whatevers

i wanted to cry when i read aky's post to his gf.
34th month anniversary pe. stay happy together alright aky and anisah. =)
best wishes you two.

and as for me, non stop tears each night. i can't believe that the day that i've been afraid of for so long has finally come. it's a nightmare. depressed over and over again. scared, time and time again.

tell me, what should i do to calm myself down. i don't wanna get over him. and that promise, i hope he keeps. i'm scared to go through the period again. that 4 months worth of wait, pain, hurt and sheer agony.

dear God, guide me through this period of my life.

let's just forget about this.

last saturday,went to work. and in the morning, abang madi, my ranger uncle, came over to talk to me and he said..

"rin.. budak ni nak kenal2 dgn kau."

and the new ranger guy was freaking embarrased. haha.. then at night, went to sit in the ranger truck then skali, Khai, Mansor and Hazri came.

and we went puffing at the corner of Beach Station. and Khai nye giler. keep singing and singing abeh i went on to 2nd fag and Hazri was like, eh... 2nd? and i was like stress la..
he asked, kenape eh?

and i was like, ditinggalkan kekasih.

and Khai, sang...

"KEKASIHHH TULIS NAMAKU DI DALAM DIARI HATIMU.."

and then...

"USAH BIARKU BERSENDIRIAAAAAN. USAH BIAR HATIMU DITAWAAAAN"

sial nye Khai.. ku dah sedih lagi nyanyi lagu gitu.

haiiz. but at least, heh.... =)