Alone. So Alone.

Things are not going better. And he's not doing anything to make it any better.

Sometimes i wonder, how long can i last? Can I still continue to be patient and perservere in this relationship? I just feel like giving up sometimes.. But i cant bear to lose him...

"Here I go, scream my lungs out and try to get to you
You are my only one
I'd let go, but there's just no one who gets me like you do
You are my only my only one"

I'm too tired to cry.
I tried to understand.
I tried to be strong.
I tried to give him time.
I gave him the chance.
I took the risks.

Pls tell me where this is leading to. You left a scar in my heart but you're not treating the hurt that comes with it.. I miss the old times when we would just crap on the phone for hours and hours on end.. u told me you'd change. but things are the same. i long for the guy whom i fall in love with 3 months ago..

i feel so alone. its as if i'm single again. Alone.

And i leave with this song which describes perfectly how i feel. Same plot. Same feelings. Sorry to those non-malay peeps who dun understand. my mly sucks. i cant translate.

Mahligai Dari Airmataku - Lestari

Izinkan diriku meluahkan rasa
Maafkanlah aku andai kau terasa
Biar kupaparkan apa yang terjadi
Moga engkau tak ulangi

Sungguh tak kusangka kau berpaling tadah
Setelah lamanya menjalinkan cinta
Dalam diam-diam kau sudah berpunya
Tanpa aku menyedari semuanya

Aku mendoakan agar kau bahagia
Bersama si dia insan yang kau suka
Percintaan kita tak sampai ke mana
Setakat di bibir saja sayang

Kau bina mahligai dari air mata
Yang jatuh berderai di wajah sepiku
Hancurnya hatiku bisa tak terkata
Terhumban rasa diriku

Oh aduhai ku masih ingati
Janji manis dan saat romantis
Kau pintaku supaya setia
Akhirnya kau yang berubah

Oh tuhanku tabahkan hatiku
Temukan ku dengan ketenangan
Jiwa ini dibelasah rindu tetapi apa dayaku

Kucuba pejam mata tapi tak terlena
Kerana ku masih teringat padamu
Begitu payahnya nak ku melupakan
Pernahkah engkau fikirkan oh sayang...