depressing.

i realise that most of my recent posts were depressing and about my depression.

there's just so many things that has been bothering my mind and it's so bottled up.
leanna.. where're you..

i feel that i'm gonna burst one day. i already did 2 nights ago and it made me late for work. i have never been so serious in my life. i feel that i'm changing. for better for worse? i don't know. i'm not the person i used to be. the person with strong determination and willpower. the person who doesnt know how to give up.

now, i'm just someone who gives up easily, breakdown easily and i'm a damn bloody weakling already.

fuck.

i want my ego, which is gone. somewhere.

he smsed me last night. i've got mixed feelings about it. i was happy that he msged. but i keep fearing that he wouldnt reply my msg. the fear and the happiness. its making me nuts. it was kinda slow.. but, hopefully, i get what i'm hoping for.





and i personally love this one the best.




i don't fall in love that easily.
but once i do, i fall really hard.