Web Applications is killing me. PHP codes are worse than JAVA. Gosh i miss Derek's class. At least he makes me understand. Frank DOES NOT. He talks like a bullet train, and his voice is so booming that it has become an irritant to my ears. urgh. Now that Juita is gonna leave, MORE stress for me and Syasya. I dun wanna walk out of class lah.. I mean, i'm TRYING to be a good girl this sem. heh.
ok. let's put web aside.
last night, Amy came down to my place and we lepak2 at the void deck, listening to songs and he was smoking ah. I tried gulung but didnt like it. AH anyways, i'm trying to quit smoking ah. Like, really2 trying to.
So then, he wanted a guitar. So, i went up and took the guitar and we sang all sorts of songs, melayankan perasaan la katakan. It was fun ah..
And he told me what she said to him and my first thought was that, "confirm. he's really hurt like hell."
hais.
sometimes, i really don't understand. Like, why issit difficult for some people to just console themselves when they're hurt? Or why do they still hang on to memories?; when memories are the things that hurt you the most.
i really don't understand.
howells.
i've really given up hope on relationships. i mean, not that i'm looking for one, but, after him (not Jayjay), i seriously think that, no one can shut the ego in me. yes, i admit that i'm egoistic and stubborn. no one can shut me up except him. and yes, i respect him. coz he's not the typical jackass of a guy.
somehow, today, i'm feeling kinda depressed. aftermath of last night? maybe. with all the jiwang2 songs. haish.. i talked to Jas Harlequin last night before meeting Amy. And i said this, i'm happy with the people around me. I don't really need anyone new. With whoever i'm left with in this life, i'm happy.
Which, reminds me.
I read Sandy's blog about ex-bestfriends. Well.. i think you guys (and also, girls) should know who you people are. ex-bestfriends, it was nice while it lasted. but i guess the time has ended for us. we've met new friends, new people. i appreciate your presence. but there's no more us. can never be anymore 'us'.
and, i should really strike this pic out.
i guess, i'm a tad disappointed. but, well, life has to go on.
bye friends, hello strangers.
ouh. don't mind me, i'm still period-ing, and my temperaments are bad.
No comments:
Post a Comment