irritation.

the spacefem.com html color quiz

weekends

i've had a long weekend.

after work on Saturday, met my brother at Harbourfront. We were supposed to watch that movie marathon thingy at Safra Mount Faber. Took cab there coz i thought we were already late. Only to find out that thing was only for Safra members. Lame lah sia.

The Lady offered us to wait ar. She'll squeeze us in. And i was like okay lar. When she said okay, and was about to register, i picked up the brochure and saw the movies they were screening. Lame sia. So, me and my bro just went off.

Took cab again to go in Sentosa. Naseb baik ade Khai, so can go in for free.

Met the Ketiaks, lepaked and went to Vivo to lepak.











pardon for the low quality pics. so anyways, was supposed to go watch Batman again but then, there was only one seat left so we scrapped the idea. Then me and my bro, we didnt know where to go. So we head in to Sentosa again.

Bought food, and went to sit at Palawan. Southernmost Point was gorgeous at night. The wind was great, stars were nice. and we talked and talked and smoked nonstop.

Get a hold of this. I bought the ciggy while waiting for the Ketiaks.
In one night, ALL 20 STICKS WERE FINISHED.
cb.

i fell asleep at 4.30 am like that. The bugger woke me up at 6.45. Aarggh.
This was the morning view.



then we packed up. We slept on the sand sia. Only had like jackets and whatnots to lie on. huhu.. We showered and went to the pantry to iron my costume.


while waiting for him to get ready.



While walking to the pantry, terserempak dgn si dektu. URGH FED UP.

so anyways, we went off to Seah Im to have breakfast. Talked again.. Laughed a lot.
Makan pratas and had teh halia.
And talked and laughed.
Ordered 2nd glass of teh halia.





Called Naj.
Naj called back ckp meet at 11 at TRCC. mampos. That time was like 9 plus already so then, hurried there uh. Part with the bro at Jurong East.

Dah tu, start uh being cranky for not enough sleep.






not forgetting NEK ROCK.
picture edit tak bagos sikit arh.



i was crap on the show.

LESSON NUMBER 1: IF THERE'S A SHOW OR COMPETITION, PLEASE JANGAN OVERNIGHT.

haiz.. nightmare sia. so anyways, didnt go school again today, slept till 5pm sia.
And now, i need my sleep again.
so good night.