dikir-ing

ytd dikir was a success.

the girls were more than the guys. that, i'm happy about.
everyone's semangat. that's cool.
the instructors were great, that's cool too.
everyone had fun, that's the greatest thing.

yeah, could see that the ex-boyfriend had fun too.

suddenly, the confidence went low again. i know i have all the reasons to be confident. we have good manpower. good support from cikgu. good instructors.

but the problem is..

no one can change this fear. fear that what happend last year, might be repeated. i hate failure. the one most absolute thing which i would not condone. i don't want Dylz to die halfway like it did last time.

and the most important thing..

the biggest challenge is my emotions.

what more, with me being the rebanist, the frustration is going to mount. with ex-boyfriend being there, it gets harder for me.

i've never said that i'm going to forget you baby.
now, i really can't forget you.
i get jealous.
coz i iwant you all for myself.

i love you. i really do.