updates.

sry for not updating. some matters of the heart's been bothering me recently. aniways, i'm back. so, lemme see wad did i do recently.. well, yeah, yesterday had a mini class outing wif Kelis, Jonathan, Yi Jin and Akram.

I thought we were supposed to meet at 10. hmph. but in the end, by 1005 only me and Kelis were at the Harbourfront Mrt Stn. Dengs.. Jon ya ya said dun be late and stuff and he purposely changed the meeting time to 1030. idiot.

so me and Kelis took a pic while waiting for the rest..

so, aniways, we went in free, thanks to me. haha. then went to Sunset Bay to slack. Then we swam and took pics..

These are from Kelis' phone..

okay then after that we took the double deck green line one round to the cable car..

and we went on the Luge..

see my colar bone.. it juts out. gosh.

and then we went to Images Of Singapore. And suddenly Jon's face started to change.. He has phobias of mannequins. And like, everyone's phobias started to come out. YiJin has a phobia of deep water, mine is phobia of drowning and Akram's phobia of heights. Kelis?? Haha.. She's OUR phobia. heh..

and after the sentosa trip, me, Jon n YiJin took cab back woodlands coz me and Jon had to go back to school. I had to go for Drama Rehearsal. And my character is: THE EMO SUICIDER!!

So yeah, i'll be having red lipliner to draw on my wrists to show that i slit my wrists and stuff lah. WHEEEE. I LIKE.

okeh.. if u can see my schedule, i'm pretty much busy. so, for those whom i havent been spending much time wif, i'm sorry but now is not the right time for me to hang out.

i havent been thinking abt myself as well. havent been eating well, havent been sleeping well. it's the time of they year when i'm overworked and overexhausted. everyday go back home late.. weekends work. pretty bad aye..

for those whom i havent been chatting on msn.. sorry coz sometimes i'm just too tired to chat. and sometimes, i wanna be alone too. especially now when i'm kinda confused and dunno wad's going on about things, i really can burst out any minute.

i'm kind of in a state of emotional unstableness. hah.. no lah.. i mean, it's not that bad lah but it's just that i dunn0 wad to feel sometimes.. angry? sad? dunno lah.. i noe most ppl can guess that i'm pretending the way i'm feeling. i hate my eyes sometimes.. they give my feelings away.

howells, i'm just keeping myself busy so that i wont have to think abt stuff.

ouh ya.. shit.. i owe Jal a date. erh.. postpone 2 more wks boleh? hahaha..

and dangs.. i'm supposed to tell abang man when i'm free so that he can take me to the skin doctor.. which i'm supposed to tell him like, 2 wks ago?

okeh. i think that's all.

toodles~

if you were my boyfriend. =)

some one actually bulletin-ed this on friendster. and i felt like doing it. haha.. ;p
and aniway, it might also work as a reflection for me as well.. well, these are my honestest answers okays.

how many times a day would you kiss me?
- if i could, i just wanna kiss you and give u pecks on the lips and cheek every single time.. but then, thing is.. i'm shyyy.. so i dun really kiss first.. haha..

how many times a day would you just want to hold me?
- LIKE EVERYTIME. but then again, i'm shy. so if u dun reach out ur hand, den i'll paiseh2.. den never hold you.

would you take me places?
- i tell you, we'll run out of places soon enuff. but baby, nth beats than watching the sunset wif ya.

would you love me?
- I WILL LOVE YOU. no denying abt that.

if we went out on a date would u have me pay for it?
- okay, well.. i cant really pay when we're on dates. that's why i always make that up wif gifts.

would you take me anywhere special?
- everyplace we go together will be considered special baby.

If I was sick... what would you do?
- i wouldnt care abt myself (even when i'm sick) and just accompany u to the doctor and check up on you just to make sure you're ok.

If one of my friends tried to get with you what would you do?
- not interested. Like HELLO. My BF is YOUR FRIEND. How dare you're trying to get wif me. Blardy heck..

would u tell me?
- tuff qn. if i tell you den u'll argue wif ur friend, if i dun tell you, it means i'm hiding stuff frm you. whoaa.. tuff seh. but noeing me, i wouldnt wanna hide things frm ya.

would u listen to all my problems and help me solve them?
- i would if u told me ur problems. Coz if u dun tell and i wouldnt noe and i couldnt listen to ur problems. wad's the point of me being ur gf if i cant help you wif your problems, right?

Would u introduce me to your mom/dad?
- Been there done that. I think.

Would you care about what i wore when we out ?
- Baby, u've got good fashion sense. I wouldnt worry abt it. If you wanna wear shorts and slippers and singlet, i wouldnt mind too. If u're topless, the better. =x hahaha.

Would you go to the Club with me?
- i woulddddd~ i want toooo!! but u noe the reason y i cant. but i wanna dance wif youuu.

If your friend tried to get at me what would you do?
- Ok. She's gonna get it from me man. i dun freaking care if she's my friend. OUHH NO. NO WAY ok. Go find someone else bitch. He's mine.

If someone tried to fight with me in front of you what would you do?
- i'll do something. i wouldnt wanna see my man being beaten up to a pulp.

If a girl/boy tried to talk or dance with you at the club what would u do?
- So in this case, boy lah i think kan. Prolly buat bodoh den go find my bf den cling on to him.

If i cheated on you would you take me back?
- of coz i will. love makes us do stuff which we dun understand sometimes. but to me, everybody deserves a 2nd chance.

Would u give me your friendster password?
- i think we trust each other enuff right baby? we need to haf our own privacy also wad sometimes. i'm sure u wouldnt want to give me urs also. haha.

If i gave you mine would you read all my mail?
- i trust you enuff baby. i dun need your password.

If i said i loved you would you say it back?
- u loved me or u love me? ah aniways, i would say i love you forever. and ever. and ever and ever. =)

okeh well..

maybe wanna story abit lah. (wassup wif my english man!)

okeh.. thing is.. i am so unpredictable till i dunno wad my reaction is gonna be. i can be nice. i can be a bitch. and sometimes, when i dun like you at all, i might not give you a chance and chat wif me (for those who tried to get to noe me on friendster.)

gee. (ooooh. i'm having a bitch fit. hurhur.)

like, gee.. korg tak nampak ke pic aku ngan laki aku kat situ ehk? dah gitu abeh masih nak kenal2.. like, i'm not interested ah. i'm happy wif the ppl i'm wif now. i'm happy wif him, i'm happy wif my family and i'm most of all happy wif the ppl ard me right nw. sry to say but i dun really need any new ppl to kenal2 for that matter..

those who ask for hp number lagi style. wad makes u guys think i'm gonna give u guys my number uh? eeeeeh. alamak, tolong ah. if i already give u answers which clearly shows i'm not interested, paham2 ah. Just forget it. I dun need you to keep sending me msges at flooding my friendster inbox.

crap.

speaking of crap...

ppl.. pls remind me that i'm not allowing myself to say the word fuck anymore. i'm sorry i used alot of it for that u-noe-wad situation dear.. i promise i wont use it anymore. we shall now substitute crap to that word.

i hate to see that word seh. but den i dunno why when i'm angry i use it alot. it sucks ah. okok. i shldnt use it anymore.

i must be really bored to talk abt alot of things in one post.

anyways, tot of this just now..

at times,

i'm just too scared.

too scared of love,

too scared to be out of love.

too scared to hurt,

too scared to be hurt.

sometimes,

i kept thinking abt us.

and i wonder..

i love you and you love me..

but what if fate's not on our side?

can we face that?

each day,

i pray that u'll be my last.

and there'll be no others except for you.

baby i'm scared to lose you.

no baby, i dun ever wanna lose you.

sometimes i get mad at you.

but i can never stay mad at you.

once in a long while we fight,

but we'd forgive and forget.

u're too precious to me sweetheart,

and i just wanna love you

now, then and forever,

just you.

i love you

playing wif different emotions

there was this girl.. who said she wanted to sleep last night. but in the end, she didnt manage to sleep at all and she was stoning all the way in school. so, she decided to buy some sour prunes..

and dis was what happend...

aha.. cramp faced..

and she got bored as the day goes by....

she spun ard on the chair and got elated..

and she soon got sleepy..

so she kept a straight face...

and pretended as if she was happy..

but then, she soon fell asleep...

and she wakes up, she got pissed off..

and den, when the class switched on scary movie 4, she squealed..

and that was the end of her emotion session...

hee.. THE END.

okeh. nampak sgt i'm damn bored. ahakz.

*yawns*

Jal, TAG REPLIED. heh..

Thanks eh Jal aka Miss Blurtink for tagging me. Haha.. Eh.. I'm not complaining ehh.. =/ haha..

Rules:
#1. Do the following WITHOUT complaint.
#2. Choose 5 person to do this after you completed yours.
#3. Leave a tag on the person's tagboard to say he/she have been tagged
#4. Start your post with "I have been tagged!" then do this.

-10 Favourites
Favorite Color: black, red, white
Favorite Food: assam pedas.
Favorite Song: i wont see you tonight (part 1) by Avenged Sevenfold
Favorite Movie: lemony snicket: a series of unfortunate events. fav seh..
Favorite Sport: volleyball and soccer
Favorite Season: dgr2 singapore ader seasons aper..
Favourite Day Of the Week: Saturday
Favorite Ice Cream Flavor: that cookies and cream ehk? yeh..

-9 Current
Current Mood: bored and tired
Current Taste: sampoerna taste ah. haha..
Clothes: black n white dress
Current Desktop: my pic
Current Toenail Color: unpainted toenail colour
Current Time: 2345hrs
Current Surroundings: in ma room on ma bed.
Current Annoyance(s): my runny nose
Current Thought: wad to wear to school tmr sehh..

- 8 Firsts
First Best Friend: erm.. sumpah ku tak ingat.. haha..
First Crush: urhh.. really dun rmb..
First Movie: POWER RANGERS THE MOVIE! haha..
First Piercing: dunno.. ask my mom ah..
First Lie: hah.. sumpah i dun rmb..
First Music: kaoz.. serious sia.. stop all the first2... i dun rmb..
First Car: my parents car uh, it's the Daihatsu Charade..

- 7 Lasts
Last Drink: green tea
Last Car Ride: ytd
Last Crush: yg tersyg.. aha
Last Movie Seen: runaway vacation
Last Phone Call: my bro
Last CD Played: urm.. long long time ago..

- 6 Have You Evers
Have You Ever Dated One Of Your Best Friends: eh no. my date became my best friend got la
Have You Ever Broken the Law: not that i could rmb of.
Have You Ever Been Arrested: nahh
Have You Ever Skinny Dipped: ishh takde lah
Have You Ever Been on TV: sort of lah. as audience can?
Have You Ever Kissed Someone You Didn't Know: urm.. dun think so

- 5 things you're wearing.
1. dress
2. handbands
3. the necessary 2 pieces
4. hair clip
5. make up. counted lah..

- 4 things you've done today.
1. woke up at 1230
2. ate at LJS alone.
3. went to rehearsals
4. kissed Aken. =)

- 3 things you can hear right now.
1. my fan
2. my keypad clicking
3. vehicles moving

- 2 things you can't live without.
1. my job
2. my laptop

-1 thing you do when you're bored.
1. KACAU ORANG

And for the 5 people,
1. Nouru
2. Sahidah
3. Lin (i'll make sure i tag her!)
4. Raiiii (haha.. mentang2 bump into her the other day)
5. IKA. (yes!! since she's back blogging.. whee)

okeh. it's 11.50 now. go makan den go sleep. if not i cant wake up to school tmr. aha..

so long and good night~

Runaway Girls

yesterday was such a long long day.

i slept at 3 am the day before and i basically forced myself to go to school coz it was Database and i've skipped 3 times and partial twice.. So i forced myself in the wee hrs of 6 am to wake up and get ready for school.

And guess wad, it was raining so heavily in the morning. So, i smsed Linda and told her i was taking a cab, and asked if she wanted to tumpang along or not.

So then, took a cab to school, reached there like, 7.50 am. Was the first to reach class.

And guess what, by 915, i was out of school along wif Kelis, Fion, Hida and Ira. Coz Database really sucks lah. Haiz.

so then, as Kelis would put it.. This is the Runaway Bus that we took.

@ The Escalator

So then, we took the bus to Causeway Point and had our breakfast at Mac. Then went to watch out Runaway Vacation.. It was nice.. And kinda touching too that i nearly teared. And i realised that throughout the whole movie, the 5 of us laughed the loudest in the cinema. =)

then we went ard Causeway Point and i bought this beeyootiful Brazil shirt.

Den we went to the Civic Center Library and slacked there, talked about Phoenix Park and the Woodlands Campus.

So then, we went for Lunch at LJS, and talked about our secondary school life, O levels and did some bitching too. =)

And then it was time for us to go back and Kelis to go for her meeting. Then i forgot that my ezlink was defective and i left my temporary ez-link at home. so, met my mum at jrg east and had my ez-link changed.

and then went home, and found out that my 10 yr old brother was beaten up by this stupid boy who claimed that the bicycle was his when it was my 14 yr old brother's friend who gave it to him. Den that stupid boy said to my 14 yr old bro Shafiq, to call the person who gave him the bicycle. he didnt wanna go to meet the person, he wanted that person to meet him. Then Shafiq, kebodohan dier, left the 10 yr old and 6 yr old there and went to find his friend.

And the stupid boy whacked my bro up and left him there.

idiot.

and when they reach home and told Dad abt it, he went to the stupid boy's hse. but he decided not to make a big fuss out of it since the hse was full of aci2..

then at night, i play2 wif my 6 yr old bro and took pics of him..

the funny faces of Aken. haha..

and now.. the poses..

he also noe how to emo lah.. haha..

and finally, i saw that his legs were full of bruises and blueblacks.



haiyo.. how like that?

but aniways, i love Aken. My lil dragon boy.

siannism

i did this personality test. okay2 lah. i wont say it's very accurate coz i did in a rush.. but it's something..

Big Five Test Results

Extroversion (72%) high which suggests you are overly talkative, outgoing, sociable and interacting at the expense too often of developing your own individual interests and internally based identity. Accommodation (52%) medium which suggests you are moderately kind natured, trusting, and helpful while still maintaining your own interests. Orderliness (26%) low which suggests you are overly flexible, random, scattered, and fun seeking at the expense too often of structure, reliability, work ethic, and long term accomplishment. Emotional Stability (46%) medium which suggests you average somewhere in between being calm and resilient and being anxious and reactive. Inquisitiveness (46%) medium which suggests you are moderately intellectual, curious, and imaginative.

Take Free Big Five Personality Test
personality tests by similarminds.com

and dis also..

1. not afraid of doing the wrong things,
- yeh.. just go for it..

2. does not value rules and regulations,
- not really.. i rather haf rules and regulations which is of course, reasonable

3. prefers unpredictable to organized,
- yeh that's me. i'm unpredictable.

4. does not accomplish work on time,
- whahaha.. like all the time..

5. needs to maintain high levels of excitement,
- hrmm.. i dun think so uh..

6. out for own personal gain,
- depends on ths situation.

7. not afraid to draw attention to self,
- hell yeah..

8. more pleasure seeking than responsible,
- not really

9. not bothered by disorder,
- uhhuh.

10. retaliatory,
- yessah

11. thrives on the rush of risk taking,
- OUHH YES.

12. unpredictable,
- very

13. asks questions that nobody else does,
- it happens in class when i'm alert.

14. often does not know what they are doing,
- It happens.

15. spontaneous,
- yes i am.

16. first to act,
- last to noe. haha.. not the first to act

17. not easily hurt,
- erm.. no..

18. not apprehensive about new encounters,
- uhhuh.

19. does not readily admit mistakes,
- Ouh yes.

20. not a perfectionist,
- yeh. never was one

21. not apologetic,
- not really. i am apologetic.

22. disorganized,
- WAHAHA. yes.

23. socially comfortable,
- Very

24. outgoing,
- Very

25. calm in crisis,
- sometimes jer.

26. fearless,
- ouh no. i'm a scardy cat

27. atheist/agnostic tendencies,
- no. i still believe in God.

28. good at getting people to have fun,
- i think so.

29. opinionated,
- yesh.

30. not easily moved to tears,
- i try not to but in the end i still do.

31. sexually immodest,
- eeh.. noo.. i dun flaunt my sexual stuff or whatever it is..

32. adventurous,
- a bit lah

33. unconventional,
- yesh.

34. aggressive,
- uhhuh. very

35. often late,
- always early. haha..

36. high energy level,
- when i'm not sick ah.

37. likes the spotlight,
- i do i do i do

38. ambivalent about the needs of others,
- Yes

39. worry free,
- no. never

40. acts without thinking or planning,
- WOUH. YES.

41. bad at saving money,
- glad u noe.. haha..

42. selfish
- unfortunately i am.

well just some stuff..

siannism...

...

i'm just scared.

i'm freaking scared..

sick again~

haiz~

can u believe it? i'm sick again.. like i just got better the other day and i fell sick again yesterday. and it's like, damn bad lah. cough like wanna cough blood. flu like my nose wanna drop off. haiz~ I'm a sickly kid.

berpenyakit agaknye aku. biler nak mampos agaknye.. hurhur.

didnt go school today. too tired, too stressed, and my eyes were swollen. dun ask why.

but i went for Drama rehearsal and it finished quite early, like 730 and we're done. and all of us went for dinner at kfc and then went to smoke at the jetty-like area at the mrt stn. sigh. i'm smoking again. haiz...

and we're like drunkards down there. haha..

tak tau sangat lah babyyy..
ape lah kambeng..
aah siak..

wah seh. follow my style sia u all.. how come got aah siakk and all? wahaha.. tak tau sangat lah baby was by Apiz. den everyone followed. haha..

ape lah babyy?
kenape babyy?

must have the baby at the back.

i've been feeling dreadful these few days. i havent cried for so long. i dun like to cry. but i did ytd. and i dun wanna be reminded of what happend yesterday.

to you,

i'm sorry. i am really2 sorry.
i noe i'm an egoistic bitch. i dun care abt how ppl will feel sometimes. all i think abt is me. abt how i feel, about my feelings and it's all abt me me me. abt how i'm hurt. how i'm not being cared and stuff.

but, i never asked u abt how u feel, or think about how u're gonna feel. and i'm sorry that i cant take jokes and take things seriously.

dearest,

i'm sorry to make u feel the way u're feeling. i've told u how i felt so i dun think i need to put it here. i'm sorry that yesterday ever happend. and i hope that it wont ever happen again.

which girlfriend would want THAT to happen. although i said i dun mind, but duh, of coz i mind.. i dun wanna share u wif anybody. =''( i really dun.

i dun wanna lose you. i felt like i was really gonna lose you ytd.

i love you dearest. from the bottom of my heart, i really do love you. and i miss you so.

i've been listening to this song. it's malay lah so maaf2 lah ye.. but it's suits my situation now lah.. been crying last night while listening to this song.

just these few stanzas..

and i thought of this if i was in his shoes..

Dalam usikku merajuk seketika
Laluku pergi meninggalkan dirimu
Tanpa ku duga
Lilin menjadi bara
Gurauanku jadi dilema prasangka

Kau menyangka aku pergi kerna dia
Yang tak pernah wujud dalam alam cinta
Belum sempat ku jernihkan suasana
Engkau pula yang hilang
Entah ke mana

and this from my side of the story.

Andai dapat
Ku undurkan putaran dunia
Inginku ubah semula kata
Dan tingkahlakuku yang salah
Agar kita dapat seiring
Di mercu asmara

Tak ingin lagi
Dan tak mahu lagi berpisah
Bukan dengan kerelaan hati
Penyesalan yang tiada kesudahan
Ku tersepit dalam jerat sendiri

but aniways, all's been forgiven. although i think we need some time to pujuk hati sendiri. hopefully things will be good. sigh..

and yes, there's one more chorus of a song that i'm feeling.

You can call me selfish, But all I want is your love
You can call me hopeless (hopeless)
Baby cause I'm hopelessly in love
You can call me unperfect
But who's perfect? Tell me what do I gotta do
To prove that I'm the only one for you

What's wrong with being selfish??

I'll be taking up your time
Until the day I make you realize
That for your there could be no one else
Ive just gotta have you for myself
Baby I would take good care of you
No matter what it is you're going through
I'll be there for you when you're in need
Baby believe in me,
Cause if love is a crime
Then punish me, I would die for you
Cause I don't want to live without you
Oh what can I do?

i miss you.

life is incomplete wifout my takuhiro,
ChiCka

survey

Ahakz.. okay2.. so this is the survey that is long-awaited by Sahidah.. HEH..

Three schools I went to:
- Shuqun Primary
- Hua Yi Secondary
- Republic Poly


Three things in my handbag:
- Hp
- Wallet
- Perfume


Three things I do when I'm stressed:
- Slack by the beach
- Listen to blasting music on my mp3
- Surf the net


Three places I go on a daily basis:
- Weekdays: School
- Weekends: Sentosa
- HOME


Three favourite fruits:
- Durian
- Apple
- Guava


Three names I go by:
- Dian
- Dee
- Rin


Three of my favourite food:
- Chicken Rice
- Assam Pedas
- Pasta


Three things I'm wearing right now:
- shirt
- shorts
- hair clip


Who is in the house:
- Everyone


Who am I thinking of right now?
- My Babat Mr Takuhiro!!
- Abang Man.
- urm.. my ppl @ Sentosa's Transport Dept

Who did I sit with during my 5th period in class?
- 5th period? We dun have 5th period arh.


Who gets on my nerves most in school?
- ASH. haha.


Where is my phone?
- beside my laptop


Where do I sleep?
- In my room.


Where is the place I took a ride to?
- From work to home


What was the last thing I ate?
- Food from Rasa Sentosa Hotel


What colour shirt am I wearing now?
- Black


What is the closest item to me that is blue?
- My Dad's shorts. hahaha


What do I like most about school?
- The lesson. REALLY!


What is my favourite colour?
- BLACK


What do I wear most often, jeans or shorts?
- Jeans ah


What was the last movie I watched?
- X-Men 3, The Last Stand


When did I start school?
- urh.. when i was 5 yrs old.


When did I last go to the mall?
- Thursday


When did I last burn something?
- Last 2 wks.. I was playing wif the lighter..


3 bloggers to do this:
- MD NOOR. =p
- Sandy
- and i dunno. haha..

back from genting.

okay i'm back from Genting.
blardy lots of things to update. haish..

so on Monday, basically we overslept. So instead of going off at 6 am, we ended up leaving home at 9 am.

And so, 6-7 hours of drive to Genting. On the way ate at Machap. GOD. I love the Assam Pedas there. *slurps*

On the way again, i saw this very.. pretty but weird sight of the sky.

It was like, half bright and half covered wif clouds but at the same time, there's a fine line which draws the center..

Anyways, we reached Genting at 3 plus or so.. Nice weather.. Wasnt too hot nor too cold.

That was in front of the Theme Park. And our hotel as well.

So for the first day, there's nth much for us to do coz it was evening by then. So we went ard the shopping center after we checked in to the room. The place was beyoootiful.

Like, there's an indoor rollercoaster, indoor ferris wheel and stuff. And Nouru, get this.. They sell sushis in a pack for just RM5!

Behind me was the track for some kinda ride..

So then, we realised that the food there was EFFING EXPENSIVE, and most of it were chinese food aniways. So we didnt really had a proper dinner that nite. So i bought 6 cheeseburgers and some popcorns for the family and we went to watch X-Men 3 at the Cineplex there. Okay so it was the 2nd time for me to watch it. But it's niceee lah the show.. haha..

So that was that for our dinner. 1 cheeseburger each. Like, can u imagine, the only Malay/Halal food we found there was a restaurant. Like, hello.. where are those makcik2 selling Assam Pedas?? Haha.. And even in that restaurant, like, 1 piece of prata kosong cost RM4 and briyani ayam cost RM12. =X

And day 1 ended wif us starving for the night.

Day 2: 13th June = Ayah's 44th Bday.

We didnt really haf a cake. So we had dis cake that we brought from home. The one that they always give during orang kahwin.. And we didnt have a candle either.. So.. this happend..

Coz we had a lot of medications to take, so Ayah stuck the spoon of the cough syrup thingy to the cake and he pretended to blow from it. Haha..

So then..

Had breakfast at Marrybrown. It was okay lah. They had dis Nasi Ayam Marrybrown and also some porridge. I had, wad was equivalent to Big Breakfast. And altogether, it costs RM65 just for breakfast alone.. Ex sia..

So after that, we went to the THEME PARK. =D

And me and my bros went on this thing first.. They call it the Spinner..

It's like a swing but it goes round and round. Made me dizzy seh..

And then we went on the Teacup, Cyclone, Flying Dragon.. Blah3.. It was fun ah but wasnt that thrilling.. Haha.. Then accompanied Aken for this ride. Kiddish seh..

So den, Me and my 2nd bro Wan, we went on this Flying Coaster. Fun ah. Not scary though.

Okay then, we went to the top.. And i went to that Corkscrew. Looks creepy coz it was like, the real thing uh. Big scary rollercoaster.

So i went on it alone, took this along the way. Coz we had to queue queue queue! Sucks seh. Now i noe how ppl at Sentosa feel. Queue jerr..

So that was the Corkscrew. And suddenly, flashes of the Final Destination 3 past. Shit. I was like, scared already uh. Then, when i was on the ride, my hair clip came off but it was still intact on my hair. Like, damn ah. I remembered how the video cam fell and the roller coaster just fell apart in the movie.

So in the end, i concentrated more on my hair clip den the ride and i ended up not enjoying the ride. =/

AND! I went on Space Shot. That ride nearly killed me inside. Like, screw ah. The thing just goes vertically up and just drops u down. I didnt even haf the voice to scream. hurhur.

It was spooky okay...

My 1st bro Shafiq went on the Go-Kart. He said it was slow..

The whole family went to Dinosaurland after that. it was LAME. Gee.. But i managed to snap dis pose.. haha..

And after that me and Wan went to the Flume Ride..

And so, after the Outdoor Theme Park, we went to the Indoor Theme Park. It was okay lahh.. They had dis Motion Blaster which was equivalent to the Sentosa 4D Magix. Only that i think 4D Magix is sooo much better. Haha..

And the whole family went on the Antique Car.. Me and Aken were like, arguing who gets to drive..

Had dinner at that Muslim restaurant. Cost about RM 78. And reached the hotel about 11pm.

Next day,

we basically had no plan. went to the arcade.. And.. after that.. Went to KBOX. Which is literally a box and there's a tv and some kinda player inside.. like a jukebox uh.. And we spent almost RM100 on that alone. Sang like no one's business for 5 hrs.. It's RM1 for 1 song. So okay lah tu..

And at night, we took some pics..

Big sia the lollipop.. Then, at ard 7 plus ah before all these.. i saw this out of my hotel room window..

Lovely huh..

This was in the hotel room..

So then the next day, was the last day.. went down to the park.. took some pics..

the background is actually clouds.. cold sehh..

den otw, we went to Batu Caves..

and then, we went to Central Market and Petaling St @ KL. And i shopped like heck.. Got myself dis Billabong Handbag for RM20, 1 shades, 2 black rimmed specs for RM20, 2 Adidas jackets for RM80, and 4 bands for RM10. *faints*

okay, back to reality.

gtg follow ayah go to Turf City dunno for wad.

*hungry*

Going Genting

i think this is the earliest time that i'm done wif packing. i'm just left wif putting in my make up and toiletries stuff.

i think this is like, the event of the year. like, we've been planning for this Genting trip for months. Booked the hotel for months too. hurhur. Hmm. 5 days. Should i change $50 or $100? ouh shucks. dilemma.

ah aniways, will be back by Friday hopefully. And i dunno when i'm going to start work. haish..

i'm gonna miss my babat. This Thursday is our 5 months anniversary ehk. =) Didnt expect it to be this long but i cherish every minute of it.

5 months feels like 5 mins seh. It's like, so fast but then, we've gone thru a lot together. Especially wif parents. Haiz.. Dunno when that will end.

Sometimes, when u're so sure of the person that u're in love wif, ur parents get in the way. and they scare you when they say they wont give u their blessings. like, tak restu the relationship lah.

and then u have this one uncle, who talks to u about relationship. and he said a relationship wifout parent's blessings is not going to work out. it happend to him and now he's divorced wif 4 kids.

that scared me. while talking to that uncle, i cried. coz i dun want the same thing to happen to us.

Dear God,

I noe i've been a very naughty girl in the past. But for the very first time in my life, i've never been so certain about someone before. This is the guy I am very much in love with and I hope that for the rest of my life, i spend it wif him and no other guy.

Dear God,

I've never fight so hard for a relationship before. Please dun let my efforts go to a waste. My heart tells me that i wanna settle down wif him in the future. Please give me the courage and strength to hold this relationship together and not let anybody destroy it. Not even my parents nor his.

Amin.

Gosh it drives me crazy when it comes to Relationship VS Parents.

Ah well... I'm sure me and babat can pull thru things. As long as we trust each other, everything will be fine.

I'll miss you la babat. 5 days wifout contacting u and calling u babat and piggy. Sianz... Den cannot accompany u to the hospital for ur appointment also.. AH! Take care of ur eye okay.. Ok2 lah. I think you wear contacts better than specs. haha..

okok.. it's 1 am already. better sleep. gonna wake up at 5 later. shit.

Niteys. Gonna miss all of you.

Such As.. Being Tagged IT

Muhammad Noor Bin Roslan.
You practically ENJOY SABO-ING ME.

haiz~

PEOPLE, I ACTUALLY POSTED AN ENTRY BEFORE THIS. PLEASE READ IT, PLEASE!! IT'S SUCH A LONG ENTRY AND I HAD TO DO THIS BECAUSE MUHAMMAD NOOR AKA NOURU DECIDED TO TAG ME TO DO THIS.

7 random facts bout me:
1. I get sick easily. yeah.. it's true!!
2. I LOVE SENTOSA. =)
3. I daydream a lot.
4. I am a contradiction. I am patient yet impatient; I am harworking yet lazy. Haha.. go figure.
5. I have phobias of drowning and balloons.
6. I can eat chicken rice every day.
7. I am prone to getting needles stuck into my skin.

7 things that scares me:
1. DROWNING.
2. BALLOONS.
3. Cockroaches.
4. The sight of blood
5. Life after Death
6. Death of anyone i care for
7. Betrayal

7 habits that must be fulfilled everyday:
1. Switching on to my lappy
2. Wash my face with the Tea Tree foaming wash
3. Going to friendster and my blog
4. Take pictures frm my hp
5. Msg/Msn wif Jumali
6. Putting on eyeliner
7. Putting on compact powder

5 things I like the most:
1. MY JOB.
2. MY MISTER
3. Going to Sentosa
4. Crapping
5. Eyeliners and Makeup

7 things i say the most:
1. Siak uh~
2. AHH.. Yelahh tu..
3. mixing english + malay in a weird way
4. Sucks ahhhh.
5. Diam ah
6. Thanks ahh eh
7. Eh?

7 people i want to do this:
1. Sandy.
2. Ayien
3. LIN!
4. Louis
5. Syazwan
6. HeeDaa
7. Sherlyn

strange.

ok. so i'm back. from a longgg break.
well, break doesnt really sound appropriate here.

wad really happend was that i was hospitalised for 3 days. yeah. hospitalised at SGH.

so i had high fever, cough, flu and sore throat altogether. went to Alexandra Hospital's emergency right, and got myself 4 days of mc. So on Tuesday, was my last day of mc and Cik Jamilah called me and asked if i wanted to work the next day. So caused i really missed work, i said yes, wifout even thinking that i was still sick.

And the next day, i started work at 1030 am at VAC. And.. i was doing okay at first. But i got tired, and by 1, when Zaheera came, i went back to the VAC Office there and sat down. And the next thing i knew, i fainted.

So, then i heard commotion. Yes, i could hear, but i couldnt open my eyes. Hrmm. Then they called the ambulance and i was sent to SGH. Which was another whole ordeal which i shall not elaborate. Cause i practically ate, sleep, took medicine, sleep, wake up, eat, took medicine, sleep... Get the idea..

but then, my mum took me to see my uncle who deals wif all this supernatural stuff. well, u haf to admit that this stuff do exist and shldn't just be shrugged off.

so, well, in this case.. the ghost of RP decided to tag along wif me and followed me home and crapped wif my whole household. hurrr. it's because of that stupid Operation GT lahh during the Cypher Camp. hurrrr..

ok that's it.

my dad asked me why my friends didnt visit me when i was hospitalised. Well, firstly, i dun bother to tell. Basically i've given up on friends and too disappointed wif the things that's been happening wif all of em.

and his sarcasm when he said "Ur boyfffrieenndd never come arr?"

den i was like, yeah he came.

and he was like, okay.

*rolls eyes*

whatever.

bedridden

my 4 days mc ends today. like, whee.. Cik Jamilah called me up just nw and asked me how i was and whether i can work tmr.

and i was like.. cannnn.

Haha.. i miss work. and i really2 dun wanna sleep like a pig. blueks.

And, right.. while i was sleeping, i had this very nice dream. Something which can be made a script or a storyline. Plus some stories by Abang Azri, and a touch of Abang Man's words, i think it's gonna be a smashing one. A sad tale perhaps? I dunno. If i let my imagination run wild like it used to, maybe it will be. =)

So my plans for this week. Hmm.. 4 days off is such a long time. BAH. i'm so not used to this. My mum would probably shriek if she knew i'm working tmr, which, i havent told her yet. So, tomorrow work, Thursday will be the retreat (and i still havent pack yet), Friday, will be a very busy day.

and it's the 50th Anniversary. gawd. Hua Yi Sec is THAT old huh. The last time they made an Official Opening Ceremony was when i was in Sec 2 or 3. Can't exactly rmb. It was GREAT FUN!! really.. i was the sound engineer. heh.. Let's see what the juniors are up to this time round..

urm.. next.. will be going to Genting for a holiday. AND!! I get to spend my own money. WHEE. Now i dun haf to beg my parents for money when i wanna go shopping. Luckily my pay is enuff for me to change to RM. =) excitedd!!

ouhh ya.

i shouldnt have changed my perpective.
bestfriends never exist.

let's keep it at that.

=)

sick.

some updates.

i'm down wif flu, fever, cough and sore throat. and Jumali has sore eyes. and funnily enuff, i was supposed to accompany him to see the doctor but ended up, i haf to go to the emergency instead. And i haf 4 days of mc. shucks..

didnt go to work for the weekends. sucks lah. i really wanted to work for this Balloon Hat Festival. Argh.. dun talk abt it already lah.

haish.. i dunno wad i did to all these bloghoppers that they keep on coming to my blog and criticizing me. haish. whatever lah.

going out now. celebrating my granddad's bday @ Marina. Have to isolate myself. All my cousins and the young ones are gonna be there. Dun want them to get my sickness.

hmm.. tmr rehearsal.. to go or not to go.. hmmmm..

HAPPY BIRTHDAY DEAREST!

HAPPY 21ST BIRTHDAY TO MY DEAREST HUBBY JUMALI!!

My Mr Takuhiro is now 21 years old. Heee.. He can watch R21 shows already.. =x Haha..

Okay so aniway.. It was a long day. And THANK GOD rehearsals were cancelled today. At least i can spend his bday wif him. =)

So, met him at 2.20pm. I was late. Actually, i was supposed to meet at 1.40pm larh. But then i reached Lakeside MRT Stn at 1.20 seh. Haha.. So in the end, msg him, said i was gonna reach about 2. But then, end up still late. Haha.. But not my fault wad. Meet at Bedok seh. It's not as if Bedok and Jurong are 5 mins away frm each other.

So met him at the Macdonalds opposite the interchange. Kinda shock lar to see his eyes like damnn red. His sore eyes still not better yet. So den, we slacked at Mac, and went to the arcade. And then to watch the X-Men2 movie. It was NICE okay! But kinda sad larh that Jean Grey, Cyclops and Professor X died. And the Angel guy was cute ar.. haha..

Okay den, he went home to change coz he was from work. So i waited at the void deck. I was dressed kinda in apropriately for his mum to see so i wouldnt want her to have a 2nd bad impression of me. hurhur.

so den took cab to Bugis. Met his friends, den we went to eat at the Raffles Hospital Banquet. Den, WE WENT TO SMOKE SHEESHA!! hehe..

My first time seh smoke sheesha. Last time, Sid called me up to smoke sheesha wif them. But i was kinda disgusted by the word sheesha coz it sounds funny and u hafta put the thing in ur mouth and stuff. Haha. But this time, i gave it a try lar. Not bad ar. The Mister ordered Strawberry and Apple. I think the apple one was a bit strong arh. But nice lar.

And there was once i put bof the sheesha thingy to my mouth. Haha.. =x

Then, dearie said he wanted to go to the hospital to check his eye coz it was really2 in a bad state. kesiankan dierr.. mata dier dah lah kecik.. Abeh kene sore eye, dah mcm dier tak bukak mata pun.. haha.. OOOPS! =X jahat ehh dee..

So from Bugis we took a cab to Alexandra Hospital and went to the Emergency. I thought it would take like, 3 or 4 hrs. But it was like, less than 1 1/2 hours seh... Okay ahh.. Next time if i wanna go emergency, i go to Alexandra. Dun wanna go NUH already. Hahaha..

So accompanied him at the hospital. Kesian dierrrr.. Haha.. Dah mcm mabuk2 dier jln coz he couldnt see. And naughty2 Dee still disturbed him. Hahaha..

And then we walked all the way to his camp there to get cab. If i'm really a candle, i'd probably melt to death right there and then. Heee. My Babat was sweet tau in the cab. Hehe.. I LOVE U FOREVER ALSO LAH BABAT!

I reached home like, 1 am sehh. First time uh go back home dis late by myself. Haha..

Take care of ur eye k babat.. no more contact lenses already ok.. U're banned from it.. Wear specs frm now onwards. Either u look nerdy or u get sore eyes. Haha. My nerdboy. =)

Thanks for the belanja-ing today. Heh.. I shld be the one belanja-ing u seh but ur bday wrong time ah. hehekz.. But i hope u like the shirt i bought u. =)

hrmm. on the flipside, we're doing so well together and we noe how deep we bof love each other. but sometimes, parents dun understand us. ppl say, kalau mak bapak tak restu perhubungan, den, perhubungan tu takkan selamat or smt..

that sux.

just when i've met the guy whom i wanna spend the rest of my life wif, these kinda problems arise. But all i wanna do is ignore them. Pretend that they never existed. i just wanna do all i can so that this relationship stay.

i love u so much lah babat. sometimes i feel bad seh for putting us in this kinda position. howells.. u noe that it can never change right..

all i wanna do is love u and be right there for u in sickness and in health (dah mcm wedding vows lah pulak). ahah.. I just wanna love u and no one else. I trust you wif my heart and i noe that u can take care of it.

*hugs u tight*

ehhhhhh.. wad sia Dee... happy2 den sad.. Heh.. Tersampuk X-Men arh. Professor X died that's y Jumali cried den he became Cyclops. Only that if he takes out his shades, no power will come out. Just sore eye. Hehe..

will be meeting him on Friday. Untung eh.. Last Saturday meet, Today meet, Friday meet. =) whoa.. 3 STRIKES. hahaha..

aniway, this song is for you, dear..

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