long post ahead.

the other day, someone cried because she couldn't handle the pressure and stress of the expectations that people had of her.

and, i saw myself in her.

over and over again, people have been expecting my service. everywhere. i broke down time and time again.

they need me in dikir.
they need me at work.
they fuckingly need me in fyp.
and,
i'm very very much needed at home.

honestly, till now, i have no idea how to handle all these. if i focus on one, the other 3 suffer. so, yeah. and the only thing i can do is to take a day at a time. and the best thing that i let myself do to me, is to have a mental block.

i don't know how i do it. whatever things that stresses me up, i'd block it from my mind and not think about it until it's needed and then, i will stress myself up wif the stress.

and the other best thing that my dad taught me was to never mix and match everything up. he said,

"problems at work, are problems at work. problems at home, are problems at home. you cannot bring problems at work to home, coz then people at home will be affected. vice versa."

as shown to that girl, the handphone, the key and wallet analogy.

chin up, aight kiddo. it's just part of being in poly life, which will prepare you for your working life. and please try to control the mood swings of yours. let you control it, not it control you, after all, you're the human, IT is just feelings.

the holidays ain't holidays at all.

Monday had FYP and Endang training for the next day show.
Tuesday had Show at Bukit Timah Primary then went home, changed and went out wif the family coz it was my brother's bday.
Wednesday, supposed to have FYP but overslept. went to Endang Khatulistiwa training.
Thursday worked at 10-5 then rushed to Bob's place at Tamp for KCC Show training.

Today supposed to go bf's place but he had to help Bob to carry the chairs for KCC Hari Raya show tmr. Going back in a while, watch Hikmah 3 then out again at 6.

life is a whirlwind. how do i slow it down? tell me. in one day, i've to rush in and out in and out. haiz..

but at least, this past week, i managed to spend time with my family. and i really2 miss my brother.



NIE BAPOK SUNDAL KU!

huhu. i'm done. go home and watch HIKMAH 3!

=)