Morning..

Geez... Its like 930 am and i'm in school on a SATURDAY!!!

Waddehell....

Sighh... Using the school library com is sucha pain... ahakz... the keyboard is the popped up type.. unlike my laptop which is duhh~ flat... ahaha... okay geee.. haha... in school for MCG meeting which will start in 15 minutes but i honestly doubt so.. ahah.. i'm always early wherever i go.. tt sucks... hafta wait for ppl....

And i haf Sry Dylaila todayy... wheee... gonna audition for karutz... haha... like whee.. i want!! ahakz... but if i dun get it, i'm happy enuff being awokz... hehh...

okay so enuff of the boring stuff...

*10 minutes left*

sighh.. i'm kinda tired feeling suspicious.. do i think too much? i was never like this.. i mean.. wif him... but its just that, i'm scared.. i dun want the same thing to happen again... all those pain and tears... endless nights of crying... its just unbearable... but, if things do get way out of hand, then i gotta sacrifice... i mean, i dunno if its happening again or not.. but i'm just be cautious...

once is okay.. twice is forgivable... thrice?? na ahh... i dun want to be a slave to ya... just hope that wad i'm wondering is not really happening.. like, we've been together for almost 5 months nw... even during that time we broke up, we still called up each other and stuff...

and.. sitting here in the library in the morning, talking abt this.. gee.. i'm just feeling down and need to sort out my feelings...

i just hate his jerk side... when he's jerky, he's soooo inconsiderate... but thank GOD that he's not jerky now... haizzz... its just that... he seems to be going that way again.. i mean, trust.. u cant really play wif trust... haizz....

i feel myself getting stronger.. yet at the same time, weaker... Its seriously tiring me out... and wif busy sched.. suckkyy....

CONCLUSION.

I THINK TOO MUCH.

Why?

He merely sent me a msg, saying... "Syg do u really love me or not?"

and i'm blabbering here....

Tml meeting him... like, finally after.. erm... 3 wks? uhhuh... ya... so just pakat wif my cousin tml and yeah, we're off to geylang tml... hakz.. i guess maybe i havent met him in a long time tt i'm feeling rather insecure. ahh.. gee... wadd the heckk.. we used to not meet for 2 mths..

Me Jurong..

Him Sengkang..

Acks..

Okie.. Chill...

its 10... and there's only me, nunu, azrina, fadhilah and ariff here IN THE LIBRARY. not the room.. coz its locked.. haha... i told u so... *evil laugh* nyahaha....

okayyyy... nunu said dey opend the door.. sigh..

haha..

ciao