no one else comes close

okay.

somebody pls help me wipe off the smile off my face. i cant stop smiling and laughing since just now. haha..

i've been reading conversation histories of me and his darlingness.

It started out wif www.anakmelayu.com.

that's where i got to noe him.

den we went on to chat at msn.
and those times..
so cute and funny..
haha..

and i remembered the first time we met.
oh my god.
Ash would've screwd me if she was there.
i was like so bloody shy.
cant even look straight at his face.
haha.

and wad more when he ask me to be his girl.
kaoz.
i turned red like beetroot.
haha.

but till this day,
i've never regretted once being wif him.

he's never hurt me deliberately.
he's always been there for me when i really need him.

and plus point,

he's the first one who's brave enuff to meet my dad.

yeahh..
my mum told me the night when i was at the hospital.

she said that my dad said.. "Berani dier dtg kat hospital. Ayah tak payah nak carik dier. Dier sendiri yg datang kat ayah.'

okay, which means, "He's brave to come here (hospital). I (Dad) dun need to look for him. He came here by himself to me."

den my mum said, "Alahh... Dulu pun ibu kene pukul dgn mak pun ayah dtg rescue ibu pe.. Nie Rin kene masuk hospital, takkan dier tak boleh dtg?"

meaning.. "Last time i was hit by my mum and u came to my rescue wad.. Now ur daughter's being hospitalised, dun tell me he cant come?"

yeahh..

hahakz.. well, so far Dad hasnt said anything about that to me.

but, okay, back to my topic.

sometimes, i do feel that i'm being demanding towards him. like i wanna meet and stuff.
but i feel that ive cut down on that a lot.
now i leave it to him when he wanna meet.
hahakz...

and its just that...
sometimes, i hate myself for having too many guy friends.
if i can get jealous over such a small thing like some girl kept asking abt him,
wad more him when i have loads of guy friends.

okay2..
i rmb wad my mum used to say.

"He may not say it. But deep inside he may have felt it"

that got me thinking.

haishh~

and to that someone, if u're reading this, and if u realise that i'm not like i used to, i'm really sorry. i get insecure. i just need some boundaries and i am attached and i love him so. i'm just confuse. i treat u like a friend only. hope u understand yah.

okayy2..

reflection time!!

thing is...

i've never met someone who love me so much as he does.
i've never been in a relationship as meaningful and slacky as this. ahakz..
i've never had so much fun in a relationship as this.

and...
i've never found someone who's so serious abt as he is.

okay laahh.. tak bleh puji byk2...
hahakz..

coz relationship is not just about being up and happy.

there are also downfalls and heartaches.

for me, luckily we can overcome the downfalls together..
i'm happy enuff wif that.

i noe i've changed since i've met him.
some stuff, which, i noe and u guys dun hafg to noe.. =)

AND...

I'M NO LONGER SMOKING!!

heh... yes.. finally quit smoking..

no thanks to him actually. haha..
org nak quit bukannye nak motivate..
hahaha..

but i've done it out of my freewill.

yeahh..

it's a new month.
April.
=)

gonna be 3 mths in 2 wks.

hehekz..

i love my man.

mwuachz.