thoughts

i'm going nuts!

seems like borefuckingdom is taking the toll on me again. and i'm in class. and i did work today, suprisingly lah. since it's Database and i havent been in this class for like, 5 weeks straight.

ARGH.

kefedupan.

sometimes, i realise that i'm living in pretence. i have to put up a strong front coz people need me to be there for them. And i cant be there for them if i'm not strong myself. But i guess, it's just a matter of your mind. As what Irfan said to me last night. It's all your mindset. You just have to convince yourself that everything will be okay and they will be okay.

Ayien said that i'm better off because i have lots of ppl around me. Hmm. I guess so. The time when i was really down and heartbroken, i ran away from school for 2 1/2 weeks and just spent time at Sentosa almost everyday and also wif my family.

And, the Sentosa ppl really talked to me and advised me on things. It was touching to see that so many ppl care for me.

I realise that wad they say is true, "You're still young, you're gonna have a lot of other opportunities as you grow older."

yesh. i'd like to think that it's true.

but i'm just thinking wad the heck is hurting me so much. The fact that i lost him? Not really. it's more to the state that i am in now. self-pitying i suppose.

so i just got back from meeting a friend. =) we watched the fireworks. it was really nice.. =) memorable as well. but after that it was horrible. terrible. the human traffic, goodness! i could've fainted coz of the amt of ppl surrounding me, making it so hot and difficult to breathe tho it was at Marina Square. Having headaches now.

My classmates have been nuts today wif phototaking and stuff. Like as if it's the last day ehh. Hahaha.. But it was fun. I love you all lah.















yeh. those are my babies. just now was e26j. but they're my e35c as well. =) love em to bits!

love always,
ChiCka