tired

dun ask me where i've been.
if you've read my schedule, you'll know that i have no time for anything else.

i've dedicated my holidays to WORK.
And soon will be meetings for IFTAR.

sometimes, i feel that i don't have a life.
it's always been Sentosa, Home, RP.
even if i'm out, he'll be chasing me to go back home early.
geez.

and, in case you guys don't know, i'll be repeating my Year 1 sem 2 module, Maths and Computing.
It's because of my poor attendance in Yr 2 sem 1.
sometimes i feel like quiting school too.
but of course, ridiculous.

Singapore Open has started.
For us i mean..
Sighness.

Been working for 5 days straight, and 5 more days to go.
No Off.
Shld be good right?
But i guess i'm just kinda tired dealing wif all these shit.

And being the senior is not helping much either.
sigh.

sometimes, i get disappointed.
i don't show it.
i'll never say it.
and you'll never know it.
it could be you.
or you.
or even you.

i like that person so much.
but i just feel like hating him.
and i have no idea why i like him too.
and i get pissed.
i know deep inside that i like him.
but i just don't want to admit it.
coz i know he disappoints me a lot.

but my mama said..
i will marry someone from Sentosa one day.
coz it's heriditary.

gawd the heartache.

i just don't wanna think about it.
not now.
not about love.
coz it hurts too much.

i'm just not ready yet.
my heart's not open to anyone.

for the time being, the only confidante i have, is Abang Man.
he's the one who've been wif me all these while.
call it, in the hiding.
i just don't feel like being in contact wif anyone at the moment.

i need my time alone.
hence, working.

no time for me so what makes you think i have the time for you