archives

i think, i'm okay already, surprisingly.
i mean, physically, i'm still unwell.
but, emotionally, i've been good.

everytime i feel like i'm at the crossroads,
i read my archives.

and then, i realise how i've grown from an adolescent,
to who i am now.
and certain things i wrote back then,
has helped me a lot in realising how strong i was back then.

from overcoming a two-timed relationship,
to getting over a relationship which was stolen by someone else,
to getting betrayed,
and lots more.

i have gone through so much in this past few years.
i wouldn't trade it for anything else in the world.

coz, these are the things which has made me to who i am now.

but the funny thing is,
when i read back on the posts,
sometimes, i don't know who i was referring to.

ahakz. selenge bacen.

and i've decided to copy and paste some stuff which i liked,
from my previous post.

dec 06, 2005:

"I've been egoistic. I'm forced to be that way. I dun want to be seen as weak. By being that way, i noe i've hurt u a lot. But it's nothing compared to the hurt u've given me in the past. I've been mean. But I have to be."

"U've been my motivation. But now, let ME by MY OWN motivator. Let me cure the pain in my heart and decide what i want in life."

sept 29, 2006:

"sometimes, i really don't understand. Like, why issit difficult for some people to just console themselves when they're hurt? Or why do they still hang on to memories?; when memories are the things that hurt you the most"

oct 05, 2006:

"so you may seem that you're ever so confident that the person you're going out with is gonna be The One for you. But you forget, that the Supreme Being is the one who decides everything. you think that The One is The One you're gonna marry. But if He decides that it's not. or if Fate decides that you're destined to be with another, then, the storyline changes."

"If you believe in fate, it will make you strong. Like, for example, you believe that you love this guy/girl sooo much. but in the end, you guys break up. but to you, it's okay. because you know your fate is not with him/her. you're not destined to be together."

"and that your fate is with someone else. and you believe that and that is what makes you positive and strong."

and my most favourite would be:

"i don't believe in love as much as i believe in fate."

yeap. that's all.
=)